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Chapter 18 - The Eternal Regret of Mortals

Regret is the shadow that follows every man, no matter how brightly he walks in life. It hides in laughter, it lingers in silence, and when death comes, regret stretches itself fully across eternity.

We have often been told that heaven is a place of endless joy, and hell a place of endless torment. Yet, even in this teaching, one thing is quietly ignored: regret is inevitable for both the righteous and the wicked. For how can a soul pass through life, open its eyes in eternity, and not look back with questions, with longing, with "what if"?

The man who lived in sin will regret. He will look back and realize the years he wasted in selfishness, the moments he could have turned, but chose not to. He will regret not seeking peace with God while he had the chance.

But the righteous too, in their bliss, will not escape regret. For they will look back and wish they had done more good while they had the time. They will remember the moments they ignored a beggar, or when they had the opportunity to lift another but chose comfort instead. Even in heaven, joy may overwhelm them, but the thought will remain: I could have lived braver, fuller, better.

This is why regret is the constant companion of humanity. Whether good or evil, whether crowned with reward or weighed down by judgment, every man will look back and wish he had lived differently.

I have often asked myself: is this not proof that life itself is unfairly balanced? For no matter what path a man takes, regret awaits him. If he sins, regret burns. If he strives for righteousness, regret whispers. It is as though existence is designed to remind us that perfection was never ours to grasp.

Perhaps this is why wisdom teaches us to live fully in the present, not waiting for heaven or fearing hell, but daring to act boldly while breath still remains. For regret feeds on delay, on silence, on cowardice. The man who chooses bravery over fear, who seizes opportunities instead of hiding behind excuses, may still feel regret but his regret will be lighter than the one who never tried.

Regret also raises another troubling thought: if everyone regrets, then who truly wins in the end? If both the righteous and the wicked look back with sorrow, does that not mean regret itself is part of our eternal inheritance? It may be that regret is the one thing we carry with us from this world into the next, a reminder that we were never gods, only frail men bound by time and weakness.

Yet, within this haunting truth lies a call: if regret cannot be avoided, let it at least be the regret of trying and failing, not the regret of never daring. Better to say, "I lived bravely, though I stumbled," than to whisper, "I never lived at all."

When the curtains fall on life, our regrets will be tallied alongside our deeds. Heaven or hell aside, the most painful punishment may simply be the realization of what we could have been. And in that moment, the wise and the foolish, the rich and the poor, the sinner and the saint will all sigh with the same voice: If only I had done more.

So, I conclude this: regret is inevitable, but its weight is a choice. Some regrets crush the soul, others only bruise it. Some regrets bind men forever, others teach lessons even in eternity. The question is not whether you will regret, but what kind of regret you will carry into forever.

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