Hey, Folks!
I hope that all of you have been doing well, and that this journal entry finds you happy and healthy.
Me?
Hmm.
I have been pretty decent outside of the bit of illness that I have been battling for the past week.
I have a good job.
I have a phenomenal significant other.
My readership seems to be growing and quite active as of late.
I have nothing to complain about, not that I would even if I was given the opportunity, lol.
None of us need that, and that's not what you come here for!
Want to know something?
We are just about at the halfway mark with this volume of O.J.M., you know?
That blows my mind.
You all have been quite attentive and loyal, and I couldn't and would never ask you for more.
Ever.
Maybe one thing.
If I ever get the chance to get a physical book printed, feel free to buy a copy!
That would be dope lol.
But hey, I am not here to sell you anything; I am here to lead you into the chapter that you are here to read, lol.
I hope that it sates that hunger!
See you back here soon enough, yeah?
Enjoy!
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August 28th, 2013.
Journal #079.
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I can't help but love her.
I don't think I could stop even if I tried...
That's both amazing,
And scary.
I've never been here before.
And one day, if it's meant to be,
Together we will be.
We all went to the beach today.
Me, XXXXX. XXXXX, XXXXX, XXXXX.
It was a great time.
Then pizza, and more games.
I love our routine.
Pizza places, lol.
Video games.
Good times.
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Hmm.
-I loved her, until I hated her.
My heart works that way.
I love so deeply and unconditionally that it can be very hard for me to disconnect from people that I love and care about, even when they deserve it.
She deserves nothing.
Not a thought.
A feeling.
A memory.
So I won't give it to her.
This whole volume has more than enough about her painted over its pages, and any of it that is positive is far beyond any mercy or care that I currently have for her, lol.
She used and broke me.
-She let me fall deeply in love with her, knowing that she would never love me back in any form of mutuality. That is extremely selfish, and people like her should be studied.
You know what they say: "Hurt people, hurt people."
She did far more than just hurt me.
She ruined me and kept me in a lowly cage of love for nearly a decade.
-As for the four names?
One of them was her.
One was her best friend.
The last two were two guys who I thought were really good friends.
Both used me just as much as SHE did, you know?
As did her best friend...
Beware, folks.
People will take your kindness and take, and take, and take.
And you want to know something?
Takers have no limit.
Be kind.
But also, beware.
I will leave you all at that, and I hope that you all surround yourselves with good, loving, genuine people.
Life is short, hard, and far more complicated when you have to face it alone.
Try not to, okay?
Safe travels, Folks.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.