I started drinking more,
I would pour...
But you never said "wait!"
Didn't check on me...
You didn't check on me...
Started smoking more,
Foggy halls...
Lost all that damned weight.
Didn't check on me...
You didn't check on me...
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I sat in that bathtub
Every night
While that hot water
Poured over my body
I sat and cried,
Cause you lied...
Said you loved me
Just dangling that prize
Always knew you'd never love me
A succubus in disguise
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I drank more in those past five days
Then I had in nearly all of my days.
I loved you all of the ways.
You broke me down
And left my world in a haze.
A muted rainbow
Saturated in grays.
Let it all fade away.
-
Yeah...it all fades today.
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Oh, Heavenly Father...
Why did I bother?
Used my heart as fodder
Held me under water...
-
I started sleeping less
Due to stress
But you slept so well...
You didn't check on me.
Didn't care for me.
Worked away my soul,
Took it's toll,
Gave my time away.
You never did thank me...
Your hatred outranked me...
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You never could look me in my eyes,
No.
You never cared that I cried
Though.
You never dared even try,
So.
I had to go
Or commit suicide.
I smoked
And I drank
Just to not keep hiding.
All that I lost
All alone on that ride
I...
Started drinking more...