Chapter One Hundred Fifty:
"Now I'll be honest with you, I'll tell you a story that will prove my love for you, Shu." Haimon said while looking through my eyes seriously.
What kind of story he would tell? I wanted to voice out but then I can't and just wait for him to speak up as I listen in silence.
"One hundred three years, that's how long I've slept since I lost Siara. And when I finally wake up, you finally had born. You were three when I first met you. I was from a far while you were with you parents happily waiting for you to come closer to them. And I never thought that you were born as a pure Human, knowing that Siara's final wish came true I decided to stay away from you.
From afar I have been content to watch you as you grow. From the time you start studying until you graduated, I can only follow from a far. But, one thing I did not expect was to get to know you thoroughly. Little by little as time goes on my hope to see you again as Siara has completely disappeared because you have your own behaviors and actions that you are the one, I see.
I got to know you better and forgot about Siara completely. You revived my heart that I thought had died when Siara died. And I was so scared of how I felt that I could hardly believe I'll going to fall in love again. At first I thought, because you are the reincarnation of Siara that is why I fall for you but then, you never left my mind. You're everywhere.
Your face, your presence and your scent everything about you was there. That is the reason why I stop myself from meeting you when I finally agreed to have a blind date. When I smell your scent, I just knew you were there and decided to back out. But to my surprised, you decided to work in our company.
I was really surprised you did that even though you have your own company you still chose to work with me. You just don't know how hard it is to avoid you but I did. I avoided you until you finally decided to quit and build your own business. And to tell you the truth, I was hurt and mad at myself because I let you go just like that. Not until you approached me that very first time, we finally met closer. Face to face we have met and you were the first one to approach me.
I was really surprised then, fear and gladness that is what I felt. But then, I gathered all my courage to talk to you that day. That decision makes me so happy but then, again fear and sadness came together once more." He suddenly paused that makes me feel nervous. "Shu, I'm already prepared myself to let you go and live your life as what Siara wanted you to be but then a new prophecy has come. A prophecy that none of us would have thought it would come, the reason why I decided to stay close to you.
Closer than what I think because I just let my heart to decide and marry you. To clear things up, it isn't because of the prophecy because it is all because I love you so much, I cannot let you go and I'm so sorry if I hurt you for keeping a lot of secret from you. It is all because, I want you to stay away from harm and being with me saves your life because it changes your prophecy."
"What is there in the prophecy that you are so afraid that that thing will happen to me?" I curiously asked.
Haimon sighed. "Your death." He honestly answered and suddenly feels cold after hearing it but then he hugs me tight. "Don't worry because that thing won't happen again because I changed that when I finally entered your life. And I'll do everything to protect you no matter what it takes." He pushed a little and looks into my eyes. "Shu, please trust me. Siara was a part of me and I can't deny there is still a part of my heart that loves her. But you are the one who fills my love here in my heart and I love you so much Shu Tokino. Within the years I have watched you, you have forever planted it in my mind and in my heart and to be my wife is the happiest moment of my life. I love you so much that I don't know how deeply it can be and I really hope you can feel my love for you."
I can feel it and he never failed to show and convey how much he loves me. And even at these times, I can feel his sincere love for me. There's no doubt, he doesn't see me as Siara but he sees me as me. Even though the thought that I doubted him, I feel so guilty and sorry and all I can do is…
"Love!" I hug him and added. "I love you so much."
"I love you more."
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We held hands while staring out the open window while sitting on the sofa nearby. After Haimon's long confession of his true feelings we decided to stay in the room first and quietly look out the window.
We let ourselves be enveloped in silence. Simply listen at the sound of the outside world in a normal day.
"Love." Haimon finally breaks the silence.
"Yes, Love?" I asked as I turned my gaze at him.
"I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"Because even though I've said how much I love you I still can't claim you." He said and I know what he means.
I squeeze his hand that I'm holding before I answered. "I know you have a compelling reason why you can't claim me."
"Yes, there is." He answered.
"What is it?"
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