the day that marked the start of my four month hell began like any other.....
I woke up in pain from the beating I received the night before night
that one was one of his more...brutal.....of his beatings.....
while he knew not to hit my face..
..usually
the rest of my body was covered in bruises...half heal cigarettes burns.....and dog bites
I have to try 2 or 3 times before I am able to get up.....and even than it was a hassle...
...trying to get to the bathroom so I can take a shower and get ready for school
...by this time we had just recently moved.. again...and that guy came with us
me and my sisters had only just started at a new school the day before.....
my first day we just hung around seeing what our classes was like and meet new people
Which of course means that I just hung in the back...and stayed to myself....
...because....
.....you know.....
.....why bother getting to know people you will only know until the end grade year....
which was only 1 semester away
.... me and my sisters was told that we would only be at this school until summer started....
.....then we would move again....
...out of state...
so for my second day I was to be brought up to speed on the class work and assignments.....
when I got to school I wasn't really surprised when there where expenses that neessd to be paid to some of my classes for some reason or another
I can't really remember for what exactly....
I do know i needed money for my classes
...about $52.50 altogether....
when the end of the day came i walked home alone....
...to be by myself and also because I didn't have any to walk with.....
my sisters was walking too...but....with all the stuff between us.....
.....they was in their own world....
....and me.....mine...
my mother wasn't home yet....just me and my sisters
...immediately as soon as I got home I was attacked....
...by our dogs... under command of ....." him "....and wasn't allowed inside.....
I had to run around outside to keep from getting bit....
by this time.... .when we moved here I had already found a low tree branch....
I can just reach it and can climb on it pretty quickly...
...the dogs couldn't reach me there..... so i ran to it and hurriedly climbed up...
...meanwhile my sister's was told to go inside....
....he made sure I was on my branch.....
....before he also went inside.....
I sat there on my brach until nightfall....
the dogs by this point knew that unless he commanded them not to....
they would forever try to chase and bite me
.....so I was stuck up there until my mother was due to arrive back home....
at which point a few minutes before she actually arrived he finally came back outside.....
.....his clothes in disarray as he called them back.... and I was allowed inside....
I brought up the school money issue with my mother that night when she got home
...that I needed $52.50.....
she told me immediately that she didn't have the money for it....
...that I would have to go without it for a while...
I remember that i really needed part of the money for some reason.....
that I had to have it within the next 2 days for class to participated in some event...
.....everyone was going to be there....and if I didn't have the money.....I would be forced to do paper work for a day while everyone else had fun....
....I was antisocial....
.....but that didn't mean that I wanted everyone talking about me...being to poor to afford to have so-and-so amount... not able to participate like everyone else....and that I must be super poor.....
I didn't want the social death
.....but my mother went on about how she didn't have it.....and that it would be more than a week and a half before she might have it.....
the event I wanted to participate in happened once a week so that mean that I would miss not one but two of them by that time...
I could barely restrain myself from making a fool of myself and breaking down right there over it.....
eventually.....
....I just came to accept it.....
I would be moving soon anyways.....
why should i care what they think
but deep down even if it was for 1 semester.....
.....I didn't want to go through more suffering.....over my classmate pointed states and insults....
It was at that moment...
.....when i had just given up....
... that the guy pasted by us.....
.... while looking at me out the corner of his eye...
he said he was going to his friends house down the street and told my mother to bring his dinner over there.....
since he had "business" to take care of...so he would be there for a while...
.... when the time came... my mother asked me if I could take it to him....
....now I really don't like the guy.....
...but also at this time I come to fear him greatly....
...even more than my dislike....and while I didn't want to.....
...I still need up saying yes and taking it to him.....
I was afraid of what he would do...if he found out that I didn't bring it to him...
I should mention at this time that while I also fear the dogs....
.....as long as he doesn't give them a command.....they behaved like normal dogs kids can play with....
...the ones we played and grew up with....
I know it wasn't really his intentions...
...but the dogs became great guard dogs.....
...so when I went to take " him " his dinner...I also took one of the dogs with me.... as it was dark and I was still a bit young....
when I got to the house the lights was off....and there was barely any noise coming from inside.....
.....I honestly thought he left...but when I knocked he came to the door...
he took one long look at me.....while I'm holding out his plate with food on it.....
.....while also looking up and down the street....
that's when he turned back to me and asked " do you still need $50? "
I was taken aback for a moment before hesitantly said that I did that I needed $52.50...
.....he just disregarded...that and said he could give me the $50....
...I just had to do something for him in the back real quick.....
now.....I'm not as stupid as some folks....and I knew that what he just said was shady as hell....
...but...
.....again....I was afraid of him...
.....not to mention the dog that's been a little...too quiet.....since he asked the door....
so while it sounded sketchy.....
I also I didn't really have a chioce...
.....plus i didn't think he would do anything that bad to me.....as he still together with my mother...
so with trepidation I slow walked into the house....
inside the house was junky
like reaaalllyyyyy junky....
trash everywhere....
mismatched furniture.....
...and dark shades over the windows....
looking around i could see In almost each room there was either a candle or a flashlight spilling out the dark rooms....
I later came to know the term for the type of house I was in call a "bando"...meaning that no one officially stays there and is technically abandoned hence the term
There was no lights.....
power.....
or running water...
.....the smell was horrible....
....with him behind me he hurriedly closed the door...
I distinctivily remember hearing it lock quitely....before he to told me to go on in the back room and set his food down on the table
he was going to get cleaning supplies so that I can clean the house for him....
my thought process at that time.....while above average...wasn't all that great...
so his reasoning.....and excuse.....for him wanting me to go back there was a little plausible... and his task for me didn't set off any warnings bells as it would have everyone else
while the locked door was strange..... to say the least...I figured he was just like everyone else... locking their door's once inside to prevent people from coming in
so I walked.....with the dog.....to the back....
on the way there..... i passed a room that was pitch black.....
... there was no light inside and I couldn't see anything...not like with the other rooms....
...at least with them I can at least vaguely make out stuff by candle or dim flashlight....
.....this one was a black hole...
.... I quickly past by it and tried not to think about to deeply.....
...I entered the backroom and what I saw immediately was a mattress on the floor...
no boxspring...
.... or railings....
.....trash everywhere....
.....wooden boards coving windows...with sheets over them...
....and a dim candle...
....wavering as I entered the room....
...the next thing that stuck me was the smell...
..as again the whole house stinks....but especially in here.....
I cover my nose and best I can and look for the table....
....But I didn't see a table.....
confused I was about to turn around.....
....when out of nowhere a arm came from behind.....
..... me and put me in a choke hold...
" !!!!!!!!! "
I started to panic.....
whoever it was they was strong..
ridiculously so.....
even with all my flailing....
..... and repeated attempts to either break the hold....
..... or hit whoever it was...
they didn't budge at all...
I started to see seeing black spots fill my vision...
..... and all the while thinking why didn't the dog let me know that some was behind me.....
It was at this moment the the " guy " came back and said something not to far awaybfrim me.....
I was lossing consciousness and my head felt light.....
....but i had a faint thought in my head...
.... that yes!!!... he was back!!!.....
..... mhe would help me and beat the shit out of whoever was choking me...
I knew how hard he could hit...
.....if my body was anything to go by.....
but instead of...something..... happening....like a fight or something...
the one choking me...while still choking me of course.....
....let off some...
.....to where I can just barely get some air in my lungs.....
when I just enough to not see spots...
....I could finally make out why I was still being choked.....
there...
...in front of me...
....stood the guy.....
...but he now had the biggest.....shit eating grin I ever seen on his face....
.... he was down to just his underwear....
nothing else....
he said.....something.....and again the guy holding me shifted.....
.....it was also at that moment.....
...that i knew.. ....
whoever was holding me was....
completely naked.....
keeping one arm around my neck.....
...he passed the guy something I couldn't make out....
It wasn't until I heard the unmistakable sound of ducktape....
....that my eyes grew wide like saucers.....
I look on in fear...as the guy came towards me with a stripe of duck tape....and covered my mouth with it
...I really started to grow frantic...
desperate to get out of this situation....but to no avail.....
with the other guy holding and choking me... so I an go nowhere.....
the " guy "...proceeded to wrap both my wrist and ankles In ducktape....
I try my best to fight it.....to make them stop....pleading with them the best I could...
.. ..but it was all futile...
once they was certain that I couldn't speak or move.....
..... tthe guy choking me tossed me onto the dirty mattress facing them....
...it was then that I got a good look at who was choking me....
It was " his " friend....
.....from before we moved.....
.....his "best friend".....
a guy a lot fatter....than him.....
...and just as ugly.....
...but.....he was more vicious....
both stared at me.....sinister looking smiles on their faces.....
....the " guy's " underwear had a...very big.....tent...in the front....
....the....other one....had..a...great...big.....nightmare....inducing thing pointed straight at me....
....while I look back....horrified...scared out of my mind....
... they saw that..... and for whatever reason I seen both of them get even harder...
....with one final stretch of duck tape...the " guy " ripped a big piece off....
...and with some small cloths or whatever to cover my ears....
.....he wrapped both my eyes and ears in tape.....
.....the last thing in my vision.....
....before darkness....
....and the start of the pain....that didn't seem to stop.....
....was their shit eating expression's... as they stared back at me evilly.....
...and I could have sworn the other guy licked his lips...as he as began walking towards me.....
.....and....then.....
nothing....