Im back! But this isn't something depressing or gory. Im actually happy. Maybe it's almost 5am but so what? Im crying happy tears because I'm so happy knowing that o have people who care about me now. I have a draft about me ranting because I had a small friend group of people who just ignored me and all I did was accept it. Now, I have a best friend. I have people I can call my friends and family. Maybe we don't talk a lot but K is still in my life and still tells me how much he cares about me. I still have a loving girlfriend. My best friend's birthday is in two days. Im so excited for her and I don't even know why. I love them all. My best friend and all of my friends are amazing. But, I'm kinda scared. It's been a while since I've felt this way about people. Im scared they'll leave me or treat me like my old friends. Im scared that I'll leave them because I'm too scared to truly open up and love someone. But, even though I'm scared, I'm trying my best to hold on and I'm giving them my all and slowly opening up.
-Sam