There are not always only good things, there are times when two people quarrel to the
point of almost fighting each other. Of course, the initiator was mostly Zhenya and the
ignition point was Kwon Taek Joo who caught fire.
When things explode. Zhenya often cannot understand why Kwon Taek Joo is angry.
No, he doesn't even try to understand.
Zhenya's train of thought is as self-centered as a 5-year-old child, completely unaware
of his surroundings and not knowing how to ask for forgiveness even if it's all his fault.
The word sorry doesn't seem to be in Zhenya's dictionary.
Of course, there were also a few times when Kwon Taek Joo was the cause of the fight.
That was also the time the two had the biggest argument.
It happened not long ago. Around Zhenya's birthday, their second birthday since living
together. Kwon Taek Joo promised to go on vacation to Ajinoki together when Zhenya
was too tired from the Korean heat.
But at that time, an event happened that made North-South relations tense. The
national intelligence agency is placed on alert and Kwon Taek Joo is assigned a series
of missions. He was forced to postpone his vacation plans a bit. It was a politically
sensitive time and was also the reason Kwon Taek Joo asked Zhenya to never meddle
in his affairs. To compensate, he coaxed that he would listen to everything Zhenya
wanted after the busy work was over.
Trouble began when the intelligence information he had received with great difficulty
arose in the middle. As a result, the target he was about to catch after chasing for many
days suddenly disappeared. Kwon Taek Joo turned on detection mode and scanned
everywhere, but the fishing line broke and the fish escaped. Time passed like an
eternity while he still had no clue. The Ajinoki trip was therefore also delayed.
Kwon Taek Joo had to shyly turn back when instructed to stop searching. For the first
time, he could not complete the assigned task.
He returned home after a few weeks and didn't say a word. He didn't want to reveal his
feelings of failure and tried to shake off all his regrets. But it's not easy. The mood is
depressed and shows no signs of recovery. Zhenya also just looked at him silently.
(He knows..)
Kwon Taek Joo slept like he was unconscious all day. When he opened his eyes again,
Zhenya was still sitting in that position and looking at Kwon Taek Joo. He was also not
in a hurry to start a conversation or arrogant as usual. Kwon Taek Joo went into the
bathroom without saying a word to him, he filled the bathtub with water and soaked in it.
He must sincerely apologize, explain the recent situation and hope for understanding,
but Kwon Taek Joo is completely in no spirit, for the time being he does not want to
think or make any effort.
After a long while, Kwon Taek Joo walked out. Zhenya was sitting on the sofa in the
living room. Eyes met. Zhenya's face stiffened. Thinking back, he kept hearing a
vibration somewhere. Following the direction of the sound, his eyes stopped at
Zhenya's hand. He was holding Kwon Taek Joo's work phone.
It looks like a call came from headquarters. They said they would be in touch if the
target reappeared. In Kwon Taek Joo's mind, he only thought that the opportunity to
save had come. He didn't have time to think about the problems that had to be solved
along with the fatigue that had accumulated over the past time.
[Give it to me.]
Kwon Taek Joo immediately reached out his hand. Zhenya's expression turned cold.
[Give it to me.]
He urged again in a low voice. Just then, Zhenya smashed the phone as if for him to
see. The broken phone fell to Kwon Taek Joo's feet.
The thin thread of reason in his head tensed and then was cut, feeling like being poured
with a bucket of cold water.
[What are you doing?]
[I said it was all over.]
[...You missed your target. So the strategy also temporarily ends.]
[So what? Do you want to go again?]
Zhenya showed obvious discomfort. Kwon Taek Joo's chest was so tight it was
suffocating. He exhaled.
[That's work.]
[Is that so important?]
[What are you talking about?]
Feeling frustrated when having to answer a series of meaningless questions from an
unreasonable person.
[Can't you tell the difference? I'm not even a child. Don't bother anymore.]
When Kwon Taek Joo's offensive words rang out, Zhenya's chin and forehead wrinkled
for a moment. Sharp eyes flashed fire.
[l have to blow up the entire Korean peninsula for your proud work to end, right?]
Kwon Taek Joo gasped because of the unreasonable sounds, he no longer had any
motivation to talk further with Zhenya.
He ignored him and put on his clothes first. He didn't even button his shirt properly and
hurriedly walked out, but Zhenya called him again. [Taek Joo]'s voice mixed with a sigh.
Kwon Taek Joo turned his head to look back, he was bowing his head with his hands
holding his forehead. Face dark.
[I'm trying to restrain myself from detaining you.]
It wasn't just a threat. It is inherently like that, It's just that he forgot. Kwon Taek Joo
thought that Zhenya had been docile the whole time, meaning he was quite well tamed.
But he is still selfish and narrow minded. He's just being patient. What does peace on
the Korean peninsula mean to someone who doesn't even consider the safety of his
homeland.
If Kwon Taek Joo still had the ability to calmly judge, the situation would be different. But
at that time, he just wanted to make up for his only failure.
['m sorry.]
It's not an apology. But an apology to leave. Zhenya couldn't stand it any longer. He
stood up, quickly closed the distance and roughly turned Kwon Taek Joo around. The
arm that Zhenya held tightly throbbed. His whole body tensed with pressure he had
never felt before.
[Don't go.]
The cold expression on Zhenya's face was a complete contrast to the pleading tone. It's
a kind of threat. It was a warning to stop because he was about to get angry. But Kwon
Taek Joo dismissed that hand.
[I have to go.]
Kwon Taek Joo tried to turn away but his collar was grabbed. When he protested,
Zhenya grabbed him violently by the collar and pushed him into the mirror in front of the
door. His head was pounding with shock. The scalp feels the entire surface of the cold
mirror. Luckily it didn't break.
At this point, Kwon Taek Joo couldn't stand it any longer.
[Let go.]
He clenched his molars and growled. His hand grabbed the arm that was tightening the
collar. His nails dug into the back of Zhenya's hand.
[Taek Joo. Don't test my patience.]
[Damned. If you can't stand it anymore, go and drag anyone back and roll around. Isn't
that a special ability for a brat like you?]
(He's finished. He's dead, goodbye Taek Joo. It was a wonderful time knowing you.)
Kwon Taek Joo spit it out in anger. Because he was so angry, he accidentally said
something, but he couldn't take back what he said.
Zhenya's face no longer had a drop of blood. His huge shadow completely covered
Kwon Taek Joo. Rapid breathing. When his hand approached, he suddenly shivered.
Zhenya stopped for a moment then reached out and held Kwon Taek Joo's arms tightly.
He gritted his teeth. It wouldn't be strange if Kwon Taek Joo's arm was broken this time.
[Am I that ridiculous in your eyes?]
The emotionless voice seemed to encourage Kwon Taek Joo to answer, the strength
from his hand increased another level.
Time still ticks by even when arguing. Because of Zhenya, he still couldn't contact
headquarters. Kwon Taek Joo's mood was restless.
[Damned. Let go.]
He shouted and pushed Zhenya away but he stood as steady as a rock and didn't move
a bit. Kwon Taek Joo struggled and hit his shoulder and face. Zhenya's jaw clenched
tightly. The atmosphere became more tense.
[Do you mind? Me? In the end, what else should I be like? All I ask is that you don't go.
Do I have to sit obediently like a dog and wait until you feed me? Thank you for your
kindness.]
The voice seemed to break. When Zhenya is truly angry, his iridescent eves become as
clear as crystal. It seemed like everything he had tried to suppress until then exploded
all at once. If it goes any further, it will definitely become a chaos. Kwon Taek Joo
realized this was the time he had to try to use his reason. He relaxed his body and
asked for a truce.
[Let go, and talk later.]
[No I do not think so.]
[Please...]
[I have the right to say no, right? I hate it, Taek Joo.]
[Damn it, I don't have time to joke with you.]
In the end, Kwon Taek Joo couldn't stand it anymore and got angry. Zhenya's hand was
tightened more fiercely. The next moment was the sound of buttons being pulled off and
a shirt being ripped apart. He was speechless and slowly looked at the pitifully torn shirt
while looking at Zhenya.
Zhenya didn't seem fazed at all. He threw away the piece of shirt he was holding in his
hand and said sarcastic words.
[Do not get mad. It's just an immature dog causing trouble.]
(I'm sorry, I should not have laughed. This is a serious situation, but this was funny)
[What, this bastard?]
Kwon Taek Joo was stunned. Zhenya nonchalantly stroked his exposed neck, her
thumb lightly touching his protruding collarbone. It wouldn't be surprising if he broke his
chest right now. It's dangerous and thrilling but he doesn't know what else to do. He got
goosebumps wherever Zhenya's hands brushed.
Zhenya's eyes dropped, his gaze followed his fingers, then he suddenly lowered his
head. Kwon Taek Joo squinted his eyes at the thought of being bitten. Zhenya did not
hesitate to open his mouth and then suddenly bit his neck.
[..Ugh]
[My teeth are itchy so I'll grind them a bit.]
Zhenya muttered then gritted his teeth in anger. His sensitive skin burned, his legs
wobbled at the feeling of teeth digging into his flesh.
[Fuck, come on, fuck... don't!]
In an instant, a pop sounded. Kwon Taek Joo was startled when he saw Zhenya's face
turned to the side. He just tried to push him away, but ended up swinging his hand into a
fist. Time seemed to stop for a moment, only his hands trembled without support.
Zhenya's eves slowly turned red. The tense atmosphere increased one level to the point
of suffocation.
Suddenly the doorbell rang, it seemed like someone was coming. Kwon Taek Joo was
startled and looked at the main door then turned his eyes to Zhenya. His pupils had
completely shrunk. Kwon Taek Joo understood that the two could no longer talk
anymore.
As soon as he said no, their lips suddenly stuck together. The force of the thrust caused
the back of his head to hit the mirror again. He felt the danger to every cell throughout
his body. Zhenya grabbed Kwon Taek Joo's chest as if he was going to tear it to pieces
and even tried to pull down his pants. When Kwon Taek Joo twisted his body to protest,
Zhenya immediately tore the zipper. He grabbed his wrist to stop him but could not
overcome the monster's strength.
Zhenya roughly kneaded Kwon Taek Joo's penis while pressing his lips to his neck, chin
and cheeks. The more he pushed away, the more ferociously Zhenya came back and
attacked.
The doorbell rang again.
"Delivery."
Feeling the presence inside, the delivery staff outside the door spoke up. They knocked
loudly on the door. If he wasn't looking at the wrong house, it seemed like Zhenya
ordered something while Kwon Taek Joo was taking a shower. He learned how to use
an online delivery app even though he didn't know any Korean.
Kwon Taek Joo regained consciousness, he hit Zhenya on the shoulder and pushed him
away as hard as he could. But right after escaping, he was caught and pushed hard
through the main door. The entire entrance door rang loudly.
"This...?"
The delivery man's voice became quite cautious. A picture of domestic violence must
have been painted in his mind.
(This poor delivery man.)
Not completely wrong. Kwon Taek Joo's bare chest and face were pressed tightly
against the cold front door. He couldn't escape because Zhenya grabbed the back of his
neck from behind and pressed him close. He gritted his teeth and endured it, but
Zhenya didn't seem to hear anything.
Zhenya without hesitation pulled his penis out. He pulled down Kwon Taek Joo's pants
and underwear and gently rubbed his meat on the exposed buttocks.
[...This crazy guy]
Curses poured out. All the muscles in Kwon Taek Joo's body were tense to the point of
pain as if he relaxed even a little bit, that giant mass of flesh would crawl right into the
hole.
Zhenya repeatedly rubbed his stiff penis against the hole and bit the back of Kwon Taek
Joo's neck. He still did not forget the foreplay by gently squeezing Kwon Taek Joo's
penis, which was erecting more slowly than usual. Even in dilemmas like this, the body
gradually warms up. Crazy guy.
During that fierce fight, the delivery man's trembling voice rang out, "Are you okay?". He
hasn't left the door yet.
"Hey what happened? Shall I call the police?"
Kwon Taek Joo at that time gave up wrestling. He leaned his sweaty forehead against
the front door and took a deep breath. After Kwon Taek Joo calmed down, Zhenya no
longer behaved excessively.
[...Tell that person to leave.]
Kwon Taek Joo muttered with a tired look. The delivery person did not react for a
moment and then suddenly put his hand on the handle of the main door, after which he
quickly pulled it down. The main door immediately opened and Kwon Taek Joo's body
that was tightly attached to it was also pushed forward. When he turned his head
outward, he almost made eye contact with the delivery person.
The door opens about 10 cm. The delivery man and Zhenya's eyes met through the
door, but Kwon Taek Joo didn't hear him speak. The delivery man froze when he saw a
tall foreigner suddenly appear. Then he was startled when he gradually realized the
scene of two people passionately embracing each other right in front of him.
[Leave it there and go away.]
Zhenya said decisively. It's in Russian but the accent is still enough to convey the
meaning. The delivery person said sorry, then quickly put the things he brought, closed
the door and disappeared.
Perhaps thanks to that brief incident,
Zhenya calmed down a bit. The guy vaguely called Kwon Taek Joo's name and then
rubbed his face against his ear.
[Taek Joo]
[End it quickly]
Kwon Taek Joo raised his elbow to push Zhenya away. Zhenya stopped for a moment
then without hesitation grabbed Kwon Taek Joo's shoulder and turned him aside. When
Kwon Taek Joo resisted, Zhenya pulled him back and pushed him in front of the mirror
and pushed his penis into the hole. Kwon Taek Joo's fingers leaning on the mirror
turned white.
He kept his head down the entire time he was stabbed from behind. He didn't want to
see his face in the mirror opposite, He jerked his head irritably when Zhenya tried to
grab his chin, all he expected was for him to finish the job quickly.
As soon as Zhenya took a step back, Kwon Taek Joo immediately pushed him away
[Don't leave my sight. Or I will kill you.]
(Zhenya definitely has abandonment issues. Not saying what he did was right.)
A warning with a wrinkled nose. Kwon Taek Joo did not answer but left the house. The
dish placed in front of the door caught his eye. Looking at the packaging number, it
seems to be Jambong or malatang. Zhenya ordered something he couldn't eat. His
heart was confused.
(Cute and sad.)
That day Kwon Taek Joo couldn't do anything even when he returned to headquarters.
He was unable to receive calls and responded slowly. Anger and frustration reached
their peak.
He was disappointed that he could not appear at the action location and he did not
contact Zhenya. Kwon Taek Joo tried not to think about anything else but focused on
work. But nothing is different.
Finally, Kwon Taek Joo succeeded in finding the target and quickly obtained the
necessary information. But his mood didn't get better at all. He felt suffocated and
frustrated because he had missed something important. The thoughts he had tried to
suppress quickly returned, suffocating him.
Looking back, it was Kwon Taek Joo who was the cause of the argument. He made a
promise to Zhenya only because he subjectively believed that he could complete the job
smoothly on time. Until the schedule was delayed, he did not appease Zhenya but
asked for another understanding. In the end, things got messy and he still put work first.
It was natural for Zhenya to be angry, though there was a lot to be said about that
bastard's violent reaction.
His mind thought over and over again countless times. The quilt was heavy but reason
still clung to the petty excuse that Zhenya had also done wrong. Kwon Taek Joo didn't
know what face to look at him with. He's also not used to apologizing.
Kwon Taek Joo took the night flight back ahead of schedule. He arrived in Korea at
dawn. Until then there had been no contact from Zhenya. He couldn't sleep for many
days because he was busy with work. He also couldn't close his eyes even on the plane
with wandering thoughts. His whole body was exhausted, his mind just wanted to find a
quiet place to lie down.
He didn't know if the emotional tug of war would last when he met Zhenya. Maybe there
will be another argument. Just thinking about it made his head spin, but he still went to
Zhenya's house.
Kwon Taek Joo rang the doorbell. There was no reaction inside. Zhenya is very
sensitive when sleeping, he will definitely wake up. But no matter how much I waited,
Zhenya was nowhere to be found. Finally, Kwon Taek Joo directly unlocked the door
and entered.
Zhenya sat with his back against the headboard. I don't know if he just woke up or how
long he's been like that. Even in the presence of Kwon Taek Joo, Zhenya remained
motionless. Even when their eyes met, Zhenya didn't say a word. Kwon Taek Joo also
couldn't find the right words to say
[....]
[....]
The two just looked at each other as if they were having a blind date, then Kwon Taek
Joo suddenly crawled onto the bed. Zhenya watched him boldly rush into the seat next
to him. Just like that, Kwon Taek Joo pulled the blanket up to his neck and fell asleep.
Zhenya did not touch Kwon Taek Joo and did not say a word to him.
——
Kwon Taek Joo slept soundly all day. When he opened his eyes again, Zhenya was still
sitting next to him. He did not hold a tablet, phone or book in his hand. Kwon Taek Joo
wondered what Zhenya was doing alone while he was sleeping.
He opened his eyes but just lay still without moving. Kwon Taek Joo just stared blankly
at Zhenya. First he had to say sorry but he couldn't open his mouth. The two of them
should have resolved the problem through dialogue and agreed not to make the mistake
again. In his mind, he had already decided what to do, but he couldn't say anything and
just quietly licked his lips.
Time passed like that, and Zhenya spoke up to break the silence.
[Are you done sleeping yet?]
Kwon Taek Joo nodded silently. He didn't know why, but maybe that's what he should
do right now. Soon, a huge shadow covered his face, a familiar scent crept in, his body
gradually melted, his breath warm and wet when his lips touched. He grabbed Zhenya's
collar tightly and kissed him more passionately than ever.
Zhenya also hugged Kwon Taek Joo tenderly, then the two made love as if it would
never end. People say it's not good to fight and resolve it with your body, but there's no
faster or surer way for both of you. From the beginning, Zhenya doesn't even know how
to self-reflect and is a master at justifying himself. Arguing to resolve conflicts with such
a guy forever is impossible.
Kwon Taek Joo scratched behind his ear as he escaped his endless thoughts. Even if
he dated and married someone other than Zhenya, he would still quarrel for the same
reason. The problem will never be resolved unless Kwon Taek Joo himself leaves NIS.
Because if you're in love, it's natural to want to be together. Who can take on someone
who always prioritizes work over himself?
Dating is extremely tiring. At least that's the case with Kwon Taek Joo. But why did you
start that annoying story? Did you always think that Zhenya was a monster so he would
be different from normal people, that he would never feel alone.
Kwon Taek Joo did not have time to think carefully. When he decided to accept Zhenya,
he didn't expect it to be this deep. This is a limited relationship 'until he gets bored and
lets go'. But is it still like that now?
"This damn guy."
Kwon Taek Joo exclaimed for no reason and then slapped his hand on the pillow, he
pulled a thinner pillow and placed it on his face. Has he been drinking too much? His
body sagged and then a feeling of lethargy flooded in. He curled up his body and fell
asleep.