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Chapter 4 - I'm Still Here

One thing nobody knows about Harry is he has a Eidetic Memory. He has no idea why since he can hardly recall anything from before he was hit with the Killing Curse, and it mainly just came to him as dreams as a child, but he can remember everything from the time he woke up in the side car of Hagrid's flying motorcycle to the present. With this he would secretly read or head to the library when he could.

AN/ Yes I know an Eidetic memory is very cliche but you just have to deal with it.

Another thing most people don't know about Harry is he loves music. He loves to sing and play instruments. It all began when he was six and they got a new music teacher Mrs. Melone. She was the only one in the entire neighborhood who noticed his abuse and didn't believe the Dursley's lies. But when told that nothing ever came from it, even when reported to the police, she decided to help him in secret. She would assign him detentions almost everyday and say she was having him write lines or clean up but in fact she was teaching him how to sing and play a variety of instruments. Mrs. Melone would feed him, give him books, let him draw and play with toys. She was like a mother to him until he got his Hogwarts letter.

The only people other than Mrs. Melone who knew of his talents and love in music were his Quidditch teammates and he had them all swear to not tell anyone. The only reason they know is because he accidentally forgot he wasn't alone when they were in the shower. Of course since the boys knew he also had to tell the girls. It deepened the bond between them as teammates as none of them ever went against his wishes. He even sang for them a few times in private practice. Hell he never even told Ron or Hermoine about his love of music even before he found out they were both spying on him for Dumbles.

Ron never liked to work for anything and only had three interest eating, quidditch, and chess. Nothing else seemed to matter to him. As for Hermoine all she ever cared about was books. Ron wouldn't like him having a hobby as time consuming as music and Hermoine would just nag about how he should study more than waste his time on a 'pointless hobby' at least that is what she called it the one time he asked her opinion on music.

It was last Summer that he began making plans when he discovered the manipulations in his life along with the lies. He found out about Ron and Hermoine due to Dobby, a house elf he helped free by tricking Lucius Malfoy. Apparently Dobby had bonded to Harry making Harry his new master. When asked why Dobby explained that a house elf must be bound to either a wizard/witch or a place of magic such as Hogwarts or a Magical home. If they don't then they will slowly die from lack of magic. After being bonded to Harry he began watching over him and his friends that is when he found out about them being spy's for the headmaster. Though he doesn't think they began off as spy's, at least Hermoine didn't, he suspects Ron only became his friend because he is the Boy-Who-Lived. Seriously how could all the compartments on a magical train be full?

Another thing he found out is that despite the Eidetic Memory his thought process had been slow ever since Hagrid showed up. Turns out he had a hex placed on him, well multiple hex's and charms, that limited his intelligence. It was most likely on his letter, not on the envelope of course or else Hagrid would have been affected. Once it was removed by the goblins he began to see things a lot clearer. Such as the train being full which would be impossible, the Weasley Family shouting about muggles on a busy train station, Dumbledore flying to the ministry when he has access to a floo in his room along with a few other things.

It was because he found out about all these things and how he was practically being set up to be some kind of puppet that he began planning. Of course a lot of his plans couldn't happen til he reached 17 so he still had to pretend to be the same old Harry during his third year. Though Hermoine wasn't the only one with a time turner that year, only his was better. He even managed to invent a spell that allowed him to get more done with half the work. But thanks to Fake Moody and Dumbles he was declared an adult early! Which meant his plans could be moved forward and he can finally stop holding back on everything. Which is actually a bit funny since he began training the two boggarts that Remus had found in third year to the point they could now shape shift on command. He really enjoyed how obedient they were once he became their greatest fear. He named them Boogie and Oogie. He planned for that show to happen in his 7th year but he was excited to perform it nonetheless.

Though he may have to scrap the idea of terrifying the Dursley's with snakes, boggarts, and magic… Nah he is still going to make their life a living hell but first he is going to completely and utterly ruin their reputation. Just thinking about it made him smile and he was sure the picture of them destitute and vilified by everyone would let him power the strongest Patronus ever. Perhaps he would start with something to make them more easily angered so that they lash out at the neighbors or coworkers. Yes that might do, he could even spin it that without their normal outlet, aka himself, that they were finally showing their true colors.

NGAF

November 2nd

When the students went down for breakfast Harry was at the Teachers Table. "Now before you all begin eating" He said as he stood and got their attention "I would like to tell you that today is a free day, perhaps tomorrow too, until we can get classes filled and fixed." This got the students to cheer "The Sorting Hat has agreed to take over History of Magic, and he promised not to sing his stories. Professor Babbling has agreed to take over as Gryffindors head of house" He claps politely "I still need to find Teachers to take over certain positions those being Wizarding Etiquette, 1st through 3rd year potions as I only want Snape teaching the upper years, also need a temporary Muggle Studies teacher until Professor Burbage can update her knowledge. I have some ideas but I still need to ask and recruit." The first, second, and third year's of all houses other than Slytherin were very happy to not be taught by Snape til Fourth year.

"I am also permitting each teacher to be able to select a student assistant for their class from the sixth years and seventh years if the student in question wants to get a head start on Mastery. Lastly, unless you haven't figured it out yet, I love music. You may have guessed from the show I put on on Halloween night. Either way I am sure some of you are wondering why or how I changed so much over the Summer well I didn't. It was actually the Summer before third year began and I learned a few things but had to pretend everything was the same. Anyway I am going to be singing later today at 7pm about how I felt during my first year. You can attend or not, I really don't care but you may miss out on hearing the Boy-Who-Lived performance." With that he snapped his fingers and food appeared on the tables.

"You're actually making sure I teach less dunderheads?" Snape said with an arched brow. Least he didn't sound condescending.

"Yea I know you don't have the patience to teach the younger years. Besides I bet you and McGonagall" She looked over when I said her name "Didn't know this, since the headmaster prevented it. But in my parents Will they named you both as potential guardians of me if they were to die before I did." This seemed to shock them both, especially Snape. "You will learn more when the Will is read. I am going to make it a public thing." With that I walk away from the table heading towards the Hufflepuffs, I still had a bit of resentment I needed to brush off.

"You know with all your accusations about me trying to steal Cedric's and by extension Hufflepuffs glory I think you all forgot to use your brains to remember that before the Goblet spat out the name no one knew who would be the champion. So please do tell me how, even if it wasn't proven that I did not enter myself, that I was trying to steal Cedric Diggory's glory when no one would have known he would be the champion at the time?" The puffs gape at that causing me to merely roll my eyes "Idiots..."

NGAF

Angelina Johnson, Katie Bell, Alicia Spinnet, along with Fred and George were the very first to come out to the newly built stage. Not even bothering to question how a stage got built so fast because Harry always had a way of doing things. Though they did have to question one thing and Katie was the one to ask "Harry why are there four of you?"

Yep standing on the stage were three other Harry Potter's. One was messing with a board full of knobs and buttons, one was testing a drum set, one was tuning a guitar, and the last one was supervising off the stage. It was the last one that turned and smiled at them "This?" he gestures to his clones "Is a spell I made by modifying the Gemino Charm/curse. Classified it as family magic though so I can't teach you"

"Harrikens are you-" Fred or perhaps George began

"Telling us that you-"

"Made a spell that-"

"Makes even more of yourself?"

I nod "Yep" he said popping the p "Takes a lot of magic power and to most it would probably kill them to try it since it is also a very complex spell. Need at least Mage level reserves to make a single copy." Ah the looks of them with their mouths wide open at the implications of my statement was priceless "Oh and when the spell ends I gain all the memories gained from the copies"

"YOU WHAT?!" All of his teammates yelled at the same time.

"I gain all the memories that my doubles have when the spell ends. With my memory, a time turner, and this spell I managed to read every single book in the library last year. Not to mention some books I found in the you know what room" Dobby showed him the Come and Go Room or rather the Room of Requirement last year. Though he didn't want to have to sneak to the 7th floor any time he wanted to use it and he came up with a very simple solution. He asked the room for a way to access it from anywhere inside the castle. After getting that he would sometimes take his teammates in there and teach them how to play a few instruments when they expressed interest while they also taught him a few things as well.

"Wish I knew that spell..."Said Katie.

"Sorry, I had to classify it as Family Magic so that no one could demand it from me. Unless you marry me or I adopt you into the… Hm that might work actually. Something to think about, still would have to check your magic levels. Ah anyway" He says seeing other people begin to approach the stage "Well we can talk later as I have a few things to tell you all." With that he climbs up onto the stage and gets prepared. Chairs and benches began appearing before the stage brought over by the House Elves.

"Harry James Potter! How did you set this up? Why are there three more of you? You shouldn't have people polyjuice as yourself that is very narcissistic. Why do you have a keyboard? You know Electronics don't work around magic! Also why did you make up all that stuff about Headmaster Dumbledore? He only wants to help you. Seriously Harry how can you-"

"Oh for the love of God will you SHUT THE FUCK UP GRANGER! In case you didn't get the fucking message, WE" he gestures to himself and her "Are no longer friends! You gave up that right when you decided it was more important to do whatever the fuck Dumbleshit told you to than trust your own fucking eyes. Seriously you suspected I was abused and the proof was right there yet the moment Dumbledore said otherwise you decided he was right. You are stuck so far up Dumbles wrinkling old ass I am not really sure where you end and he begins!"

"Harry you can't say those things about the Headmaster-"

"Granger shut up" he hits her with an over powered silencing spell "He is no longer the Headmaster. Now sit down as I got a show to do" He then cast Sonorus at himself "Welcome to my stage, please take a seat and do feel free to be quite or else you will be made to stay quite like Bushy over here" he gestures to Granger who looked very angry as she couldn't cancel his spell. "Now like a lot of you I was very excited to come to Hogwarts. I didn't have a good childhood so when I got the opportunity to come here I grabbed it. I wanted to make friends and be just like every other magic child. But it quickly became clear that no one wanted to be friends with just Harry. No, everyone wanted the Boy-Who-Lived and if I didn't act how the Boy-Who-Lived should you would all look at me with scorn until I did. There was no room for Just Harry in your eyes. So here is a little song about how I felt during my first year when I had all your fantasy expectations thrust onto me"

(I'm Still Here (Jim's Theme) - John Rzeznik – Treasure Planet)

The other three Harry's began to play on their instruments, every so often Angelina and Alicia would clap, while Harry Prime stood center stage and soon began to sing "I am a question to the world, not an answer to be heard or a moment that's held in your arms. And what do you think you'd ever say, I won't listen anyway. You don't know me and I'll never be what you want me to be. And what do you think you'd understand I'm a boy no, I'm a man. You can't take me and throw me away! And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah you stand here on your own. They don't know me cause I'm not here!"

"And I want a moment to be real, wanna touch thing's I don't feel, want to hold on and feel I belong! And how can the world want me to change, they're the ones that stay the same! They don't know me cause I'm not here. And you see the things they never see. All you wanted I could be! Now you know me and I'm not afraid. And I wanna tell you who I am. Can you help me be a man! They can't break me as long as I know who I am!"

"And I want a moment to be real, wanna touch thing's I don't feel, want to hold on and feel I belong! And how can the world want me to change, they're the ones that stay the same! They can't see me but I'm still here! They can't tell me who to be, cause I'm not what they see! Yeah, the world is still sleeping while I keep on dreaming for me! And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe!"

"I want a moment to be real, wanna touch thing's I don't feel, want to hold on and feel I belong! And how can they say I never change! They're the ones that stay the same! I'm the one now cause I'm still here! I'm still here! I'm still here! I'm still here." The music began to trail off and end.

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