Wait .
No , wait , wait .
We were on a bed . What was he thinking when he said that he wanted to act like a proper husband ?
Panick flashed in me , he could not have meant -
I laughed . Right , I was dumb to think that he meant something like -
Enough , you pervert , stupid stupid brain .
" That is not funny ," I told him .
He got up on one of his elbows , his other arm still circled around me , it made me feel more nervous.
" What is ?," he was still smiling .
" Let's just talk after putting a safe distance between us ?," I offered .
" Safe distance?, " he was laughing now .
Fine , I needed to shoot myself. I hid my face between my palms to compose my thoughts .
" Jerk ," I said .
" Yes ?," he was still laughing .
I picked up a pillow and threw it against his face ," You are a big ball of jerk."
He did not move but had enough decency to stop laughing at my face .
" Just get out of the room ," I was angry at him .
" But this is my room ," he had the audacity to talk logically at this moment.
I struggled against his grip to get up . If he was not moving , I had to .
But he still would not move . Annoyed I kicked his shin ," What do you want ?"
" You can not give me what I want ," he said , he sounded pretty confident about my incompetency to fulfill his wish .
I rolled my eyes .
I was not imagining it . He was really acting weird today . He had never been like this . He had always been like a mirage in my life - something that felt like it was near but never within my reach .
So what changed ?
And why now ?
I could not understand him at all .
" Are you drunk ?," that was the only logic I could come up with .
" Hmm ? Why are you asking that ?," he was still smiling . It was odd , very very odd and dangerous.
" You do not act like this ," I reminded him.
" That is true ," he noded ," But something made me realise that I can act like this ."
" Does your girlfriend know about your sudden change of behaviour?," I poked the cheater on his chest ," I am not the one you should act like this with ."
He was silent for a second and then he said ," Can you let me kiss you , Julia ?"
I contemplated shouting for help . Something was definitely wrong with him . The man who had refused to share bed with me for four years was asking for a kiss . He had definitely gone insane .
I twisted my upper body so I could turn my face away from him and tried to crawl away .
" Wait , Julia , stop , I have an explanation," he urged .
" You are on drugs , aren't you ?," I was panicking .
" Can you just give me five minutes?," he pleaded .
I slowly turned at him but I kept a palm over my mouth .
He was definitely not going to steal a kiss when half of his brain was dead .
He stayed quiet for long enough for me to wonder if the five minutes he had asked for was over already and then he started speaking ," You know....I was annoyed at first with the way you started to act for the past few days over my dating scandal . I was confused and it was hectic enough without your sudden changes . But then I realised that it might be because of Mira Palmer, I was surprised cause all these years I had thought that you would never care about who I would date cause you had never seen me as someone more than a friend ....that I was just a way for your family to survive their crisis. I realised that you were breaking down over it....things like how you stopped coming to home , talking with me , hell , you barely even smiled at me these days - this gave me some answers . I did not want to be wrong cause I wouldn't able to bear it if I am wrong , Julia ...but I dared to make a connection. You would not be so upset if you had not cared at all . You care , don't you ? You actually do bother to have feelings for me ."
Why did he have to look so Victorious about it ?
" You won then .So what ?," I mumbled through my palm , and looked down ..
What was he going to do about it ? It was not a crime to have feelings for someone.
" Julia -"
His warm breath tickled my palm . I flinched as his soft lips touched my fingers that were guarding my lips .
My world froze in his arms . The thoughts swirled around my head .
The kiss...it was his answer . After all this years , he had answered to my heart .
With my other hand I slapped his face ," You ! YOU MONSTER ! YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!"
It had not been even a weak since he had broadcasted his relationship.
A part of my heart ached realising I had hit him exactly where his bruise was that was left by my brother .
Even at this moment, I was worried about this monstrous villain .
" Yes ," his voice broke ," I know you deserve an explanation about that but Julia , please give me few days ."
" Just let me go ," I sighed , too tired to fight with him .
This time he did . Disappointed, I got down from the bed .
" Julia ?," he called again.
I stopped but did not turn to look at him.
" I truly do not have any feelings for Mira Palmer ," his hands stretched around me .
" You are playing with me , aren't you ?," my voice was trembling.
" You tell me , you have known me since I was ten ," his voice was soft like a lullaby," I have wanted you for a long , long time ."
" How can I believe it ?," I squeezed my eyes shut , I was loosing this battle, wether he was lying or not did not matter . I hated the butterflies in my stomach , I hated how I wanted to turn back and kiss his stupid face .
All the while knowing he was playing with a girl - Me or Mira Palmer , God knows that I would not be surprised if it was the both of us .
" If you were saying the truth , you would not have been so cruel with me ," I said , remembering the birthday I had baked him a cake only to be left alone again , all the times when his family had torn me apart , all the time I took my time to painfully accept the loneliness - he had never been there to hold my hand , never gave me a second of his life , I did not remember a single time we had sat down to talk , he had avoided my presence around the house like I was some kind of disease he was not immune to .
I remembered all of that ," You have left me alone for too long that I have become used to being alone ."
My marriage had been like a hollow casket , there was nothing but just signed paperworks - almost like a contract .
" Julia , I thought that you needed time and space especially after what happened back then ," he whispered as if he was saying something forbidden .
" What do you mean , what happened? Our marriage happened ? My family got into debt ?," I got up ," You know..it's fine , you don't need to do all of this now , I understand. And I would prefer it if you stop carrying me to bed ."
" Julia ?," he had a strange look at his face ," Do you not remember ?"
My heartbeat was rising again , this time it was uncomfortable. I felt a chill down my spine , as if something was coming .
I did not like feeling like this .I did not want to be in the room anymore .
I felt suffocated.
I got out of the room while Liam was still frozen on the bed .
I shut the door loud enough to break up his daydreams .
Jerk !what an absolute jerk !
As I went to my room , I found my phone had been dead .
I was not expecting a chaos waiting for me as soon as I turned it on .
There were atleast a hundred missed calls from my CEO , group members and my manager .
What did I do again ? I wondered.
I called back Seymore , he was the only one who could break a news without panicking or shouting at my face .
" Winter ...she was to go to the Goryeon Clinic , yesterday ," his voice was tired and he was trying his best to hide how horrified he was ," I dropped her to the doctor's room , then she went to the washroom but never got out ."
" What do mean by she never got out - oh ," the realisation hit me like a slap on the face ," She ran away."
My fear was confirmed by my manager just by a simple ," Yes ."