The ride was a blur for most of the part .
Seymore was saying something but I could not really concentrate.
All I could think about what just happened. Heat rose to my ears . I did not know how to cope up with the fact that I just kissed Liam Anderson.
My mind kept replaying his scent , his breath and his gaze , melting me to my bones .
What had just happened?
What was he thinking at that time ?
Did he regret it now ?
I frustratingly turned on the phone to see there was no message or call from him.
That was so sudden. As much as I had enjoyed his ambush , I needed an explanation for this too.
Enjoyed ?
ENJOYED ?
What kind of crazy bitch would enjoy kissing a jerk who was playing with two girls ?! I should be angry at him !
I tried to summon my inner rage . I was not that kind of woman who would let him do whatever he wanted .
Just wait till he got home . His handsone face could not save him from my wrath he was going to face.
" Autumn Dane !"
Seymore's voice bursted my bubbles of thought .
" Ye-yes ?"
Seymore took a shaky breath ," I understand that you are distracted but there will be a meet and greet with the fans in next two days , so be prepared for it ."
" Okay ....wait , now ? I mean in two days ?," I was puzzled," What are you talking about ? Wasn't it cancelled?"
" Yeah but I arranged it again , you need as much exposure as possible."
" Seymore ...I can not do that now.. the people will need an explanation for my scandal first ."
He hit the break so fast that I almost hit my head at the back of his seat .
" THEN FUCKING EXPLAIN !"
I flinched . He never shouted at me like this . This was the man who was taking care of me since I was twelve.
" There is a reason -," my voice trembled ," I would need sometimes first ."
" Oh be honest ," he sneered ," Are you trying to make a whore out of yourself like your friend."
I was stunned . It was like he had just slapped my face .
He started the car again ," I had tried to protect you girls so much , especially you Autumn. I have cared for you guys like my own children . Is this how you are going to pay back ? By whoring around with boys left and right like that ?"
Tears stung my eyes .
Seymore Wen , he had been like a parent in my idol life . A kind , gentle giant who had taken care of my each needs in anyway possible.
The words from him hurt deeper than expected.
" You know me ...I do not ...really ...play around with guys ," I hiccupped through my explanation," Why are you saying it like this ?"
" Oh don't give me that shit !," he banged his hand against the window glass ," I just saw you eating Anderson's face , next thing I know is he will fill you up with babies and leave you in the dumpster and ruin my plan altogether as neatly as possible."
My skin burnt with humaliation. I realised that he had been watching us . It was not something I wanted anyone to watch . It was so so private .
" Do you go around and spend the nights in a motel with your other boyfriend?," he kept on going ," Fuck , you need to do a pregnancy test ."
" I am not -"
" SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DO AS I SAY !"
I flinched .
Fear choked my throat.
I was terrified of the man sitting before me .
He was not someone I knew.
He felt strange .
He stopped the car before our dorm and dragged me out .
My body went stiff under his touch . I could not even move , even if I tried to . Fear wrapped around every inch of my muscles .
" Here , " he shoved a small white kit into my palm and threw open the door of the toilet ," Pee on that ."
It would be over soon , I consoled myself, Seymore was not a bad guy ...he would not hurt me in anyway .
I got inside and turned to close the door .
But he would not let me do so.
Confused I stared at his face .
He seemed like a stranger now.
" Keep the door open ," he ordered .
There was a buzzing sound inside my brain . I could not comprehend his words .
What did he mean ?
" I said keep the door open when you pee, I don't want you to cheat on the kit test ."
I felt suffocated. There was a heavy load on my chest . I could not breath as if there was no air for me . Bile rose to my tongue .
" What are you doing ? Pull off your pants ," he said again.
I was so cold that I could not feel my fingers anymore . I wanted to run away. My knees had gone so weak that I fell on the bathroom floor .
" Do I need to fucking undress you or what ?," Seymore sneered like a beast .
" What is going on ?"
Through my tears , I recognised the two features that had come to stand at the door.
" DON'T INTERRUPT! GO TO YOUR ROOM NOW !," Seymore yelled at them .
" Why ? Are you asking her to do pregnancy test like you did with me ?," Rain said in a broken voice ," Fucking get lost , you bastard !"
" WHO ARE YOU TO SAY ANYTHING ON THAT MATTER ," Seymore was shouting.
I felt a pair of arms shielding me from the beast infront of me .
" YOU ARE INASE ! YOU ARE FUCKING INSANE !," Summer was shouting ," NEXT TIME YOU TOUCH MY GIRLS I WILL FUCKING SHOOT YOU DEAD ."
I finally broke into sobs as I was escorted by my friends to one of the room .
After a second we had the door locked , there was a slam on the door .
Seymore's voice roared at the other side ," YOU FUCKING WHORES ! IS THIS HOW YOU REPAY ME ?"
" Let me call the police," Summer picked up the phone with trembling fingers.
" Don't!,"Rain gasped .
We stared at her in silence as Seymore raged outside the door .
" I called the cops yesterday when he made me take the pregnancy test ," Rain choked into her own words , " The agency blocked them ...we can not call the cops that would be a breach of contract."
" But -"
" Please," she begged ," I can not lose everything yet ."
I wrapped my arms around them ," Okay , okay , as long as we stay together, this will go away ."
Seymore eventually left . But all of us were too scared to take a step outside .
I had left my phone in his car . I wished that I had it . This was the first time I yearned for my husband. I wanted to call him and cry and beg him to take me home .
In our silent house where we had spent years together in our empty marriage - that place , now , seemed like a heaven .