MAHIRA
When I woke up, Adamsen was sleeping beside me with messy hair. He looked like he was
exhausted and I felt sorry for him. His hands were intertwined with mine. I had an oxygen
machine attached to an oxygen mask to help my breathing.
'Adamsen.'
I called him as I gently woke him up. He woke up after three calls and caressed my cheeks.
'Are you okay? Do you need something? I'm really sorry I fell asleep. I'm awake. Tell me, are
you hungry?'
I nodded my head and he urged me to take a shower. I did that and he went to the kitchen to
prepare some food for me. After taking a shower I wore a light silk dress. I went downstairs and
there were a lot of dishes on the table. His efforts really melted my heart and I started asking
myself why I didn't fall in love with him instead.
'Adam. Thank you for taking care of me. It means a lot to me. I appreciate it so much.'
Adamsen hugged me all of a sudden and I didn't push him away.
'I thought something bad would happen to you. I don't want to lose you ever Mahi I love you so
much.'
Did my ears hear right? Did he say he loves me? No no no, this can't be happening. I pulled
away from the hug and looked at him in disbelief.
'What did you say?'
'Nothing. Sit down and eat your food. Look at how skinny you are.'
He avoided it and we ate. The food was delicious. He's really a great cook but I couldn't enjoy
the food because his words kept lingering in my mind.
'Adam I... I just…'
He cut me short before I could even finish.
'You know that Thane is not good for you right. But you still love him anyway.'
I kept quiet. What could I say? I had no reason to love Thane nor defend him. 'Thane doesn't love you, I think he has proven that one too many times by now.'
Was he right? Was I wasting my time? I mean true love always has hurdles.
'Why can't you see my love for you Mahi? Why? Am I not good enough? Since the seventh
grade I have only loved you and no one else. I stayed loyal to you and only had eyes for you. At
some point you were happy with me. What have I not done for you Mahi?'
'What do you mean?'
'We dated once for a whole year. I did everything for you Mahi. All I ever did was love you but
you moved on and forgot about me. I did everything to keep you but after you left the country
you fell in love with some colored and that's him. Why would you do that to me Mahi?'
'Its, I dont even remember you much Adam. Don't do this please.'
'My feelings are a joke to you aren't they? Mahi, he doesn't deserve you, why don't you get that
huh? He doesn't value you. He's abusive, he doesn't trust you, then why do you still love him?
Look at yourself. I've been trying to help you recover but it's hopeless.'
I shook my head in denial.
'I'm fine. I'll be okay, it's nothing serious.'
'Mahi, you are being selfish, can't you see that. You are neglecting yourself and hurting the
people around you for what? For Thane? He doesn't even care if you live or die. It doesn't
matter to him.'
'What do you want me to do? To forget the years of my life that I invested in my relationship. He
lost his way, he'll come back to his senses. It's just a misunderstanding.'
'So what. What if he doesn't come back to his senses? Will you wait forever? Your sons are with
him, do you think they're safe? With people like Bianca, are the kids safe? Why don't you fight
for their custody?'
'They hate me, I can't be unfair to them. Let them recover first then I'll fight for their custody.'
'Mahi, Thane has moved on. Please give me a chance. I'm willing to accept your children. We'll
raise them together. I'm willing to accept them as my own Mahi. I'm not ready for a family but for
you I'd do absolutely anything.'
'I can't betray him. I already cheated on him by sleeping with you, no I'm sorry I can't.'
'Cheating on him? Right now as we speak you are only sleeping with me for your son's sake but
him. He's fucking every single girl he sees on the streets and you are worried about hurting him.'
'He's just hurt, that's it.'
Adamsen raised his hand at me and I closed my eyes waiting for that hot feeling on my cheek.
He folded his arm in a fist and started punching the wall again and again and again until his
hands started bleeding.
'Again you are choosing him Mahi. Why ? What does he have that I don't? Why Mahi, why?'
'Adamsen stop, your hand is bleeding.'
I tried to stop him but he pushed me aside and stormed out. I wanted to stop him but I couldn't
convince myself not to. Adamsen was really a good guy and he deserved better but I'm not that
girl for him. Even if I pity him I can't love him the way he loves me.
The next four months were really bad. Adamsen barely ever came home and even if he came
home he was always drunk. He'd lock himself in the room and avoid me. He was endorsed in
his office work. I neglected my health. I mean Adam was always the one who made sure I was
fine. He arranged for my counselling session and therapy as well. He took me for checkups and all
that. My bank accounts were unfrozen now by Adamsen. He allowed me to work. My focus was
on my work so that's the reason why I didn't focus on my health. Angelo and Alexander were
now six years old.
They turned six a few months ago. I managed to send them gifts and they loved them. I'm their
mother after all, even if they didn't realize that. September was their birth month, a month before
my birthday. Tomorrow will be the first day of June, my contract with Adamsen will be over and
Thane will be getting married to Bianca. My fate huh.
My head was telling me to give Adamsen a chance but I love Thane even though he doesn't
deserve it. I was packing my bags when Adamsen got in and he was not drunk.
'You must be happy right.'
He looked pitiful. I don't think anything I said or did would be good. What if I just hurt him even
more. An apology won't unbreak his heart.
'Listen, just because you chose someone else over me it doesn't mean I'll give up on you. I may
not be your lover but we can be friends.'
I smiled at him.
'Did you forget that I am Mahira, the CEO of AMS Film Production Studio, of course I have a
place to live.'
I'm glad he didn't bring up his feelings and I'm so glad he isn't trying to pressure me to give him
more than I can offer.
'Will you go to his wedding?'
'Yes, I want to go, just to get a glimpse of him for the last time and my kid's as well, even Elena.'
'Okay. Tomorrow can we go out for lunch before you go to his wedding, please.'
'Okay, no problem.'
Adamsen helped me pack my things then he left for work again. I on the other hand worked from home for the day because I was so tired.