It's been days,to say I've moved on entirely is a big lie but I'm certainly doing okay at the moment. I was sad, still sad and think will still be sad, but I've learnt a lot of lessons to to be so powerless as a victim again.
Funny enough,I still wish to see Adrianos and I see him often, but when I see him,I act as if I don't.
Ever since that day we've spoken last, we've never been able to interact with each other and face our difference. The truth is I'm afraid to face the truth , but I'm also aware that communication is the key.
However,maybe it's for the best. One thing I've learnt throughout the years is that to love someone else,I need to love myself first and rather than looking for who truly loves me,I should focus on improving myself and allow love and my soulmate to come naturally.
And that's exactly what I'm doing, channeling my anger, sadness and frustration towards something more important. I'm grateful that I was careful from the beginning and the kind of live I have for Adrianos is not toxic and even though I can't promise myself that I won't fall in love again,one thing I'm definitely sure is that this time I'll definitely survive and protect my heart.