Have you ever dreamed of loving someone ? Have you ever loved anyone ?
As for me I never... I'm a type of girl who want a romantic relationship with a guy of older than me... but I dont dare to love anyone.
Why ? Cause I don't dare... Cause they don't like me.. cause I'm not up to their standard...
I was Tan skinned girl. When I was in my 7th grade.. I only had few friends.. not boys but girls.. they were all pretty... I was like a lackey to them...
And in the 10th grade I met 2 guys... They were pretty close to me... But they took me as sisters... Keeping me in freind zone. But always helpful to me.
After the 12th grade... Everyone choose different university. So I am. Will there be a chance for me to love someone ?
It was 0 .. none of them loved me as a women. But kept me in a friend zone.
It was my first year of University. A normal day. Normal life together with friends...
My university is close to the last stop that city ... So I used to take a round up in a bus .. so I get to sit window side ..
Like everyday I was sitting near the window ... Driver started the engine .. bus was almost empty.. only few people were sitting in the seat. And then came a man.. sit beside me.
"Gasp" I was startled by his sudden touch of skin to mine. He was double the size of me. May be he goes to gym or owns a gym . I didn't saw his face. I don't dare to saw his face..
Cause he was sitting beside me ... It was almost empty.. but he sit beside me... I don't know why ? Was he a bad person.. but he doesn't look like one .
Sure.. I didn't saw his face.. but I can tell cause the entire bus ride was very peacefull.
As bus going.. he didn't said and do. But playing in his mobile phone.. and then bus reached a place that has 3 universities and becouse of that... More students getting on the bus..
One girl she was pretty like models.. gave her bag to him then.. started to hitting on him. Like loosing her hair like model. Leaning on him .. u know bus is now very crowded.. so that lean doesn't look like intentional.
But the gentleman beside me was leaning on me. Instead of sitting like a stone. Seriously... Dude he was occupied 3/4 of the joint seat.
It was really uncomfortable.. my heart was beating like crazy. And the worst part was his arms were touching... Most like brushing top of my boobs.. I held the bag tightly covering my chest.
But in that situation I can't complain. But that moment was very uncomfortable and unforgettable.
Finally.. people are getting down... And so we reached to his stop. He get down... Then looked at me. Giving me a brief smile.
Crazy .. my heart was beating like it's gonna explode... Why ? Who is he ? Why did he smile at me ? Do I know him ?
That night the whole day I was occupied by his thought. Mainly he was so handsome. More handsome than any other male I've seen.
Night passed... So is day.. thinking all about him . His identity.. the reason behind his smile. It's evening time.. same time, same bus .. same round up as usual.
Then he came from backside ... Sitting next to me... AGAIN !!!!! I looked back.. most of the seat were empty.