Mummy always says you understand life
better when you obscurelly allows it explain itself to you, I thought it was a mere sentence the day she said those words but
after having to spend a little more years on this earth as an adult I got to understand that not the words she spoke that faithful day alone but the word life itself is not a joke.
I've been through some deep shits in life even though I know that's just me scratching the surface of the mere word life, honestly I pity the people that gives their all to whatever they do and still get betrayed at the end. Well I'm not your usual serious type of person, I just let things flow and if it doesn't I let go. Hence I did my best restraining myself from loving like an idiot but hell it hurts. Seeing how broken my best friend Ginna became when her boyfriend broke up with her I promised myself never to give my all to love, but just as this saying goes You never know the value of what you have until you lose it. All this time at the back of my head I thought I was just letting things flow so whatever will happen in the future I'll be okay but damn right now I feel like I'm drowning, my heart feels heavy inside my chest. Here I am right now Seating on my bed inside my room wondering where , when and how this pain Inside my chest will fade away.
You must be wondering who I am, well my name is Camilla Andrews the only child of the business tycoon In New York City Williams Samuel Andrews, Despite the wealth, fame and popularity I choose to be calm, generous and and an introvert because I fucking love my private space and moreover I have my father's legacy to protect . But I guess being a good person doesn't guarantee that you'll be treated good in return . I have dedicated my twenty- two years of existence in to my studies because I desire to take, keep and expand what my father has already built since I'm an only child, hence I didn't spare myself a time for anything romantic during my college days because I know it will be a big time distraction to me so I paid no attention to it. A month after my graduation I was all prepared to start working at my father company but he wouldn't allow me, the old man wants me to live a little for a few months before I start working.. So I decided to use that opportunity to travel and explore the world and that was when I met Ralph. He was funny, smart, a gentlemen and just himself, his looks was what attracted me to him at first tall, light -skinned ,and beautifully handsome like he was sculptured by God himself. We met at an auction held in England and we just clicked. I later found out that he also came from New York to England purposely for that auction. He's not so wealthy and famous as my father but he is a well to do man, he has his own company that is doing so well. I might not know what love is at that time but I just love how he speaks to me, how he cares for me and how humble he is around me. So I quit my tour around the world and went back to New York just so I could spend time with him, I traded my tour for him. I was so much in to him to the extent I could do anything for him, two months in our relationship Ginna's boyfriend broke her heart and seeing how broken she was that became a wake up call for me not to invest much emotions in to my new found love least expected things go wrong. Well I thought I did restrain myself from loving too much but guess what jokes on me..
I just came to the realization that I was just deceiving myself all this while Here I was thinking I was letting things flow .