The sunset catches in Emily's white braid as she drives, painting her in gold that makes my chest ache. Funny how you can know someone so intimately and still feel like you're seeing them for the first time.
"I can't wait to get to the steakhouse. I think this is our first date," Emily says, her voice light with a happiness that energizes me. She taps perfectly manicured nails against the leather steering wheel of her Audi.
"No way, we..." I start to object automatically, then pause. My mind flips through a mental Rolodex of our time together, hotel rooms with Egyptian cotton sheets, her apartment with blackout curtains, that one time in her car behind the mall. "Uhhh..."
Her knowing smile makes her eyes crinkle at the corners. "It is, isn't it?"
"Yeah," I admit, sinking lower in the passenger seat. "I guess so."
The realization hits me like a punch. All this time together, even before we dated, and I've never once taken her anywhere. Not for coffee, not for a movie, not even for a walk in the park. Some boyfriend I am.
"I'm so sorry we've never gone on a date before," I say, the words feeling pathetically inadequate.
Emily parks the car with practiced ease, then reaches over to rub my hand. Her touch is warm, familiar in a way that still surprises me. "It's fine," she assures me, her voice carrying that motherly tone that simultaneously comforts and arouses me. "We have a lot of dates left in us, don't we?"
"Yeah," I say, looking into those clear blue eyes that seem to see right through me. "Of course."
She leans over the center console, those blue eyes shifting from maternal to predatory in a heartbeat. Before I can process what's happening, her hand slides up my thigh, fingers dancing dangerously close to my zipper.
"Maybe we should have an appetizer in the car," she purrs, her voice dropping to that husky register that makes my brain short-circuit.
I catch her wrist with a surprised laugh. "After dinner," I manage to say, though my body's already reacting.
"But you've been so good today," she counters, lips curving into that smile that's gotten me into trouble countless times before. "You haven't stopped smiling since you woke up this morning."
She's right. I have been different today, lighter, more present. It's the attitude shift I promised myself yesterday. Each time thoughts of Holly tried to surface, I shoved them back down, locked them away. It's working. I'm working.
"I just love being a good boy for you."
Emily's eyes darken with hunger, pupils dilating in a way that makes my stomach flip.
"Come on," she coaxes, her fingers resuming their upward journey. "Just a quick snack before dinner, yeah? You deserve it." Her free hand cups my cheek, thumb tracing my lower lip. "You've made me so happy all day."
I swallow hard, feeling my resolve weaken with each gentle stroke of her thumb across my lip.
"Well, if you insist," I surrender with a ragged breath.
Emily's smile turns victorious as she works my zipper down with practiced fingers. The sound seems deafening in the quiet car, my heart hammering so loud I'm sure she can hear it. With gentle but urgent movements, she frees me from my boxers, her eyes widening appreciatively.
"Oh, I really do insist, baby," she purrs, her voice honey-thick with desire. "Look how ready you are for Mommy."
My head falls back against the headrest as Emily bends over the console, her white braid falling forward across her shoulder. The first touch of her tongue sends electricity up my spine, a slow, deliberate lick from the base all the way to the sensitive tip. The wet heat of her mouth contrasts with the cool air conditioning blowing across my skin, creating a sensation that makes me bite my lip to keep from making too much noise.
She looks up at me through her lashes, her blue eyes gleaming with mischief and power. "Do you like the way Mommy licks you, sweetheart?"
"God, yes," I groan, my fingers instinctively finding their way into her hair. The parking lot suddenly feels dangerously exposed, but the thrill of possibly being caught only heightens everything. "You're so good at that."
Emily hums with satisfaction, the vibration sending another jolt through me. She takes me deeper. I'm lost in the sensation, in the sight of this elegant, sophisticated woman pleasuring me in her expensive car outside a fancy restaurant.
"We're going to miss our reservation," I manage to say between gasps, not really caring if we do.
She pulls back just enough to speak, her lips brushing against me with each word. "Then we'll make another one. Right now, Mommy's taking care of her good boy."
"I love you!" I blurt the words out, meaning them to my core.
Emily pauses, her lips still wrapped around me, and I swear I feel her smile stretch against my flesh. She pulls back just enough to murmur, "I love you too, baby," her breath hot against my most sensitive skin before she descends again.
What follows can only be described as worship. She's not just giving me pleasure, she's consuming me. Her mouth works with such hungry precision that my fingers clutch desperately at the leather seat beneath me. Gone is the playful teasing from moments before. This is something else, something primal. She's devouring me with a need that makes my vision blur at the edges.
"Emily," I whimper, my hips lifting involuntarily off the seat. "Emily, fuck…"
She doesn't respond, doesn't slow down. If anything, my desperation only fuels her. Her hands grip my thighs with possessive strength, keeping me exactly where she wants me while she takes and takes and takes.
My head thrashes against the headrest, coherent thought dissolving into white-hot pleasure. I'm dimly aware of the outside world, the distant sound of car doors closing, the fading sunlight casting long shadows across the dashboard, but it all feels irrelevant, inconsequential compared to the wet heat of her mouth.
When I finally break, it's with a strangled cry I barely recognize as my own. The pleasure crests so intensely I swear I'm being unmade. She doesn't pull away, doesn't give me mercy. Instead, she takes everything I have to give, drinking me down with possessive greed, her throat working rhythmically. It feels like she's drawing out not just my release but something deeper, something essential from the core of me that I'm helpless to keep for myself.
When she finally releases me, I'm trembling, boneless against the seat. My chest heaves with ragged breaths as she delicately tucks me back into my pants with a self-satisfied hum.
"That," she says, voice slightly hoarse as she dabs at the corner of her mouth with her thumb, "was definitely worth being late for our reservation."
I blink slowly, trying to reconnect with reality. "I think... I think I blacked out for a second there."
Emily laughs, the sound warm and rich as she reaches for her purse and reapplies her lipstick in the rearview mirror. "That's a compliment I'll happily accept." She caps the lipstick and turns to me, suddenly all business. "Now, do I look like someone who just gave her boyfriend the blowjob of his life in a restaurant parking lot?"
I struggle to form coherent thoughts as I stare at her, my body still humming with aftershocks. Her lipstick is perfect again, not a hair out of place. If I didn't know better, I'd never guess what she'd just done.
"You look like the most beautiful woman I've ever seen," I breathe out, my voice raw with honesty. "Not just now. Always. Like something out of a dream I don't deserve to have."
A blush creeps across her cheeks, turning her porcelain skin a delicate shade of pink that makes my heart stutter.
"That makes me happy to hear," she whispers, reaching out to brush her fingers against my cheek. The tenderness in her touch nearly undoes me all over again. Then her expression shifts, that familiar hungry look returning to her eyes as she leans closer. "Now come on, baby. Mommy wants some more meat."
I fumble with my seatbelt, suddenly clumsy with anticipation.
"Yes, ma'am."