Lucien did not go home right away.
The car waited. The driver asked nothing. Lucien dismissed him with a glance and walked instead, coat still buttoned, shoes echoing against marble floors that remembered his footsteps from childhood. Blackwell Tower emptied itself around him as evening bled into night—assistants gone, lights dimmed, power conserved where it could be afforded.
The elevator ride to the top floor was soundless.
When the doors opened, Lucien stepped into his private office and locked the door behind him.
Only then did he exhale.
The room was immaculate—glass, steel, restraint. Floor-to-ceiling windows framed the city like an obedient thing, glittering and distant. This space had been designed to impress, to intimidate, to reassure investors that Lucien Blackwell was untouchable.
Alone, it felt cavernous.
Lucien loosened his tie with measured fingers. The movement was automatic, practiced, but halfway through he stopped. His hand trembled—barely perceptible, but real. He stared at it as if it belonged to someone else.
So this is the damage, he thought.
He crossed the room and poured himself a drink. The crystal decanter caught the light; amber liquid sloshed softly, a sound too intimate in the silence. He did not raise the glass right away. Instead, he leaned his free hand against the desk and closed his eyes.
Vivienne's voice echoed, uninvited.
You're not your father.
His jaw tightened.
He had spent years making that true. Years scrubbing himself clean of the man who had raised him with discipline disguised as love. The man who believed affection weakened authority. The man who taught him that silence was a punishment sharper than any blow.
Lucien opened his eyes.
On the far wall hung a single photograph—one he had never removed, though he had considered it more times than he could count. His father stood in the center, arm draped heavily around a much younger Lucien's shoulders. The boy in the picture was stiff, uncertain, eyes already learning caution.
Lucien looked away first.
He downed the drink in one swallow. The burn steadied him. It always did.
Crossing the room, he shrugged out of his jacket and set it carefully over the back of a chair. The precision mattered. Sloppiness invited memories. Control kept them at bay.
He sat.
For a long moment, he did nothing.
Then, without warning, his composure fractured.
Lucien bent forward, elbows on his knees, fingers lacing together as if holding himself in place. His breath came shallow now, the way it had when he was younger—when doors had closed and voices had dropped and expectations had become unbearable.
He hated this part. Hated that no matter how much power he accumulated, the past still knew how to find him.
"You handled it," he murmured aloud, the sound of his own voice grounding him. "You always do."
But another voice answered, quieter and crueler.
At what cost?
Lucien squeezed his eyes shut.
He remembered being twelve, standing in that same tower—smaller, softer, still hopeful—listening as Vivienne explained why his presence was "inconvenient." How Elliot needed stability. How Lucien needed to learn resilience. How love sometimes meant stepping aside.
No one had stepped aside for him.
A sharp ache bloomed behind his sternum. Not pain exactly—something older. Something like mourning a version of himself that had never been allowed to exist.
Lucien straightened abruptly, as if catching himself in an act of weakness. He stood, pacing now, tension bleeding into motion. He rolled his shoulders once, twice, forcing air back into his lungs.
Vulnerability was a luxury. He knew that. He allowed himself minutes, not hours.
At his desk, a single folder waited—thin, unassuming, devastating.
BLACKWELL FAMILY TRUST – CONTINGENCIES
Lucien rested his hand on it.
They thought he was reacting.
They were wrong.
He opened the folder, scanning documents he knew by heart. Safeguards. Leverage. Failsafes written years ago, back when he still hoped he'd never need them. Back when part of him believed family might choose him if given enough time.
A humorless smile curved his mouth.
Time had only sharpened their knives.
Lucien closed the folder and locked it away. The click of the drawer echoed finality.
He moved back to the window, city lights reflecting faintly in his eyes. From here, everything looked manageable. Small. People mistook height for invincibility. They didn't see the distance it created. They didn't feel the loneliness.
Lucien rested his forehead briefly against the cool glass.
"I won't become him," he said quietly—not to the city, but to the boy he used to be. "I won't."
The promise steadied him.
When he turned from the window, the cracks had sealed. His expression was composed once more, spine straight, mind clear. Whatever grief lingered had been cataloged, compartmentalized, filed away where it could not interfere.
Tomorrow, he would move.
Vivienne would underestimate patience for mercy. Elliot would confuse proximity with power. They would all learn what Lucien had learned too young:
Survival was not passive.
It was deliberate.
Lucien switched off the lights and left the office, locking the door behind him.
The monster followed—but so did the man.