I wish my eyes were closed
I crave a life where there are no expectations
maybe it would be fun as I seek my own directions
I fantasize about a life where I was truly happy
or a life where I killed eternity
I bled as they told me that it is such a pity
that I refused to become what they wanted me to be
I asked God if I was insane
for trying to protect myself from pain
the innocence slipped as I saw and felt more
that was when it all became a horror
it doesn't get better when I open my eyes
I wish I could fool myself with happy lies