27. "SUBSTANCE"
She used to fascinate me, a thought of her and an experience of her time would excite me, she would leave me craving more of her attention, used to write about her after we would spend time and I loved everything about her before I even fell in love with her, that's the real defination of substance, now I find myself searching for that kind of connection.
These girls just wanna jump my bones, some of them want more from me but none of it feels right to do but I keep looking fr a familiar touch, even if it's the sense of resemblance and I keep realising that none of these girls can do what she did for me.
We had a real connection, things were easy and not rushed, it felt so right and very real. I didn't pick up any red flags, could've swron that we were a match made in heaven because we had everything it takes to have a forever love. We took our time to get to know each other before we got intimate, conversations and quality time was just enough, she used to inspire my creativity and she used to fascinate me, I was always on a high after being with her, that was real substance.
I keep looking for that substance, that connection, that familiar vibe and that exciting energy but it's nowhere to be found, I keep running into girls that just wanna jump my bones, some of them keep telling me to open up more, communicate and that shows that none of this is meant to happen because she never had to ask me to do anything.
She used to fascinate me, inspire my creativity, gave her all of me with no resistance and that's real substance.
28. "SWEET ROMANCE"
I want that first conversation to start a beautiful story, I want to be present in every chapter, I'm talking about that first hug, the first kiss and the first time we make love, I want the taste of every piece of the pie, I wanna experience the part where I start learning her ways and the way she gives her love.
I want that walk home, I want the first time getting her pictures to be a moment, I want that part where I catch her getting used to me, I want that moment where we close our eyes before our lips touch for the first time, I wanna live and cherish every moment of the romance.
I wanna give her cute nickname, kiss her forehead, teach her traditions, I want that first time she comes over to be the moment that I am fully present in, I wanna unlock her and help her unwind, I want to have an experience of sweet romance.
I want that strong eye contact, the butterflies, I want the long phonecalls, the cute videos and pictures, I want the walks, the lunch dates, the window shopping, the quality time and every single bit of everything that sweet romance means.