His fingers are touching my thighs, but his eyes hold no emotion for me to tell his thoughts. It’s unusual.

“Cassian?” I press my hands on his chest, but not in a way to resist him, but to feel his heart’s rhythm.

“I told you it's all about the primal instinct,” he says, bringing his lips to touch mine.

My hands let go off his chest as our lips touch, our tongue having a taste of each other. It feels different, not like it used to be.

He withdraws himself from me, and our eyes are locked to each other.

I have so many questions to ask him, but his eyes on me seem to answer them. His face… he was the werewolf who'd stood beside them, and had chased me out of my home.

“It's true… Cassian, it’s true…” My voice is shaky as I step back from him.

“What's that about?” He asks, feigning ignorance of what I mean.

“My parents… you killed them… you stood beside their bodies!”

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Things took a shift after Liam's betrayal of selling me out to Alpha Cassian. It awoke every thought and trauma I'd buried within me, having them come alive to haunt me.

Cassian wanted my essence for his curse, to perform a bloodshroud that was supposed to be his cure and the end of me. But he didn't go on with it. Strangely, he called me his mate. How was that even possible since I was a human and he was a werewolf?

I’d thought a human like me couldn't become a werewolf, but Cassian wouldn't let go of his claim.

I felt darkness and chaos around him, but soon, I started to fall for him. I wanted to keep everything behind me even though the memory of my parents’ death still haunted me.

But at the new leaf I was about to turn, I discovered Cassian must have killed my parents, soaked himself with their blood, and chased me out of my home.

How was I supposed to go on with this revelation?

There isn't blood in the pool. It's just me inside, and their needles… those sharp needles point at me. They haven't touched me yet, but I can almost feel them piercing into me.


But I'm unable to speak. Shout for help?


Who's supposed to hear my call if I do?


It's just an inaudible sound I can make.


And his eyes… those same eyes that stay intense on me. In the same moment he's looking at me, the needle he holds is close to my skin. They pause because he's taking a moment to take in my view.


I'm without clothes. What? I don't even realize that!


I start to cover myself with my hands, but can barely cover my breasts.


Their needles touch my skin. I forget I have to cover myself.


"Please don't!" I scream. "Don't do this!"


I hear a click sound in my head. This is a past event, right?


Chapter 38 - Maybe just accept the fate