As i said before.
i didn't want to see anyone sad or depressed or anything worse than that because then that would remind me when i got depressed.
I always tried to make someone smile, even at the new school i went to.
Then after i finished my school year, i went to a different school to study cooking.
i still tried to make someone happy when i was around them but slowly i started to forget about my own promise and i then started to hold back and be all depressed again, hoping that no one realises that i'm not okay but obviously there are some friends that I have ( not in the school ) that can see right through me and ask me if I am okay or not and if I need to talk about anything.
i always said no that I was okay and that I didn't need help or anything but obviously i wasn't.
Then i realised that I just broke my own.
I broke the promise that kept me from going back to the old me that i despised the most.
I hated the me that I became, i needed to change for good, no promises, just me changing, Leaving the old me behind in the past, never being sad ever again.
I needed changes.