"EXPERIENCE ME"
She should tell me the time when she can leave the house, she should let me know where would she love to have me, indoors or outside, she should let me know what is she comfortable with when it comes to company because I wanna give her a good time to remember.
We don't have cherish the moments between us, we shouldn't even talk about love and a relationship, she shouldn't stress about lying to me about her stuff, I just want to experience her energy and have a good time with her.
She shouldn't worry about me catching feelings, I've got my heart far away from this flame, she shouldn't even worry about the conversations, the only thing she can give me is her company and attention, so she should come chill with me, I wanna share something with her.
I wanna taste her lips, I wanna feel her in my hug, I wanna find out what she smells like when she looks good like that, I wanna learn her ways and her body language but if she ain't with these desires of mine, I'll be out of the way.
She should text me and let me know if she wanna experience me or not..
"HONEST THOUGHTS"
Looking at what I've been, I probably would never fall in love again, now I recall how I used to be against love because it was never a thing in my life, around me and in my family. I spent so much of my teenage years looking for love, warmth and some sort of healing in sex, I wasn't aware of the monster that I was creating inside me, now I've got a long list of names that I've hurt everytime this monster needed to be fed.
I chase skirts and pretty thighs, I find love in moments that don't live for the next day, I stay stable until it doesn't feed my appetite anymore and then I start something with somebody else.
Looking at what I've turned into, I probably will always keep a distance between my heart and love because I'm starting to believe that love and joy live next to pain, so I rather have affection over love.
I don't need empty promises, I don't need false intentions and temporal love, just affection and a good time.