Looking out ahead of me again I watch the passing by gray clouds.
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hiiiSSSSSSSSsssss*
For a split second I can see a blur of blue pass by my vision along with a hiss.
Taking a moment to register what just happened I start laughing to myself.
"Stupid fucking lizard! Have a nice fall stupid bitch!" I say out loud while laughing.
Occasionally while sitting here I sometimes see a lizard falling down to their death, which I find funny. I don't find the death part that funny but the fact that it fell down. I'm just weird, ok? Or maybe I'm just insane…
Letting myself laugh a bit more, I finally calm down and wipe the tears from my eyes. Man, I really needed that laugh…
I plop down on my back and just lay down. With the cycle over I don't have to worry about any lizards trying to get me from behind.
'I guess this really was a good cycl-
Before I can finish this thought I hear the shuffling of something making its way through the pipe that's a distance behind me. Shit… did a lizard somehow make it here last second?
I really don't want to get up and fight right now… whatever… if I die, I die I guess.
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Not feeling the ground around me shake slightly from a lizard stampeding its way towards me or the squelching sounds of the rot, I open up my eyes and wonder.
'What came out of the pipe?'
Right now, I can feel a gaze from something looking at me from behind. It hasn't attacked me, yet which might be a good thing. But if it isn't either a lizard or the rot then that could only mean one thing…
My heart starts beating in excitement from anticipation. It can only mean a slugcat came out of the pipe and I can only think of one slugcat that can even exist in this world!
Trying to calm myself down I stay laying down on the ground trying to look the coolest I can. Can't make it look like I'm too excited right? Got to play it cool…
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After laying down for a while I can still feel the piercing gaze from behind me. Are they not going to approach me? What exactly are they waiting for? Talk to me!
'Fuck it. I'll just say something'
Clearing my throat the best I can, I ready myself.
"Hey, come on out, I know you're there" I say in a somewhat hoarse voice. Fuck I sounded so lame just now.
I sit up smacking myself in the face thinking how lame I sounded. In response to what I just said I can hear a surprised noise from behind me. Alright… let's see what I'm dealing with.
Hearing approaching steps from behind me I turn around and…
'What the fuck am I looking at'
No seriously what the fuck am I looking at. What I see is a towering monstrosity before me. It has the shape of a slugcat but it just… looks wrong! Its skin(?) is practically shifting from different hues of blue and its eyes! ITS FUCKING EYES!
"HEWWO!!!" hearing this I instinctively cover my ears! What the hell was that noise!? It was like nails scratching a chalk board!
With the approaching monstrosity I quickly get up and get ready to fight. This thing clearly wants to kill me!
You think I'll go down so easily you fucker!? Whatever this thing is needs to die!
I'LL KILL IT I SWEAR I'LL FUCKING KILL IT-
SLAP*
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Before I almost lost myself, I ended up smacking myself in the face… What the hell just happened? Those thoughts… were those really mine? I've never felt such hatred for something before. Even the fucking train lizards.
Trying to calm myself I hear footsteps towards me. I look at what's approaching and again I find myself reeling back from what I see.
"Ar-arr yu ok?? I sory if i-i scar yu…" again the screeching sound comes back but just a bit quieter. I find myself covering my ears trying to process what it just said.
I feel the same strange anger swelling up in me again from what I just saw and heard.
'FUCK, CALM DOWN JOSEPH… if it wanted to kill me it already would've'
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From what I understood… it just asked me if I'm ok… it wouldn't say something like that if it wanted to kill me… I think.
Forcing myself I look back at the thing. Looking at the figure, my eyes want to look away from whatever I'm seeing. It's like the universe doesn't want me to look at it. That I'm not allowed to look at it, but I force myself to.
For a moment the creature and I look at each other in silence. I can feel the strange thoughts keep trying to invade my mind telling me to kill it. To destroy whatever, I'm looking at or run away from it. But I force myself to stay still and just look. Trying to get used to what I'm looking at.
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Slowly the voices start to calm down and I'm able to somewhat keep looking at the figure. But before I can even say anything back to it…
"H-hewwo?" I grab my ears, pulling them from the sound I just heard. FUCKING HELL!
In response to my action the thing takes a step back (or what I can assume a step back) from me. Fuck how can I have a conversation with… whatever this is if I can't even listen to it speak!
Rubbing my head for a bit trying to ease the pain in my head I open up my eyes and look back at it… I've gotten to the point where I can look at it without wanting to rip its head off but now… do I really have to listen to its… voice?
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'Fuck it'