one-sided love is when you like someone a lot,but they don't feel the same way ,you also don't know what to name this feeling??.. love , affection,attractions,obsession or something else...??
It hurts, because your heart Hopes for them,but your mind knows the truth. You care about them,think about them,and wish they understood your feelings,but you don't say much because you don't want to lose them.
Even though it's painful, one-sided love teaches you to be strong and to understand your own heart better. With time, you learn that caring for someone is okay,but caring for yourself is even more important .....
And thinking these things, I started to distance myself from them...But one day she came to me and said, first of all tell me what my mistake is.
But I explained it to her, said anything like that, but did not say what was in my heart, which I wanted to say, and after that our conversation started.My biggest regret in life was that I could not express my feelings.Then what happened, our conversation started.After that there was a fest in the college, I approached her to dance with me and she said yes and that was the best feeling of life, a dance with her, that too in a Pahadi song, which I used to dream of, I took my partner… no, do it like a best friend, she did it from her side but for me it was the best feeling and the most memorable feeling.And that dance video from different angles is saved in my gallery.
But after some time, we were on duty in the hospital and I started feeling jealous that she talks to boys from other colleges and is their friend.And at that time I did not know what happened, she was helping some boy to break up with him but I should not have known, that boy blocked me... she posted a story with a photo of him in the story and I got that screenshot which I still have... saved in my gallery... And I swear to God, I felt so bad, what should I tell you... for the first time in my life I could not control my emotions.
After that I started having mixed feelings. I thought that when she does not say that something can happen in future as friends then why am I still hoping.After that, it took me a long time to move on. But I decided to move on and start something new.
But this was just a thought of mine which I was not able to complete, which I was not able to carry forward.I did not understand what should I do, to whom should I go and tell my sorrow, although I had a best friend nearby, but I wanted to tell my sorrow to my female best friend.Who gets pleasure in telling his sad story to the opposite gender.
That's why one of my best friends, even though she wasn't in my class, was in a different course, but she used to listen to all my sorrows and support me.Her name was Kavita, she was like my sister.I used to tell her all my problems and she would give me solutions. We used to talk a lot.Then I started having fun with my friends, leaving everything behind. I was ahead in all the things in college and was first in all the activities.I started enjoying life better I started enjoying life and removed the word love from my life because it happened once in my life and I no longer believed in it.
After that, I started getting along well with her, we started talking, our relationship became like that of a brother and sister, I told her everything about myself, she gave me all her thoughts and ideas and told me how to move forward.We started talking almost every day, telling stories about ourselves, what happened and what didn't.Our friendship was such that we used to shout at each other.
Started enjoying my life, explored my Uttarakhand with friends, had fun partying with friendsWe used to go out with our friends on their birthdays, we used to have parties here and there, we used to go out somewhere or the other in a week, all of us friends used to eat momos and biryani.
After some time, when I was talking to my female best friend,Her name was Divyanshi. she mentioned her friend.He told me about the things I wanted in a partner, but I was so lost in love that I even thought about something like a relationship.What I wanted was that she should also be in a relationship first and to tell you the truth, I should be an old school love type... so that's what I wanted.But I never had the thought that I would be able to approach anyone again, that I would be able to put in the same efforts for someone else.
My mind was upset, my heart had calmed down. Only one voice was coming from my heart, let it be, now I cannot bear so much pain.I was thinking that I will stay away from everything, I don't want anyone to be hurt in life, now sometimes the thought comes to my mind, what happened to you doing all this?
Time passed and my mind calmed down.Someone gave me a suggestion, not everyone is the same, give someone else a chance and see, who knows life might change.I thought about something a little, took some time to think and at that very moment an answer came to my mind, let's see how much more pain I have written in life, how much happiness I have written.
And then I got introduced to the same girl who was a friend of my female friend, but it was not like that with me, it was okay, if it is then we will see, otherwise let it be.
And I talked to him.We talked a bit and then an incident happened.I wasn't interested, and neither was she. But there was a spark between us.
I wondered what would happen after that??????
The End