"Well, Is everyone readyyyyy!!!???"
The commentator shouted.
everyone responded in unison.
"Well than. let us begin the individual games."
and so, the curtains were raised.
I on the other hand was still in that moment.
Why... did i get so emotional?
She on the other hand... didn't seem to care one bit as to what happened in the room just earlier.
She was happily chatting away with Frey, based on how happy they seemed, It looked like they made up.
So... easily?
Even if i tried making up with her a million times right now... i probably wouldn't be able to.
She seemed so nonchalant... i felt like i either hand a bad dream or i just talked to a ghost who seemed to be Serina.
Whatever the case was... i started seeing it.
The gap between us was growing insanely and it didn't seem like it'd stop.
The gap was growing and i was slowly feeling like an outsider, i felt awkward just walking in front of them.
People looked at me and chuckled.
Probably realising i was kicked out of the team.
They rejoiced... The others didn't seem to fare, that i was. being treated unfairly.
I just walked out of that place and took shelter at a nearby tree since i was feeling somewhat dizzy.
I blended into the surroundings which I've realised I've been quite good at.
...
I came to the cafateria since i was hungry and there was still a lot of time left for the start of the Individual match.
I than realised the others were here too.
So i slowly sneaked out of that place and started looking for a 2nd option...
I found the southern cuisine restaurant.
And entered there.
Good enough, the place is damn empty.
Probably because it's vegetarian store.
And... i Don't mind a vegetarian store as long as it's INDIAN!
Any other Vegetarian Cusine and I'd be having vegetable salads for lunch, breakfast and dinner.
The waiter came and asked for my order and i ordered my 2 most favourtae dishes.
After some time, He came and handed it over.
And god was it awefully delicious looking.
I ordered light food since i was going to fight and didn't wanna puke at him.
after having my breakfast, I went towards the ariena.
"Hey."
But, someone blicked my route.
I just ignored them
What's going on? Why are all these heroines trying to talk to me?
It's annoying!
Why don't you just fkin give up and move on.
"Heyyy! Are you ignoring Me?"
She asked me as she grabbed my sleeve.
I stopped myself from saying anything and just stood there patiently waiting for her to say what she wants to say.
"...You seem to have changed."
That was the first thing she says? seriously?
"... What do you want, Kanae."
She had long White hair and crimzon red eyes.
She was a beautiful women in her 20's, if it weren't for her beauty everyone would assume she was an old lady.
"Come on boss, You don't have to be like that!"
"... I'm pretty normal though."
"Are you?"
Feeling somewhat irritated and exhausted... i jsut asked her to proceed.
"...Get to the point."
"... Everyone is worried about you just abruptly leaving the party like that."
"... Aah, so you people did actually know i was part of your party... I thought i was being a tad delusional."
I stated sarcastically, she frowned a bit.
"Why were you so rude to Selina in the morning?"
She knew huh?
That damn blabber mouth.
"What do you expect me to do? After not giving a rat's ass about me for 7 days she finally shows upp... talking about her rejection with frey."
Hearing me rant useless things, she snapped.
"... Do you really think she'd really do that?"
"Than why?-"
"She drank, so she could build up the courage to talk to you, you dumbass."
She stated...
Rude bit*h did she forget thay i was her master.
"You have been awefully weird lately, i thought you finally changed for the better but... we are worried about you turning into that kind of a guy!"
"Sounds ridiculous, why would she come to talk to me and than proceed to talk about that guy? Honestly, were we even close enough for her to bother talking to me? Alsoo... The hell do you mean that kind of guy!"
"Why Don't you try clarifying those things with her, instead of asking me?"
"... There's no need."
"... Why are you so reluctant?"
Ehy am i so reluctant you ask?
The shit this guy comitted until before i entered his body were far too many to count.
I don't think anyone will forgive him so easily.
It's been 3 years, I came into this body when i was 18 and now I'm 21... that's not enough time for anyone to forgive..
The shit he did... If he were to be forgiven so easily... I'd have to question their morality.
"I have my reasons."
There was no need to tell her... but just in case.
"I Don't believe i deserve any forgiveness from them. The atrocities i comitted in the past are far too great for forgiveness."
"..."
"Well, than... I'll take my leave."
"Than... why did you apologise to my mother."
I was about to leave, someone shouted at me.
Why? He made cheap commebts about her, threatened to sexually harass her, even went on to do it once.
He was dragged on his feet and beaten up repeatedly in that toruture cell.
After which i came up.
If i hadn't shown up... this guy would have gone on to become the demon king, acting like a common villain who wants to end humanity.
The reason? Apparently humans are all trash and he was unjustly treated.
I gave him the endless suffering, in my [Concious space]
It's a spell when someone invades your mind and you trap him in an endless suffering.
His soul would probably be crushed by now.
He'll never be reborn again.
Even if he dies, he'll still continue to experience the endless hell in my mind.
Hello never be able to come out.
Trapped in there forever.
"What do yku mean?"
I asked Selina who seems to be eavesdropping on us.
"After everything you did to her... you outta nowhere went on her feet and begged her every single day for a month. If you know you don't deserve forgiveness... why did you do it?"
"Honestly, the torture that bas- I made her go through... 1 month was far less an apology, I should have begged her even more. I still regret it. To answer your question, To apologise. I wasn't looking for forgiveness. I was there to apologise and nothing else. Trash like hi- Me do not deserve any sort of forgiveness no matter how long we beg but... I owed it to her... To apologise. She atleast deserved that much."
"...how do i believe you... that you have actually changed."
The hell is this women even talking about?
"Do you even realise what i said?"
In my prevuous life... none of them actually forgave me...
It felt unfair because i wasn't the one who did that shit but i was still unjustly treated.
So... why are you asking such a question now?
I... went through hell just to seek validation from you in my previous timeline so... why now?
Why are you asking a question that you never have?
Why does it seem like you actually care about me...
Honestly... maybe I'm overthinking it.
There's no way they do...
All those times, i did so much for them... they never cared so why would they now?
When i haven't even done anything.
"I'm not trying to gain your trust, I've tried enough... I know i don't deserve it and i know you will never ever trust me. I will not waste my time trying to gain your trust anymore."
It was time i hit the final nail in this coffin of relations.
"Let's just go our seperate ways... I'm sure that's what you want too! I know... Frey probably sent you here to make amends, But... there's no need for the lot of you to go so far."
Yaa... it makes sense now, They probably showed up becayse that bastard frey sent them.
He probably thought I'd come back if he sent them.
None of them give a damn about mez the only reason why i was even a part of thr party was because of him.
I'm greatful for everything he's done but it's time... I realise me coming here has caused unnecessary butterfly effects and the one who suffeed because of that was her.
I still think i have the demon lord's seed inside me.
Which was placed in my after the torture session when he was 18.
I destroyed the seed, with great difficulty because i was worried about the demon lord transformation.
But... if i don't remove it... I'll turn into the demon lord and die... in their hands.
The demon god will descend in my body and I'll probably be thrown into the space if souls.
I should be able to be reborn.
Maybe somewhere else... someone somewhere else will like me.
I mean the universe is vast, there's no way i won't find 1 person who'll like me right?
"Well than!"
I can't let that happen again.
That was the worst possible ending and my existance caused it.
If i weren't there and the story progressed the way it always has... It'd have never happened.
"Hey!"
Kanae shouted but i didn't listen
There was no point listening to anything right now.
My fate was selaed and there was no other way, the only way the world can be saved is if the story progresses the way it always has.
"WHO ARE YOU?"
Did she just say something?
Must be my imagination...
"What... did... you say?"
I rried confirming it.
"Who the hell are you?"
She asked again, looking straight in the eye.