This time my identity switched to Caleb Zuozhe. I mean the Xhao Zuozhe Company is practically all the same 'person' as you can call it due to plurality and being in the same company. It's just like all Yoo Joonghyuk regression turns are practically the same person.
The brown-haired man looked upset or sad when an old friend introduced himself to the black hair man in 'Reunion'. This makes me wonder if the brown-haired rich man knows that the black hair main character is hiding something from him.
[ Dear Lizmarie Mateo Roubert,
Do I even mean anything to you? I was the one who introduced you to Genshin Impact and bonded with you in that game first. I also bonded with you on Honkai: Star Rail and Wuthering Waves. I can no longer play those games anymore. Do you treat me like everyone else? Was I just another plain old friend for you to talk and hang out with? I'm envious that you can connect with people so easily. You were the only one who I really spent time playing Genshin Impact, Wuthering Waves, and Honkai: Star Rail. Tell me Lizmarie, why do you make me feel like I was nothing to you while you were everything to me?
I really enjoyed spending time and watching anime with you. It felt really special especially with you and how you treated me. I would never find that in anyone else. I really miss the first six months that we spent together. Apparently those times meant nothing to you when they meant absolutely everything to me. Tell me, why am I stuck in this tragedy of never ending cycles? ]
As I was done writing this letter and never sending it to her, only to my readers, I was stuck in a one sided romance. There would be no one else that could interest me as much as she did. Even then, where would I find a Lizmarie that would be a green flag, stay loyal, and also find me to mean everything to them? That felt like a wish that the world could never fulfill for me.
I had forgotten that I was stuck in a one sided tragic romance story. That was simply the story between Lizmarie and I. I am always yearning and searching for her but she will never search nor yearn for me back. Truth is, I would rather return back to that one sided painful friendship and be with her than to not be with her.
I decided to read ORV the Sequel and was surprised to hear that 'Filth Addict' was someone who stalked Joonghyuk in the middle rounds for 'Ways of Survival'. It was a fight between Lee Hakhyun in Jung Heewon's body with two constellations or was it high level demons? Regardless, it was a duo that Lee Hakhyun was fighting against.
I was on the bus, I felt myself feeling nauseous. Next thing, I knew, I suddenly threw up and the vomit went over my clothes. I thought I could swallow it up again and not make a public mess but that was impossible to do. I realized that I was a couple buses past my original stop and had to walk 23 minutes back to the bus stop that I needed to get to.
While walking, I wondered if people could smell how bad of a scent I gave off with me just smoking and with the vomit. I told myself that I didn't care about how society perceived me but I suppose I do care to some extent. I had to show up to my therapy appointment looking like I had dried vomit on my clothes. I had no other choice but to do so since I sure as hell wasn't going to have to go back home to change nor did I have time to do so anyways.
I was shocked that Jung Heewon was able to break through the 'Transcendent' stage level 1. Millions if not billions of incarnations would have to spend hundreds of years training but could not overcome this wall. Yet….Heewon was able to accomplish such a feature? That's amazing!
[ Personality Identity Triggered: Andrew Zuozhe ]
My fourth ex, Chris Page accused me or one of my other personalities of being a rapist. Which is actually a crime and could ruin a life. Not to mention, he backstabbed me once before and was known as 'Deserter Alcoholic'. He was accusing me of harassing women and suddenly insulted me by saying that I was dumb.
He was trying to isolate me from my new friends, Kai and Rosty. A crisis was made because he started to call me dumb. Then I was yapping about how I harass women and "gave off rapey vibes". I don't perceive myself as a harasser but I admit that I can be a stalker. All I do is talk a lot and ask a lot of questions which translates to harassment?
No wonder I, Andrew Zuozhe, got triggered. I'm practically the one who exhibits the most Borderline Personality Disorder splittings out of everyone in the Xhao Zuozhe company.
Turns out, I have been spelling the name of the one who betrayed me wrong all this time. His first name is Scylis and his last name is Xavier. Well even if he does fight for copyright protections, I will be more than happy to steal his character and make it my own as an enemy and villain. I knew that he was a writer and wanted to make a book to create a community. He even showed me his drawings on how Scylis Xavier looked.
Scylis had long hair, though his hair color was never described, he looked a lot like Zhongli from Genshin Impact. So, I assumed he had black hair as well. He had a hair clip that would hold his hair in place as well.
Rosa and Rosty were very kind friends of mine. I was quite happy in this life of mine.
Hmmmm, am I really a human? I suppose my personality as Andrew Zuozhe has been turning more into a demon. Maybe I can become a demon king. I did name myself the Demon King of Codependency after all… I suppose I can transform from a human into a Demon King just like Kim Dokja can in ORV.
I guess I should properly introduce myself. Hi, I am Andrew Zuozhe, I come from the game "Coffin of Andy and Leyley". Before you make a joke if I do incest, no I don't but I relate to Andrew on being stressed out and being an older sibling hence I am created. I look exactly like the Andrew in the game except when I transform, I have green horns and dark green wings.
Maybe I should call myself "The Executioner" considering I tend to get angry easily. I always think about killing others after all… but doesn't everyone in the Xhao Zuozhe company do so as well? I guess Caleb doesn't…
I was greeted by the Wind and Rakko in the Workshop discord server. I was surprised and initially thought that I would be ignored. It felt nice to be greeted by these people. A red profile picture with a skull on it greeted us.
"How have you been?"
"It's been days of minor miseries"
Kai, who has a Lee Hakhyun profile picture, showed in the chat and greeted everyone.
I have confirmed with Rosa in the Workshop discord server that the title "Angelic Queen of Bitterness" does sound contradictionary. I was attempting to create an angel name for Lizmarie and I think Bitterness is a good term for her. She saves people by giving them everything then one day she will leave you in the cold. Your attachment to her will be painful.
You don't realize it at first and this begins after you formed a proper bond with her. She will be friendly and kind towards you. Then on some days when you need her the most, she will disappear. It was a bitter aftertaste feeling. This was also the reason why her companions often left her.
A reddit user named Wizard67 asked me a typology question. "I've seen your comments and what makes you think you're wing 1?" I shared my thoughts to him with "I care more about morals and being right and perfect when I first discovered that I was a core 2. Now that I grew older, I lean more to my wing 3."
Rosa got the impression that Lizmarie was an "absent samaritan". I considered that it actually describes her perfectly. It's like you need her but sometimes she just isn't there for you. She leaves me forever yearning for her when she is truly gone for a couple of months. You would think she is a good samaritan at first until she really isn't.
At first, I thought Angel would be fitting for Lizmarie. But I was wrong, she was no angel, she was just angelic. A mere human that seemed like an angel at first. Only a mere human would often like to ghost people and hide from others when they need her. If she was an angel, she would be a terrible one for sure.
Just like Lizmarie was angelic, I was an actual demon or at the very least demonic. Maybe giving myself the title 'Demonic King of Obsession' would be better. Considering both the original Andrew and I have traits of obsession after all.
I decided to update my discord status to "I love Denia" with an emote that had the yellow face with heart eyes in it and looks up.
I was at 7-Eleven today and I tried to buy cigarettes. They asked for my ID to check my age but I didn't have my ID with me so the cashier refused to sell me cigarettes. She doesn't know if I could be lying after all so I don't blame her. I find it a bit disturbing that my intrusive immediate thoughts were to kill her.
Was my justification and media consumption that much that I just thought it was fine to kill innocent bystanders….? That's quite concerning. I suppose I am starting to understand those who abandoned me.
After reading chapter 776 of ORV: The Sequel, I have learned from Lee Hakhyun that everyone experiences the same story differently. It was all about perspective after all, and a vast amount of readers were different individuals after all. But how can a group of people unite together and form the same opinion if that is the case?
I read the end of chapter 776 of ORV. I was surprised that Seonah knew something that even Hakhyun didn't know. She knew why Kim Dokja didn't return back to the KDJ company. She knew how the current world began. Hakhyun didn't obtain those memories….? But Seonah did…? How could she have known?
I eventually returned to the 7-Eleven store, the same cashier apologized that she couldn't sell me cigarettes. I tried showing her a photo of my ID to see if I could buy cigarettes that way. She informed me that she needed to scan my ID in order to sell me the cigarettes. I told her that it was okay but it did make sense. I felt bad knowing that my brain automatically went into killing mode for not getting what I want so easily. No wonder people didn't want to associate themselves with me. I was mentally a killer after all.