They ask me where my head was,
And how I lost it...
But they can't calculate
How much I gave
And what it costed...
Me.
This heart I have inside my chest
Is hella frosted...
So, when I look your way,
I'm sorry if you feel accosted...
See.
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Sometimes I sit and think about
You.
And all the things that you
Put me through.
And all the things I let you
Do
To me
Silently...
Since the day
I met you
I met who
I thought I knew
As true.
Before it all solidified
Like glue.
-
And we weren't trapped together,
I was stuck in your curse...
Chasing your hand
While in the dark
Letting misery
Run its course...
You wore that bag
Never a purse.
And kept this heart
In your black hearse.
So condescending
Never-ending.
In love alone...
What could be worse?
-
And I had never run
Run...
I ran so fast.
Trying to chase
Those golden gates
Hoping darker days would pass.
And you would never stand still
Upon that hill
For me to catch.
I was just never your type
At the bottom of the class.
And you would run.
-
For the hell of it.
My feelings were irrelevant
No accountability
No addressing
The fucking elephant.
And.
You were too comfortable
That there was nothing
I wouldn't give
Just to see you smile
And hear that laugh
That shanked me
Like a shive...
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They ask me
How my heart feels,
And if I've healed,
But I feel lost...
I had to grow a whole new body part
They don't know the physical cost...
They don't know how little
I kept.
They don't know just how much
Was tossed.
They just see the scars
And hear the cold tales
They can't tell
That I'm so fucking off...
I'm so fucking off...