"True Love Is Something That Surpasses Logic And Rational Thinking"-Aaliyah
Only A day had passed since the battle in Hell against Ikari, the sun in the sky had began setting leaving a golden glow in the darkening sky…
Jason sat by himself on a cliff side looking out at the vast ocean… his knees were pushing into his chest while his arms wrapped around his legs as her buried his face into his knees.
As much as he tried to take his mind off it, the words that spewed from Ikari's mouth stuck to his mind like a creeping shadow towering over his entire being, whispering into his ear… "There's no difference between you and I… just like how you kill demons with cause, I kill humans with cause! "You kill to protect your mother, your big sister, your friend Aria, and all of your other loved ones… I act based on my desire in the moment, if I see a human I want to kill then I'll kill them. But the only thing is, I don't justify my actions like someone who feels righteous enough to view themselves as a hero, but in the end you know as well as I that no matter what the cause killing is still an evil act no matter what the reason…
"You feel it right now as well, don't you? You'll kill anyone who threatens the lives and safety of the ones you love even if that means throwing away your humanity… while you are a demon by DNA and born a human, truth is your neither. "You have no place in either world if you can't even decide for yourself what it is you want to be! Yet you still view yourself as better than us demons because of the difference in our reasons for action!
Those words following the rush of wrath and fury in his heart, further proved Ikari's words to be true… Jason's body began to shake, being a product of an act forced upon his mother, and now these words, along with the entire universe after his life because his body houses a planet threatening entity? Only one question was on his mind. "What am I here for?" Sometimes one questions their purpose for existing, yet in Jason's case… what worth is his life if it just brings even more suffering around those he so claimed to want to protect?
"Why am I alive?", "I want to disappear" simply staying alive or even around them would be as if he wrapped his hands around their necks and took the light from their eyes himself… "I'm nothing but a curse the world forced my mother to give life to"
Then before he knew it, his chest rapidly rose up and down… his heart pounding on his chest to be let out while the thoughts in his mind kept repeating all at the same time, like a thousand voices in his ear at once… "haah" ragged gasps left his lips, and for the first time in months since Malum possessed his body and tried to kill his big sister, tears poured down his eyes, and his face started to burn hotter…
"I want to die" that's all he could think of that could relieve some stress off the lives of his loved ones, and as that thought along with the other jangled thoughts repeated in his mind, an arm pulled him into a woman's chest as she rested her head on his. He couldn't bring himself to look up, but didn't need to hear her voice to know it was his mother Aaliyah, trying to comfort him…
"Ma-Ma" he struggled to let his words out while his breaths kept halting his speech. "You don't have to say anything, but I want to tell you something, so please just listen" the tone of her voice sounded soft yet ever so serious.
"When you and your sister were born, I- I struggled to bring myself to say I love you to you both… because of the way you two were brought into this hell. "And I hated myself for that, and I hated the idea of bringing a child into a hell like this with a mother that didn't love them, so I tried to learn to love you both". Jason's eye lids had slightly moved, such words from his mother were understandable and no one could blame her for feeling this way, but that doesn't change the feeling in his heart after hearing such words…
But then Aaliyah continued, "and when I was a few years younger than you are now all I ever wanted was to be loved and feel love for someone… "and overtime before I knew it, the thought of the grand elder planning to make you into Malum's vessel, and how that would affect a child like you, it made me hate myself even more, knowing that I was what brought you and your sister into such a place as this". "And at the time I didn't truly know what it meant to love someone, and growing up I never received any love from your grandmother, and I didn't even know my own father… so I tried my best to learn what the true definition of love is, and eventually I learned that so long as I stay by you and selene's sides through any pain or suffering your feeling, even if you both were to hate me, that's fine too"
"Because now and even not that long after you two were born, I was finally able to genuinely say I loved you both even more than any words could show." "Even if you think you're not human, I'll still love you even if you didn't want me to, even if you were evil, I can't bring myself to hate you… your my son, even if I died by your hands one day, nothing can stop me from loving you or Selene."
It was right after that, that Jason quickly fell into Aaliyah's arms and cried on her chest, one of her hands held the back of his head… while a sudden hot tear drop fell from her dark grey eyes.
"I don't hate you mama" even though he didn't say it aloud, their deep bond allowed Aaliyah to know that's what his heart is saying… she then looked at the setting sun, and then pulled a flower from her hair, and set it in Jason's hand.
"When I met my first and only ever friend, she told me that i was just like a withered flower… and I just needed a "sun" in my life to shine it's life giving light upon me, and that's when I'll know what true love is… and suddenly a few years later you were born, and that's when I finally saw color in this grey world"… "I finally found my sun, is what I thought when I first saw your small face after carrying you in my arms for the first time, and I don't know why, but I cried a little on that day you were born"…
"And with the already lit moon which is your sister, the moon and flower also need a sun to help them shine as well… "if you weren't here, I might not even be alive"… so it may be selfish of me to ask this of you, but please don't ever think that we'd be better off without you, because we wouldn't be…
Jason's breathing had finally calmed down, as he looked up at his mother's face with the setting sun's light shining upon her smiling face… and all he could think to do was hold her tighter.
"The view of a setting sun… a once in a lifetime sight