I knew that it was wrong to take my brother with me that day .
And for someone as useless as me , who could not even get on a plane without having some celebrity reporter reporting my every movement.
I saw a couple of phones snapping my picture .
Great , I couldn't wait to read an article tomorrow which would go like -
'Autumn Dane off to honeymoon with her boyfriend '
I had never hated dancing , infact it was the only time I felt alive . The stage was a whole other world . I craved to be someone which I definitely was not . Someone beautiful and shining under the light .
It was almost like a dream .
But the shadow that grew around it was slowly suffocating me to death . I could not be with my own brother without a hateful article , I could not even go find my own friend without stirring up more trouble , even when few people on the plane recognised me and asked for autographs , I had to smile and act excited like I was not going to break down into crying at any second .
I could leave , I could go away - but where ?
I had no home , no place to go . I had one husband that claimed to care for me but he was dating someone else .
Either way it was bad .
'What do you mean by I like you but I have to cheat on you to date this other girl that I don't really like ?'
How stupid did he think I was ? He was a player , that was it. I could not find any other argument. He was that kind of guy who flirted with every women and told them things that they liked , right ?
I did not know the kind gentle angel who was my child friend would turn out like this ..
" I keep thinking ," Jasper broke the silence," If I can get a decent job somewhere and rent like a two bedroom apartment, will you move in with me ?"
I broke into tears beside him .
I could not believe how worried my little brother had to be to propose something like this . Jayjay had always been a slacker. He was the kind of guy , to whom if father has handed over the company he could have donated everything and kept just enough to earn him a place in a retirement house or something.
For someone like him who could not even take care of himself to say that he would also take care of me showed how worried he was about me .
" Hey , spspsss ," he grabbed my hands urgently ," People are going to think that I am kidnapping you or something."
" You are going to take care of me ?," I was so proud of him for saying it ," If I leave , can I stay with you ? "
" Ofcourse, as long as you clean the toilets daily ," he seemed annoyed," It is not like I can send you on street , considering dad is a total snob , if I manage a job , we can move into the country side together."
" How did you grow up to be such a gentle man ," I hiccupped through my cry . I was so proud of him .
He was the only man in my family that was not threatening, or cheating or manipulating me .
I holded my arms out and wrapped them around him .
He struggled for a bit and then gave up ," I keep thinking how trash your husband is and father still doesn't let you leave him ."
" You have no idea ," I broke into a sob again .
It was so bad that I had to finally pull my mask off cause I felt like I was really suffocating.
He pushed me away finally freeing himself," This is not the time to be crying , we need to finish all the snacks that plane provided us , maybe because you have not really worked on the street , you do not know how expensive they are , eat it !"
I gladly took the chocolate cookie that he offered ," I think that we can take them home ."
" I am not taking any risk !"
Jasper might be a bit slow in the head and did not really know how to console someone properly. But he was atleast truthful to my face . And if he said he was going to take care of me , then he would .
He was a straightforward guy .
He was right to give me the cookie. The taste calmed me down . Back in the dorm , eating a cookie would have sent me straight to the execution and at Liam's house everything was organic , fresh and honestly blanch in taste .
My brother was the first person who brought me icecream in ten years . He had a tough life out of the county and that was why he decided to run away . But here , he acted much mature . Even though he did not say it to my face , I could see that he really loved me .
I put my head on his shoulder but he shrugged me off saying something like I might have dandruff .
That was in his genes. He could not go on for a minute without insulting me .
We rented a taxi paying more than what should have been to reach the tiny apartment in Austrin .
When we rang the doorbell a tall thin guy with hair dyed red and wearing glasses came to stand at the door . I could see that he was nervous but he said confidently," Who is it ?"
" Reynolds?"
" I asked who you are !," he hissed
I could see that he was not willing to move an inch from the door , like he was protecting something - or someone he had hidden in his apartment.
" It's okay , honey , let me talk with her ."
It was Winter's voice.
The man looked defeated as he let us enter . He kept telling me that he had been selected to work as a government officer and he could pay for the fines or damages or anything Arelated to breaching a contract.
But as soon as the corridor ended into a dining room , he left us and rushed over to the sofa .
Winter sat there , with her hair dyed black and chopped short . She was wearing a workout tshirt . She had a big bowl of strawberry on her lap ."
" I am craving this so much today , the baby must one this ," she told me , smiling hugely .