I did not get up from the bed in the morning.
I never wanted this morning to come.
The night had gone with soaking my pillow wet with my tears . I had my door locked cause I wanted to cry uninterrupted.
Either way , our idol group was doom now. There was no promises that some fan would not spot Winter on the hiatus and start harrassing her .
And what about Summer who came long way to the capital city for her dreams ? What was she going to do now ?
What was I going to do ?
When the sunlight hit my window , I finally fell asleep exhausted.
The knock on my door came and went . I did not open it . I had no energy to open it .
In my sleep , I sometimes heard Liam shouting and saying something.
I could not care less.
When I finally got the courage to leave the room , it was midnight. I walked aimlessly until I reached the rooftop .
The world around me stretched into a dark sky and greenery . When I looked down , I could see the high road and the cars passing by .
" Julia !."
The shout made me flinch , before I knew what was happening, I was lying the floor . There was a sharp pain in my back that made me go " Oww!"
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING ?"
I looked up to see Liam lying over me . His hair was wet , he smelled of sweat and shampoor .
His blue eyes pierced my face ," Is that it ? Is that your solution?"
He was so heavy that I could not breath , considering how close he was , I would have pushed him away . But I was so lost in the details of his face , his eyebrows and each eyelashes - God , wasn't it so unfair that he had such perfect eyelashes ?
" Wha- why are you here ?"
He slammed his hand at the concrete floor beside me ," Sorry for interrupting your plan of killing yourself?".
" What ?"
" You are so easy on giving up , huh? Just because your -"
" Liam , stop it , why would I kill myself?"
" Yes , why would you ? If I ever see you up here on the roof ,I am going to fucking burn this house down . So don't get any idea . This stupid building has no railing -"
" Oh , you thought that I was going to jump from the rooftop ," I sighed .
" You were not ?," his eyes went wide.
"Liam ..."
" Yes ?"
" You are heavy ."
He moved so fast that it was like he teleported to some other dimensions.
I sat there and watched him gather himself up .
He was wearing a blue shirt and white trousers . He had a towel over his shoulders. Considering his looks , he was probably in his dance studio working on his choreography.
It was late , atleast that was I could tell by looking at the midnight sky.
" You were not out of your room for last two days ," he lowered his head ," I thought that you were going back to your old times ."
" It's been two days ?," I was honestly surprised.
How could it be two days ? I got up , feeling a little dizzy .
He grabbed my elbow to give me support. I watched his fingers wrapped around my skin , wondering how easy it was for him to touch me like this .
It was not for me , though . I had always treated him like some holy grail and look where that had led me ..
I yanked my arm away .
He did not deserve to touch me like this . He was a player . He was cheating on me with his girlfriend or cheating on his girlfriend with me - it looked terrible in both ways .
I started walking towards the elevator angrily .
When I entered it , I blocked the door so Liam could not get in.
I knew that I was being petty but he had earned it .
" Liam Anderson, I do not need your worry , I am fine and capable all by myself. I had always fought tooth and nail to be on the stage and I can do it again so wait for it ."
I closed the elevator door on his surprised face .
My heart was beating fast . I did not want to admit it but Liam really gave me a ' Wake-Up' call there .
I knew that I was too close to the rooftop .
I could have slipped and I had not cared about it at all at that time .
I took my long awaited bath , scrubbing every inch of my skin until it felt raw . I felt like I had not bathed for days which was true and it felt good to get all the stickiness out of the skin .
My body was already tired when I got out of the bathroom but I had to eat .
It was the awful salt less salads again , but I could not just binge eat ice cream again .
Next I called Summer and Rain . To my surprise, they were holding out better than I was - or they were just too good in pretending to be confident.
They were already looking for next projects . Rain had been talking with a producer for a solo album while Summer had been elected as a mentor in a ' Dance Survival Show .'
I could not be more proud of them. While I was drowning in the self pity , they were already looking into places .
" Autumn , I would love it if you can duet with me in one of my songs ."
And they were looking out for me too .
I declined... I did not want to take an inch of Rain's place in solo performance.
When the morning came again , I was ready to leave my room . I should probably visit the agency before we had a meeting on Winter's sudden leave like this .
Liam Anderson was having his breakfast in the dining room .
As I walked towards the kitchen , he said ," Seymore stopped by . I think that he left you something on that sofa ."
Curious I picked up the white package . As I tore it down , I realised that it was a script , a script !
Oh fuck , I had not had acting classes since last summer .
My pronounciation would be awful, so would be my body languages - but my heart beat with excitement.
Unknowingly I jumped and then stopped myself,I had to remind myself that I had an audience.
The cooks and servants would not bother but Liam would certainly definitely bother me , I bet .
" Are you that happy ?," he laughed to see that I could not really hold down my excitement.
I ignored it and opened up the script .
The script was named " Reborn Queen Won't Let His Majesty Take Any Mistresses"
It was a comedy , historical , romance genre , the title was pretty self explanatory of the plot . Such series were becoming really popular these days .
I was just playing a minor role of one of the women who would try to seduce the king and fail . I had exactly fifteen lines and would be on the set just for two episodes .
Fair enough .
People would die to get this much exposure.
I gasped as I saw the director name - Daren Gold .
He was the hype since he won ' Best Director Award ' last month .
Oh my god . I get to work with Daren Gold .
" Don't get too excited, Daren is very scary during the shootings ."
I looked up . Liam had left the breakfast table and was leaning from my behind to look at the script.
" Get lost ," I did not want him to ruin my excitement.
" The shooting will start at two , I will pick you up at twelve ," he said smiling.
" Don't you have to work ?," I reminded him ," If I remember correctly, your drama shooting also starts today ."
" Yes ," he said smiling as if I was missing something very obvious.
I did not really want him to play with my brain . So I concentrated getting ready and called Seymore to pick me up .
I heard on the way how I was a late recruitment. The script reading was also done, the actress who was doing my role previously got an offer from Sunshine corporation to shoot an advertisement, but the shooting schedule was the same .She had figured that it was better for her to be one of the faces of Sunshine corporation for next three months .
Even when I got into my costume to play my obnoxious role , I had this odd feeling as I remembered the smile on my husband's face .
" Seymore , tell me the truth ," I grabbed my manager's arm in the middle of doing my makeup ," Did you really find this role for me ?"
" Ofcourse," he would not meet my eyes," I just got some help ."
I knew it.
I walked into the shooting set , dejected , already imagining the devilish smile on the manipulator's face .
Liam Anderson stood in a red costume and a brown hat , with beads of pearls handing from his hat and golden embroidery all over his clothes - he looked regal , like a very handsome prince who came out of a fictional book rather than boring history lessons .
" How very nice to see you after so long , Ms. Dane ," the husband I had bickered with in the morning told me with a smile that was sooo not innocent .