We stood in front of the police station with Jason walking with me side by side. I became impatient cause he had not said a word. The children trailed behind me slowly too.
" I am sorry for the trouble my Children put you through,you volunteered to help me carry them and it ended up this way. I should have called in with the school so that they would be aware of your arrival."
" I could not believe it,I thought I was going to rot in prison, thank you so much ma'am for personally coming to bail me out. And, your children scared the fuss out of me." he slowly tilted his head to the other side and smiled embarrassingly.
" we are so sorry sir." They held their hands and took a bow. " we did not mean to scare you sir!" he tiptoed gently to where they were and patted them once on every one of their heads.
" Apology forgiven, I will head off now ma'am."
" Oh Jason, let me drop you off on a ride home."
" Thank you so much ma'am, he went down and his head nearly touched his knee. He lost balance and he fell. I bit my tongue. I could not laugh, I definetly couldn't.
We arrived home and I cleared my throat. " Have you guys realized your mistake? I want to hear it from each and every single one of you."
" We should not have left the school premises in the first place mommy."
" We should have cross checked with the school admin."
" I should not have given someone your business card."
" Tell me how that happened again Nelson?"
" Mommy I am sorry, I had been watched some detective series and there was a similar scene to this and I was not being realistic, Nelson and Nathan did nothing; I was the one who motivated them to join me catch Mr Jason."
I removed my seatbelt and I got out of the car, I opened the car door and sat down with them in the passenger seat.
" First to give me a hug, and they all came at me." I smiled and rubbed their hairs.
" Do you know how worried I was when I found out that you guys had not been back home around 4pm? I am sorry for not making out time to come pick you three personally. You were wise, brave and strong. I am very proud of everyone of you. Thank you for listening to me when I told you about avoiding strangers and seeking adults help."
" Oh moooommmmy!!" Nancy became dramatic " I stood like a soldier in the front line."
They all separated from me "tell me about it"
"There was this man, that wore some killer suits and he seemed really reliable, he was the one I gave your business card too. I know that I shouldn't have but he seemed like a top business tysooon or something mom." Nelson gave me a wink , I smirked, he was being presumptuous.
" Don't go giving out my card to everyone who seems like a tysoon sweetie." I pinched Nelsons cheek lightly. " O K O K, mom it hurts a bit, hehe but if he calls you, please give me the phone."
" He was like a…." Nathan wanted to add something. " A father!" nancy said with all the joy in the world and she looked at me, I could see a glinter in his eyes.
I did not enjoy the fact that recently they wanted a father more desperately than usual. My mood changed and I wasn't enjoying the conversation anymore.
I saw Nelson pinching Nancy while she was prancing around singing.
" My father, my father we will pray and sing to God, we would go to church together then got to disney land after."
I sighed and I got out of the car. " All right, my beautiful gift from God come out, grandma is around", I loked into their eyes and smiled. I could not stop them from dreaming. If they really wanted a Dad, I would have to go through the shame and pain I went through, why would I want to thrust my heart and respect and strengthen a bond that was most likely to fail. Why would I want to be threatened and be treated as a second optio when circumstances come up. It took me so much to climb up here, I was happy with just the three of them. I was happy independent. I did not need a companion or someone to feel a vacuum in my life. I don't know why everyone advised me to get into another relationship. I was complete without a man.
I was happy and satisfied, loneliness was never a thing. I stared at the other side of my bed sometimes, I did remember him…some days when I was just wander lost and I could not pin for him at a distance any longer, I was tempted to pick up the line and call him but I was scared, scared might not be the word. I was uncertain about what to expect.
I know what I wanted, we were still married and our bond had not been caught of completely just yet. I had to file a divorce last year. Sooner or later next year we would see in court. I did not even think I was prepared for our second meeting. And when we do, it would be to end the trap once and for all. There would be nothing no longer pulling my mind to him.
I did not need to trust people, I know I can scale through this life by myself. If I was to be given a second chance, I would be that woman who is an island with my three little joy bundles. I could only trust God. He will keep me in perfect peace.
I needed nobody.