Rolling over to kiss you
A ghost was lying there...
The smell of your body spray
Lingered in the air...
So far.
So far.
I used to struggle with that ghost,
Your shadow ran around...
Seeing your face in puddles
In my commute across town...
So hard.
So hard.
Fuck that,
I wanted to tell you everything
The last words I never got to say
But I'm over that now.
Because I remember everything
All the shitty words you'd say
To keep me down.
The smile to keep me around...
-
While the whole world was laughing
I stood there with you...
Just hide me,
Deprived me,
So far beneath you...
Over
And over
The only truth.
Everything pointed back to you...
You...
-
Fuck, it's time that I moved on
To someone new.
I deserve all the best,
Yes, that's someone who
Will look far...
Into my heart...
And I burned that old book.
No, I tore it apart...
It doesn't deserve ashes,
Let the maggots
Eat all the parts
In the dark
Just like your heart...
-
I don't need to tell you anything.
Those bitter words I had to say
I tore them in two.
Yes, I have smudged it all away
Sage it all into the gray
I have nothing for you.
Don't get it misconstrued...
-
While the whole world was watching,
You spat in my face...
You beat me
Discreetly.
Emotionally displaced...
Over
And over
The only way.
Everything pointed back to you...
My body get nauseous
When I think about you...
My butterflies, you took their wings,
And tore them in two...
All to empower yourself
That's true...
Everything pointed back to you...
You...
-
And I know it's not my fault,
But it's my responsibility...
You buried your knives in my heart
But I need to heal
That broken fragility...
Love doesn't feel real to me
You left that pill in me...
I dig
And I tear at it now
Cause it's killing me...
You almost destroyed me
Bu I found the real in me
Soldered it up
All the leaks
Now I'm filling me
Back up
There's no time to slack up
My hopes may seem packed up
But I have a thrill in me.
It's still in me...
It's still in me...