It was not like idols had particular classes to seduce people .
But we did get training to act charming on the stage . The way you talk , breath , move your hair - everything counts .
But what I did today was wayyyy different.
Liam was frozen for two whole seconds . In such a short time it was as if the people around us had evaporated .
There was nobody but us. And I had to seduce this man to make him mine .
I was desperate.
I opened my mouth slightly so he could feel my breath . His Adams apple went up and down as he swallowed loudly . His blue pupils dilated .
I knew that he was trapped . For those two seconds he was bound to me . He had lost .
I almost leaned in to kiss his face .
I had a feeling that he would let me do so .
That he would let me do anything at that moment .
" Darling !," our bubble shattered as Palmer's hand wrapped around his face and she yanked his face close to hers and they kissed .
For long five minutes .
My legs gave out . I sat down as the camera zoomed on them .
The crowd around swooned .
Finally the director yelled ," Cut !"
And everyone was clapping.
I let them have their joyful moment and left .
I turned back for the last time to see them together. How everyone celebrated them as couples.
The hairstylist was right. They looked awfully good together.
Only someone like Mira Palmer looked so good with Liam Anderson.
It was never me for him .
No wonder when he debuted , he left me alone
Maybe he always knew that we were not supposed to be together.
It was summer if I remember correctly, when Liam stopped suddenly talking to me someday .
We used to sneak out to eat snacks away from our dorms . We used to practice dancing together .
Infact he used to say that he got into an idol program cause I had taught him how good it felt to dance and sing freely like that .
I knew that his family used to be as shitty as mine with the bruises he would have all year round on every inch of his body .
We would share the night sky while running away from the home when the situation of our family would become ....bad someday .
He used to be the perfect ally for me to escape the reality since childhood. So I had been over the moon when he had debuted in an idol group in just six months after joining .
I had bought a flower bouquet and brought it to him . He had been standing outside the agency with his friends.
I had to sneak in to see him .
When I had called him out , one of his friends has smirked ," Oh look , you already have a fan ."
He had looked at me and said ," Right , call the security and escort her out ."
I knew that I had been betrayed but I could not just accept it for two long months .
I had waited for his answers outside his dorms and sent him hundreds of texts . I had consoled myself that maybe it was the agency that had wanted him to cut off ties to any of his friends.....If he has said so I would have accepted it .
Instead , suddenly there had been police in our dorm . The cops had told me that it was a bad reputation to become such an obsessive fan of someone and Liam Anderson had reported me for three times in last two months .
I had been alone again .
I knew that he has been way too good to be my friends ...or a lover or a..
Husband..
He would never be there for me at the end .
I did not deserve a place at his side .
I walked to my car all by myself. Seymore was missing .
I picked up my half eaten box of strawberry and started to finish my lunch like everything was okay .
I was alone again .
That was fine . I was used to be alone .
There was a knock on the car door. Thinking it was Seymore , I threw it open.
In the darkness , I recognised the tall feature .
" Liam ?," I was alarmed , what if someone saw us !
He pushed his way into my car and turned off the light .
In the darkness we stayed silent for a second , listening for any noise that might give us a clue if we had an audience.
" What are you doing here ?," I whispered.
" It's your fault , remember that ."
Before I could understand what was happening.
He leaned in and ate the strawberry from my mouth .
The slight brush off his lips froze me to the place . My heart started to beat painfully inside my chest .
Liam opened the car door to leave and then said ," Oh fuck it."He slammed the door shut again.
And then he kissed me .
I had never kissed someone.
So I did not have any idea what to do or how to breath.
His lips guided mine to part ways . Until I could taste the strawberry he had stolen from me .
The touch of his warm moist toungue made the heat rise on my face and ears .
His hands pulled me close like he would never let go .
My hands trembled as I wrapped them around his neck.
I did not know what I was doing or if I was doing something wrong .
I just wanted to hold him close at that moment .
I could feel the tears choking my throat . I wanted to cry . I wanted to let him taste my tears and be upset along with me .
" Julia ," he was breathing heavily when we were finished ," Please don't be mad , from next time , I will ask for your permission, I promise."
There was another knock on the window. This time it was Seymore's voice.
Liam leaned it and pressed his lips against mine one last time and then went out of the car as if nothing happened.
Seymore looked at me and realised something.
" We need to talk about something Julia ," he said in a grave voice.
" Okay ," embarassed I cleared my throat .
I was glad that it was night outside now and we had turned off the light .
Even though it felt like a dream more than reality for those moments.