"what?" Cold sweat runs from my forehead. Keep it cool Mark.
"You have the same smell as the castle" his eyes not blinking.
I do? "How can i have the same smell of a castle?"
"I don't know, but i want to find out" he slightly smiles and looks at the jar.
I want to ask him more but a weird feeling spreads through my body.
I stay there in silence looking at him. My heart beating againts my chest. Why i got so scared?
I walk out of the laboratory and sit on the living room.
The smell of something burning even stronger in this house. I look around but I don't see anything burning.
I scratch my head. What is there inside?
I have to improve faster.
I close my eyes and breath in. I feel every vein in my body, a fluid filling my whole body, the core pumping it in and out interviewnd with the core of rat man.
I breath in again, connecting my breathing with the fluid, my body tingles. I'm feeling it! I get excited and the feeling flees away. I clinch my fist and look at the veins on my wrist. I can see it, i just have to be more zen, i cannot get excited. I have to ask what i can do, i just feel it but I don't know how to use it.
I close my eyes again and try one more time, loosing myself in my body "What are you doing?" The voice of Romolus brings me back to reality. I look back at him. "Nothing" how much time has passed?
He sits infront of me, the table in between us.
"If you allow it i would want you to come here more often, i want to analyze you" he causally says.
"I will think about it" i smile. No way.
The bald guy enters inside, his face stern as before.
"Mr.Ven, Bridge William is outside waiting for Tomh" Romolus slighty opens his eyes and then a smile appears in his face, he turns towards me "im not the only one seeing how special you are"
This guy is dangerous. I smile and get up "i think you are more special than me" i say to him, he looks suprised. Did i say something weird?
I walk outside ignoring the bald guy and see Bridge William outside waiting for me, i unconsciously look away. What am i doing. I look at him in the eyes. "I'm ready to learn" i say to him.
He smiles "that's good, but you have to take it easy, remember that too much information is not good for your body" he indicates with his hand the way and starts walking "since you have your core open i can explain you the reason, it will give you a better understanding" i walk beside him, the smell of herbs fill my nostril.
"Everything in this world has a life force, even the words we say or the thing we imagine" he starts to gesticulate "opening our core help us adapt and hold againts or with those life forces, imagine ourselfs as bricks before opening our core, everything we do clashes our core, it is closed and doesn't accept anything inside, but after opening your core it's like you are water, you can adapt, change or even pretend to be something so that you don't get destroyed by it" i sit in silence listening. "So your core gets changed by both good and bad stuff"
"when you get information of high level, the infromation crashes againts you core, not being able to enter it, at least it tries"
"So someone could die if you told them information of too high level?" I ask him.
"Yes and no, it depends if he understands them, if he understands the concept then yes but if you speak in another language to someone, he will only have mild reaction to it, not like someone that internalize the whole concept"
We turn right "as you open your core you will able to whitstand those information but not immediately, you will need to adapt and train but it will also expose you, since now things will be able to enter and manipulate your core" his voice lower "some people believe that the way we are is the wrong way, our core is sacred and it should always stay the same, opening it and exposing it to other life forces will only corrupt it"
I touch my palm with my fingers, the core of rat man interviewing in this moment with mine. I don't they are so wrong.
"What do you believe?" I ask him.
"They are wrong of course, by only opening our core we are able to accept our god to the full extent, yes we are more at risk, but it is worth it" his voice getting louder suddenly. I look him in the eyes. Are you really sure or you are only convincing yourself? Well... I hope you are right.
"Well returning to what i was saying, this is way i cannot tell you everything now, but even if could it would be better that you experience some things on your own" he turns left "when you will at a good level you will be able to fulfill your role as the prole, until then it will onlt be a suicide" now i get it why people were so distant, they didn't ask too much or they came running when they knew i was the prole. In this world information isn't something you exactly crave for, it might just kill you.
"But be careful Tomh, this isn't a rule, there are some things that seem innocent but would destroy you and there are information you consider vital that even someone that just opened his core would get to know without a problem, we don't get to decide"
"How can I know then? Everything you say or anyone says could bring my end" how can you live like this?
"Don't worry, it isn't so normal, also you get a feeling, when you get it you will understand, if it happens don't continue, it is your core alerting you, don't listen!"
Was it my core alerting me before with Romolus?
"The thing I don't understand is, it is better to not open your core or to do it?" Both seem bad.
"Think of it like this, when your core is closed you fight your enemies head on, when your core is open you sneak in between your enemies, you pretend to be them and you slowly become like them, since even if you just pretened, you are still accepting them in some way"
You cannot win.