I spent the afternoon talking with my friends on phone .
Summer was crying the whole call . She was such a crybaby.
" I feel like I have not seen you forever," she sobbed ," I missed you so so much ."
" Well , it has just been six months , hasn't it ?," I said even though it felt like an eternity since I had gone to the dorm
I had stayed with my father for three weeks and on bed for the last four months . But that timeline felt like a lie .
I would not be surprised if Liam had told me that a decade had passed and the world had ended during my confinement at home .
" The agency, they may drop you at this rate ," Summer broke the news ," I do not know if the sponsorship from Sunshine corporation can -"
" Summer , I know," I did not want to admit the terrible dread building inside my chest , the empty feeling that was swallowing me whole .
I knew what a terrible dent it was on my career. In a single year , I got into a dating scandal , got dropped off the show I was hosting , and then this sudden leave which I had no idea how long it would strech .
I had not been able to practice any of my routines or was able to sing for days . It would be a wonderful if I could remember any of the previous routine I was following.
Even if Sunshin corporation tried to keep my career afloat , I was already a sinking ship .
All my life , I had worked to debut for so long . But now it was ending in just four years . There was nothing I could see for myself in the future.
As if the meaning of my existence was coming to cease .
My marriage for that matter had been a disaster. And I had been more of a trouble to my family than a help
" I hope Winter is doing okay ," I wondered about the girl who had run away in the name of love . If she was leading the happy marriage life for which she had left everything else .
"If you are wondering , it's a girl ," Summer grumbled.
" A what ?"
" Her baby - it's a girl !," Summer sounded annoyed , I did not know at whom ,me or Winter ,"They are moving back to their no name village . Figures they can not lead a city life anymore, considering her face is plastered everywhere."
I realised that they had been talking . Unlike me , who had decided to cut off the traitor totally from my life , she had kept the thin string of connection alive.
I was the one who had been miserable about everything, blaming Winter for ruining my career . But now look at me , even without Winter's interference, I had succeeded to put my career life down the drain .
There used to be no day when I would not dance . I felt suffocated.
For me - the songs and rhythm had different worlds in them . Being lost in those world made me forget my own wretched self .
I slowly put my feet down from the bed . If I could sleepwalk down the stairs , there was no way I could not take a few steps .
The cool touch of floor felt terrifying but soothing at the same time . It was my first time trying to take a step without any help .
As soon as I put my weight on my feet , the world tilted sideways. I put my hands out to keep the balance .
It's all in my head , I tried to tell myself .
My bones were already acting warning my body might loose this fight once again . But for few seconds I was actually standing !
I was standing !
All by myself, with no crutch or no support.
I took a step forward.
I never thought that I would be so excited about just walking .
Then another .
I realised that I was smiling. See , I did not need anyone to carry me .
Even if everyone left me , I could still walk by myself.
My bubble of excitement grew and grew , until at the next step I fell on the floor .
That was a misstep , I told myself, if I was careful I could do more than this .
But getting up was painfully impossible for me . I could not longer put my weight on my elbows to pull me up since there was a stabbing pain each time I tried to use them to haul me up.
" Oh my god !," a shriek bursted my bubbles .
" THIS IS WHY I TOLD HIM TO BIND YOU TO THE FUCKING BED !," the voice that was shouting at me belonged to Jewel Anderson," LIAM, GET THE FUCK RIGHT HERE THIS INSTANT!"
She was making it look worse than it actually was .
I rolled my eyes ," There is no need for this commotion."
" Oh my god !," Liam gasped as soon as he had entered the room ," Are you okay ?"
" I was just trying to walk," I tried to explain it as calmly as I could ," It was just an accident."
" Get the nurses back here !," Liam was already calling our mini medical team back to my room . This was getting out of hand .
" I am fine !," I snapped , although I felt like my knees were no so much find but that did not need to know that .
" You know what ? It is your fault , Liam ," Jewel poked my husband at the chest ," We should have bound her at the bed ! Now she probably had more fractures than she used to have ."
" I don't !," I protested.
" Yeah , don't say something so negative," Liam agreed with me.
" You know what , this would have never happened of you could have taken care of your wife properly !," Jewel hissed .
I raised at eyebrow. This was new. My sister in law never picked on anyone but me since forever .
As he helped me back on the bed , Jewel kept complaining .
" You know what ? You are doing everything wrong here , it is better if I take care of her now ," she blurted out ," You are mostly busy with work and can never be always there for her ."
What now ?
I searched for her eyes to see if she was pulling out some tricks . But her eyes - they were pleading to me .
I could almost hear her saying -
' Please Please Please Please '
" It will be better if you concentrate on your upcoming tests first , " Liam smirked," Does mother know you are here ?"
" Oh she is going to find out anyway ," Jewel dismissed it .
" Actually it will be helpful if you leave ," Liam told her ," We are all tired here ."
" That's why let me take care of her ," she urged .
" No ," Liam shook his head ," This is not a child's play , do you understand?"
" I understand more than you !," Jewel hissed at him ," Besides as a woman she will be more comfortable with me than you ."
" Yeah , right ," Liam chuckled ," In the whole universe, only you can be comfortable with yourself."
" Actually," I cleared my throat ," I would also prefer Jewel taking care of me ."