The man of my dreams , the one who brought sparkls to my life .So many words I wanted to say to you .But I couldn't be brave enough to face that man who made my heart race .
Yes i have given up that chance to come.and speak with you so now.i will just watch you love another woman .
My heart shattered when I just sat there watch as you promised another woman the world , you put the ring in her finger.
" as for today I felt betrayed ", I said as I looked at my mother who was angry at me
" Who do you blame Opali ?, sometimes when you love someone you need to be brave and face them "., she stated as she looked me in my eyes and I knew that I would never be brave enough to stand up for my feelings
The feeling was tempting for me to tell him but now was different and it kills me to think about it , if it was before I shouldn't have hold back but now I knew there is another woman who is being loved by the man I love and I hate it so much .
" Mother !", I called out and my mother looked at me like I have lost my mind and she held out her hand with anger at me
" Opali no , don't you dare do anything stupid right now ", she protested with red eyes
" But maybe he can have a change of heart mother if I confused my feelings , he might consider ?,' I said as I stood up and walked to where she was standing
" Consider like your father did ", she smirked glaring me with a dare
No would he ?, my father had a choice right but that choice he had broke my mother's heart leaving her depressed and sad .
Was that what I wanted him to do to his fiance so he could be with me , of course not.am not that evil sometimes it was better to be hurt than to hurt others who didn't do anything.
After a moment of hesitation" no I wouldn't want that mom , but is it wrong to love someone like this and not having the encouragement to say it to his face , my heart is breaking mother am not happy?, never been since I was 17 years old mother ",.
" Oh sweetheart come here ", my mother did hug me so dearly but I was empty " sometimes things are better left unsaid my love to have peace ", she consoles me with her bitter words
As I stood there in her embrace, my mind raced as I thought about that feeling of loving a man who wouldn't never be yours , a man soon would be married to another woman , a man who loves another woman which it is not me and am sad but maybe it was better to left it unsaid and just live by each moment looking at him and loving him at far end of another world .
Maybe in another world we would be together that nothing would ever separate us like now
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