You know the saying: "Know your enemy, and you know how strong you are."
So... I SEEM TO BE AN ENEMY OF GOD HIMSELF!!!
I trained in the basement, which turned out to be VERY BIG!!! With changing conditions, from the climate and terrain to the constantly attacking space that throws lightning bolts, clumps of something dark, and even summons 40 giants and *whatever else you want.
At first, I decided to test my magical abilities.
Well, what can I say... IT'S JUST *AWESOME!!!
I can throw bloody dark fire, both in a single stream and concentrate it to the point where it starts to turn into a sun the size of my palm, and one such ball can kill... ALL OF YOUR THUNDER GIANTS!!!
The only downside is that after using it, I get a little weaker for 3-7 seconds, but then I'm fine again. (What kind of monster am I?!)
And when shooting in a single stream, well, to put it briefly, I've always loved the Inquisition!!! And burning the floor!!! YES, I BURNED THE FLOOR ALONG THE ENTIRE LENGTH OF THE FLAME, and that's 200 metres!!!
After playing with fire, I moved on to something else, or rather, I tried to summon lightning...
It was difficult. Sitting on the floor, I imagined what lightning was like. How should it move? What kind of lightning did I want and why?
Asking myself these questions, I closed my eyes and immersed myself in my thoughts...
I was in darkness, I was walking through it, I was searching, searching... for light, when suddenly something flashed, then flashed again, rushed past me and poured into me in a single stream of light...
Pain... very painful... IT'S JUST LIKE A STAR, HOW IT HURTS!!!
Lightning... what is it? It... light...
And what kind of light? Is light different? Light is always one, and shades... they were just invented by those who are looking for something, but light is always one...
Why do you need lightning? To strike my enemies and save those I care about...
A flash! That's how you could describe it... flashing with a scarlet light, lightning burst out of me and rushed through the darkness, intertwining at full speed and piercing me again...
It... spread over me like water... every nerve... every part of me was saturated with it... filling me with energy...
It became difficult to breathe, my head spun... and I began to fall somewhere... and I was walking somewhere... or flying... or was I falling all the time?
Gasping for air and falling into a black, all-consuming abyss, I felt nothing, darkness... fear... nothingness... no one... no light... only darkness... darkness... that would consume everyone...
And in the midst of this darkness... I saw... him...
Dark... big... scary... evil... and... hungry...
"Well, well! I'm back to myself?! Isn't that funny?" he asked in a terrifying voice that pierced me to the bone and shook my mind like a truck.
"Do we know each other?" I tried to sound confident.
"Yes, it's you! It's me... and I am you! More precisely, I am who you will become... sooner or later...
"I don't remember you." I searched my mind but couldn't find anything connected to him, but something told me... he wasn't lying.
"YES?!" The voice hit me like a dark gust of wind. "Well, that's not surprising... last time... you were too young and couldn't accept yourself... calling me a monster...
My head began to split into pieces... pain flooded my mind... I wanted to run... run... forget... forget... and never remember... I wanted... to give myself up to oblivion... to forget... to forget everything... and... everyone...
I... I... was dying... again... it was almost impossible to breathe, I just wanted to disappear... I was falling into darkness... I wanted it all to just end... I wanted...
(Hmm... a familiar feeling, like... déjà vu), I thought. (Was it the same last time?)
"Yes...
(Then I wasn't ready... but... now... no!!!)
"NO!!! I WON'T FORGET!!! NEVER AGAIN!!! - I shouted, and my voice began to change... it became more like a roar and a cry, like thunder. - THEY'RE WAITING FOR ME THERE!!! I CAN'T LEAVE THEM!!! THERE!!! It's too early for me to die, we have to go back...
"...where we are needed!!! I know... I've changed... our war...
"...hasn't even begun yet, but we must...
"...be ready...what do we need?
"Strength...to destroy our enemies...and bring joy and warmth to our families...I want to...FLY!!!
"Just like me...
"And I...
"We...
"We are one!!! - thundered...He?
Me?
No...we...
We took off!!!
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