My eyes fluttered open and I let out a gasp as the adrenaline from what I had just done flooded my veins a second time, jolting me from that meditative state and causing me to be hyper focused on my immediate surroundings.
The air felt cooler and tasted crisper, the table and book looked sharper in front of me, and I just felt stronger... though if that was the adrenaline I had no current idea; what I did know was that there was an all encompassing heat pooling deep inside of my groin, one that drew another gasp as I bit my lip and looked down.
Standing as tall as it could within my pants was my new little buddy, pulsing alongside my heartbeat and corrupting my mind even more as I was made to deal with something so new, and something that was honestly... it was just sort of exhilarating.
There was an odd sort of pleasure that came from just being erect, a thrill from the cloth rubbing against the sensitive flesh that made me wonder just how pleasurable touching it directly was going to feel; what made this worse was that I could feel how wet I was too, meaning I was just... all sorts of horny.
Knowing that I was in an eroge didn't help at all since immediately my mind drifted towards the people who were just as horny as I was right now, ranging from a refined yet secretly depraved Noble professor who loved~ breaking in her students all the way to the slightly disgusting yet very well endowed gardener who was always looking for someone to bury her dick in.
I knew who I could go find right now to get my needs taken care of but at the same time I was also so scared of even approaching some of those people since I didn't know how to deal with them now that this was real.
But I knew that I needed to be doing something right now, and seeing my new cock throb in agreement made it so very difficult to not just reach down and start touching it here and now; just the thought of it made me moan softly, my entire body getting hotter simply because of how deprived I was now.
I hadn't gotten a good session in that entire week leading up to my death, and now I was just... in a new world filled with incredible but also dangerous things and people, so I was overly stressed and in need of relief.
Doing anything in the library though would be suicide - at least, to my reputation - so I tried my hardest to not think about how achingly hard I was, nor to imagine wrapping my fingers around my new cock and jerking it aggressively before shooting thick ropes of smelly cum all over the place...
Groaning and clenching my eyes shut, I tried to regulate myself as best I could, pushing thoughts from my mind and focusing on the important things, like how I could now use magic and how I was able to really start living this life I had been given.
It took me a few minutes to get out of this insanely horny state I was in, and even still I could feel it humming in the back of my mind waiting to be let out - I 'negotiated' with myself and swore that tonight I would do everything I could in my room to feel better, which helped calm my nerves a little.
With my erection somewhat gone I was able to finish my reading before putting the books back, their purpose currently served; I needed to go to a new section to further improve my magic, and it was one that was nearby.
It was also one that had someone else sitting down reading at the table, so I contemplated just leaving only to push my awkwardness aside as I began browsing the shelves for the tomes I would need.
Things about how to cast spells, how to control your magic, how to improve your capacity and more were waiting for me here, and they were all related specifically to lightning magic, which I decided to tackle first.
It was a little more potent and difficult to grasp, and it was also a bit more diverse in its usage since I could utilize lightning for all sorts of things, be it fighting, defense, support or even utility with enchanting and alchemy having some fun ties to lightning.
Finding what I needed and taking the furthest seat away from the other student at the table, I opened the book and began to skim through it as I searched for what I needed, committing anything and everything to memory.
In the midst of my reading I pulled the medallion out of my inventory and just held it under the table, rubbing the moss pearl that was inlaid in the middle and taking some comfort from it as I felt its effects start to work.
Potentially placebo or maybe it was really working, it didn't really matter to me as I just kept reading and refreshing my knowledge on this subject, all while imagining the way I would execute these techniques now that I knew what magic felt like.
It was an energy in my veins that was waiting to be unleashed, and even as I was reading everything I could take ahold of it and guide it to wherever I needed it, helping me familiarize myself with controlling this new power.
The silence of the library made reading easy, and even with the presence of this other student the entire place felt empty and serene; glancing at them a few times just because I was curious, I noticed that they weren't just someone random...
Or at least, they were related to someone that I 'knew', which made this a little... interesting, but for now I wanted to steer clear of anyone else as I just got my bearings, and thankfully they were a quiet, reserved bunch, so I returned to my reading and just focused on that instead of socializing.