Last Seen Par Ruk Gayi Mohabbat
Raat ke 12 baj chuke the.
Room ki light band thi, sirf mobile screen ki halki si roshni poore kamre ko zinda rakhe hue thi. Window ke bahar baarish dheere-dheere gir rahi thi, jaise sheher bhi kisi ka intezaar kar raha ho.
Main bed ke kone par baithi thi, ghutno ko seene se laga kar. Phone meri haath mein tha, aur screen par wahi naam chamak raha tha — uska naam.
Last seen: 11:47 PM
Bas.
Wahi do shabd.
Aur wahi waqt, jo pichhle kai ghanton se badal hi nahi raha tha.
Maine ungli se screen ko halka sa swipe kiya, jaise shayad refresh karne se kuch badal jaaye. Jaise shayad woh phir se online aa jaaye. Har kuch seconds mein main wahi kar rahi thi — lock, unlock, lock, unlock.
"Ab to aa hi jaayega…"
maine khud se dheere se kaha.
Par phone bilkul chup tha.
Chat kholi. Last message mera hi tha.
"Kya hum pehle jaise nahi ho sakte?"
Seen bhi nahi.
Bas delivered.
Dil ke andar kuch dheere-dheere toot sa raha tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise har second ke saath main thodi si kam ho rahi hoon. Pyaar ka matlab agar intezaar hai, to shayad main uska sabse zyada matlab samajhne lagi thi.
Kabhi aisa nahi hota tha.
Kabhi woh bina bataye offline nahi jaata tha. Agar busy hota bhi tha, to ek chhota sa message zaroor chhod deta — "Baad mein baat karte hain."
Aur aaj…
sirf khamoshi thi.
Mujhe yaad aaya, pehli baar jab usne mujhe "late reply ke liye sorry" bola tha. Tab main muskura di thi. Tab mujhe accha laga tha ki koi meri absence notice karta hai.
Aaj main ghanton se uski absence notice kar rahi thi.
Aur use farq hi nahi pad raha tha.
Baarish tez ho chuki thi. Window ke sheeshe par boondein beh rahi thi. Maine haath badha kar sheeshe ko chhua. Thanda. Bilkul uske replies jaise pichhle kuch dino se.
"Shayad busy ho…"
maine apne dil ko samjhane ki koshish ki.
Par dil maanta nahi tha.
Busy log bhi ek line likh dete hain.
Yahan to sirf last seen tha.
Maine uska profile khola. Display picture wahi purani thi. Woh smile… jo kabhi mujhe apni lagti thi. Jaise woh sirf mere liye muskura raha ho.
"Tum badal gaye ho…"
yeh baat main kab se kehna chahti thi.
Par maine kabhi kaha nahi.
Kyunki mujhe darr lagta tha.
Darr is baat ka ki agar main bolungi, to shayad woh aur door chala jaayega.
Aur agar main chup rahi, to shayad main hi kahin kho jaaungi.
Time 12:30 ho gaya.
Last seen abhi bhi 11:47 PM.
Main bed par let gayi, phone seene par rakh kar. Aankhein band ki, par dimaag bilkul shaant nahi tha. Har notification sound par dil zor se dhadak uthta tha.
Par phone chup hi raha.
Aansoo aankhon se behne lage. Is baar maine roka nahi. Shayad aaj rone ka haq banta tha. Maine socha, maine aisa kya kiya jo itna ignore mil raha hai.
Kya main zyada care karti hoon?
Kya main zyada pyaar karti hoon?
Ya bas galat insaan se ummeed laga baithi hoon?
Phone screen phir se on hui.
Dil ek pal ke liye ruk sa gaya.
Par woh uska message nahi tha.
Sirf time change hua tha.
Maine chat ko scroll kiya. Purane messages saamne aa gaye.
Woh "Good night ❤️", woh random jokes, woh lambi baatein jo raat ko chhoti kar deti thi.
Kabhi hum itna baat karte the ki phone ki battery khatam ho jaati thi.
Aur aaj…
mere emotions khatam ho rahe the.
"Bas ek baar seen hi kar le…"
maine phone ko dekh kar kaha.
Jaise agar woh message seen ho jaata, to dard kam ho jaata. Jaise seen hone se kam se kam yeh to pata chalta ki main exist karti hoon.
Par main seen zone mein bhi nahi thi.
Time 1:00 AM ho gaya.
Last seen wahi ka wahi.
Us ek last seen ke neeche meri poori kahani atak chuki thi. Saare sawaal. Saari umeedein. Saara pyaar.
Us ek last seen ke neeche meri sirf chats nahi atki thi,
meri aadatein atki thi,
meri har subah ki umeed atki thi,
aur meri har raat ki neend bhi.
Main samajh gayi thi ki kuch rishte shor se khatam nahi hote,
woh dheere-dheere chup ho jaate hain.
Na goodbye hota hai,
na closure milta hai.
Bas ek last seen reh jaata hai,
jo roz yaad dilata hai
ki koi tha,
jo kabhi mera sab kuch tha.
Maine dheere se phone side mein rakha aur chhat ko dekhne lagi. Aankhon ke saamne bas uska chehra ghoom raha tha. Uski awaaz, uski hasi, aur phir uski khamoshi.
Shayad kuch pyaar reply nahi maangte.
Shayad kuch pyaar sirf intezaar maangte hain.
Aur shayad…
meri mohabbat bhi wahin ruk gayi thi.
Seen zone ke bahar.
Last seen par.