Saturday, June 25; 11:30 am
I wake up with earphones in my ears, with the songs of Valley still playing on the earphone. I take them off and walked out of my room. Louis is playing on the Playstation. I pick up my textbook and make my daily coffee. I sat on the dining room chair and began eating breakfast. My phone rings and it was Jay calling
"Hey, man," I say
"Hello,"
"What do you need?" I ask him, "Why'd you call?" I asked him again, but then Louis interrupted my question and said, "Who is that? Is that your gay friend again?"
I waved my hand to shut him up and I'm glad he did,
"I'm sorry if you heard that, but anyway, why'd you call at this time?"
"It's fine, don't worry about it. I just wanna see how my friend is doing. You know that you always have that thing of yours that makes you always sad every other night, right?" He said to me, "Look, I'm just worried about you. I know how much it hurts you when you think about her since you've had feelings for her since the fifth grade, eight years, you know? That's a lot of patience you have in you, but I know it's hurting you, I feel what you feel. I genuinely care for you, you know?" he said
"You didn't have to say all of those things this late in the morning but, no, I did not have an episode last night. Don't worry." I assure him
"I'm glad to hear that for the least, and alright, I'll need to go now," he said, chuckling,
"Alright, bye now," I said, then put my phone down. Then continue drinking my (late) morning coffee,
"Hey, Louis, you didn't have to ask that question you know. It was homophobic. You basically like, disrespected my friend." I tell him
"What? No, it wasn't disrespectful. I just called him gay, that's it. What's wrong with calling people gay?" He answered me back in a frustrated manner, "Plus, I didn't call him any slurs." He added
"But still, Louis! It's still wrong of you to call him that every time he calls me or comes over! Jesus, Lou."
"Alright, alright! No need to cry about it. Geez." He said, then returning to play GTA 5 on the Playstation. Mumbling things and words behind my back but I didn't mind and went into my room to take a shower. I have to meet with Sandy and Karah at their dorms, they want to hang out since they asked me yesterday after class if I can hang out with them and bring my guitar there. I agreed with them. I put my used mug in the sink and went to my room to take a shower.
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After taking a mere 5-minute shower, I walked out of my room wearing a sweater, and jeans even when it was hot out. I walked out of my dorm and locked the door behind me, knowing Louis, he'll probably go out and do drugs or get drunk and shit, I don't know. But I brought my spare key just in case I got locked out like last time. I walked to the parking lot of the building and went to Karah and Sandy's dormitory building on the other side of the university campus. Once I reached my car, I clicked on the unlock doors button on my key and went inside. I put the keys inside the engine and turned it on. I put down my bag and my guitar on top of the front passenger seat, and I start driving. As I drove out of the dormitory building and onto the main street, I couldn't help but think of my future. The things that will happen once I graduate with a doctorate in Psychology. Or something like that, I don't really know. I just want to be with someone who will love me for who I am, the same way I did to the girls I used to date, I'm a pretty loyal guy, but sometimes loyal guys don't get the treatment they deserve. But to be honest with myself, I'm content with my current situation right now because Sandy's always there for me whenever I need her. Can't help but chuckle at the fact that I always fall in love with the people who were nice to me. But it's no use to think of those since telling her what I feel might end badly and I will get my heart broken.
When I got to Kassandra and Karah's dormitory building, I parked my car, removed the keys from the engine, grabbed my backpack and guitar, and locked my car doors. I walked up to the entrance of the building leading to the elevator. I pressed the elevator button pointing up and the elevator doors opened, I walk inside and then clicked the button for the 5th floor. It was just a mere 10-second elevator ride to the top since it was a Sunday and everybody was resting from the classes yesterday. I walked out of the elevator and walked to the door of their dorm room. The door opens and Karah looked happy to see me
"Hey, Michael!" She shouted out, "Come in, come in!" She said as she opened the door wider for me and I walked in, she then closed the door behind me and I saw Sandy cooking food in their kitchen, I walked over to their couch and sat down on it. I didn't know that the couches they had were this comfortable.
"So, uh, what do you guys want to do?" I ask the girls, "Like, is someone coming here other than me?" I say, laughing at my own question
"Well, you and Karah decide, but not right now, we're just waiting for Jay and Montgomery."
"Jay and Monty? They're coming here? I thought Jay was busy-" I say until Karah cut me off
"He was busy but he told us that canceled his plans to hang out with us, same with Monty." She explained, "They're pretty cute together, and I'm completely being honest."
"Totally." I said, agreeing with her, then got closer to her and started speaking in a low voice, "especially what happened to Jay in the twelfth grade, y'know? I felt bad for him. But I'm glad he found someone." I whispered, "but turns out the dude he liked back then liked him back but was just scared of his sexuality, so that son of a bitch didn't tell him his true feelings and let Jay break his own heart. And when we graduated, we saw him having a girlfriend instead." I finished whispering to Karah
"Yeah, I know that-" Karah whispered to me but was interrupted when Sandy called us for lunch at the dining table.
We walked over to the dining table and sat down on one of the chairs, then Sandy put the food in front of us and we started eating.
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When we finished eating Sandy's Chicken Cordon Bleu, I walked back to the sofa and turned on their TV. And it was showing a replay of Paramore's concert in the Philippines back in 2018. They were playing Misery Business so I didn't change the channel since it's one of my favorite bands of all time.
"Hey, Micah, what're you listening to?" Sandy asked
"Oh, just Paramore." I answered her
"Sounds emo." she said, "And oh, I'm not hating on emo culture, but aren't emo's died out by now?" she asked again
"Hey! Emo's are not dead...yet, as long as I'm alive." I said, laughing, "Well, the emo in me is not dead yet at least. I'm still into Hawthorne Heights, Paramore, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Tokio Hotel, Green Day, Pierce the Veil, Thirty Seconds to Mars, Blink-182 and so much more, obviously and I'm sorry that I listed all the emo bands I like."
"Yep, you're still emo as always." She said, teasing me about it.
"Hey, I'm not always emo, I don't wear black eyeliner and black t-shirts anymore, you know? I kept that phase back in the past and will forever stay back there." I say to her.
"Yeah, yeah, I know, I know." She said as she stood up and waved her hand back at me.
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While I was watching the Paramore concert on their TV, someone knocked on the door three times, and for a mere 5 seconds, they knocked again....three times,
"I'm coming, I'm coming!" Karah shouted while running to the door, "Hi, Jay." She said while Jay said Hi back, then went into the dorm room with Montgomery with him. They walked to the living room and sat down on the sofa,
"Why were you guys late?" I ask Jay,
"Traffic and Montgomery had the need to go to Starbucks. But it was fine by me. Sorry in advance if I didn't get you guys anything."
"It's fine. I just had coffee a while ago anyway."
Jay then went off the couch to sit next to me, then asked me in a low voice, "Hey, uh, so that nobody can hear this, but are you gonna do something about Louis? He's a bit...homophobic. He's probably the reason why I don't come there that often, WELL, he is one of the reasons that I don't come there in the first place, but are you gonna move out someday?" He asked me.
"I'll do something about it if he does something wrong," I answered him
"Oh. Okay." He said back
"Hey, uh, Jay?" I say
"Yeah?"
"Can we go talk somewhere private first?"
"Sure." He says as the both of us stood up from the sofa and he opened the door leading outside of Karah and Sandy's dorm
"Hey, Sandy, we're just gonna go out for air for a bit, is that good with you guys?" I tell her
"Sure! Take your time."
"Alright." I say as I walk out the door and close it behind me. I ran up to Jay, "Let's talk at the roof deck."
"Sure." He says as we both walk up the flight of stairs leading to the roof deck, while we're walking up there, he asks, "What do you want to talk about?"
"I wanna confess to Sandy."
"What?!"