[Character Profile:
Player #0
Name: Fen Blue
Age: 14-15
Grade year: 10th grade.]
I was too young at the time to understand my own actions, but I ended up ghosting Aidon sometime during this year. Truth be told, I was tired of our ping-pong situationship. I ended up meeting someone else instead, who would become my "online wife". I'm sure some people will read this and think I'm being childish or whatever. I also know that there are others who would read this and find it relatable. This chapter and story are for those who feel seen in my webnovel.
[Player #9
Name: Anneliese
Age: 16-17
Astrology Sun Sign: Aries
Relationship status: "wife"]
I know she was from somewhere in Europe; she once said she was from Germany or something. I ended up googling「German feminine name that means' loving」 since that did represent her most, in my perspective. I was given four names at first, but 'Anneliese' caught my eye because it meant 'graceful, loving, and merciful'. It was also the very first name on the Google digital box, too. The three other names didn't really reflect how I wanted my former online wife to be seen, honestly.
I met Anneliese on a mental health server. For whatever reason, I suppose she may have been talking about using a marriage discord robot to marry someone. I got interested and agreed to marry her. It led to a fruitful, affectionate relationship between us. I had never felt such affection for anyone, nor had I ever received it.
With Amara and Aidon, it simply felt cold or empty. However, with Anneliese, it actually seemed like something someone should feel in a typical romance story. I considered Anneliese as a woman with whom I had actually shared my first kiss, even if it wasn't a real kiss and was just a fake one. The feeling of actual love and warmth was there. We spent a lot of time together and got to know each other.
My ideal romance today is about choosing someone and having that person choose you back. This was exactly what I had with Anneliese back when I was probably 15 years old. There were some conflicts here and there, but that was typical in every relationship, regardless of whether it was romantic, platonic, familial, or even business.
Anneliese was a great person, really. I have fond memories of her, which is quite rare for me these days, given the number of tragedies I have been through. Perhaps if I pursued romance with someone again, I would want something as gentle and warm as I had with Anneliese. I have my reasons for not going back to Anneliese; the story between her and me has already ended, after all.