When the night crawled inside my room , I felt desparately lonely for Liam .
But I could not let him make me lose my dignity like this . Now that I had a taste of how awfully delicious it was among his arms , I felt myself getting weaker and weaker against him.
One moment I was trying to imagine what it would feel like if I really had to leave him , the next moment I wanted to call him to my room so I could kiss him.
A part of me , did not even bother if he was a cheating bastard cause it loved him unconditionally. Even after he had pushed me away for so many times , it did not really matter . Cause deep inside , I would always always hopelessly love him .
I curled into my bed ,trying to find as much comfort as I could with the IV drip stuck to my hand .
The nurses said that they would check in the midnight and left me .
My sleep became restless , maybe because father came to see me today . I kept seeing him and some other men from my blind dates before I had married to Anderson family
' You need to give birth to a boy '
' Did you go through psychological evaluation?'
' Are you a virgin ?'
In my dream , I was wearing the pink dress my mother had gifted me for my birthday along with a pearl necklace. I was dressed up with soft makeup to appear more attractive to men.
My father used to say that men would hate red lipstick. Pink would be best to appeal them.
The candidates for blind dates had ages as old as sixty . But I was not allowed to move from the chair . I had to smile and answer everything pleasantly.
The eyes would tear me apart piece by piece to examine my value as a woman .
" Julia Dane , how do you perform in the bed ?"
" Julia Dane , I suppose you won't mind that I have an illegitimate child ."
" Julia Dane , I prefer women who are quiet and obedient like you ."
Julia ? Julia ?
"Julia ."
At some point , I had stopped caring about if they really saw me as a human being. I was just a product displayed by my father and they were the eligible customers who wanted to buy me.
" I am perfectly capable of serving you as your wife , I can look after your need ," I repeated the words that had been drilled into my brain by my father ," If you do not like anything about me , please do tell me . I will do my best to change it ."
" Julia !"
I looked up . Strangely , this time there was a woman before me . She looked terrified as if she was watching a horror movie .
I looked around , trying to find something that might have scared her . I realised that I did not exactly remember since when I had been sitting with her .
" Julia ?"
I turned to look at Liam , he stood three feet apart . He looked pale as if he was watching something terrible infront of him.
His appearance reminded me , oh right , I was married now , there was no need to go to anymore blind dates .
" Julia , can you hear me ?," he asked me cautiously .
I noded , well , ofcourse I could hear him .
But I was too confused at the moment. One second I was sitting with me father , the next I was sitting down with the men in my blind dates , and now there was Liam .
" Am I - am I dreaming ?," I asked him , I stared down at the hands , there was a broken IV stuck to my right hand . It was still bleeding ruining the beautiful pink dress I was wearing .
There were heels at my feet . I put my hand over me . I was wearing heels , my hair was done with accessories .
How was this real ? Why was I getting ready ?
Right , I was on a blind date , I got ready for that .
But I was married , I was fucking married !
" Julia ," Liam was kneeling before me ," It is alright , let's get you back to your room ."
" But what am I doing here ? ," I asked him ,"'I went to my room to sleep , and then - then I saw my father and those men , was I dreaming ? I was dreaming but why am I here now ? "
My breathing became irregular. I was panicking. Fear clutched my throat so I could suffocate.
" Listen to me ," Liam's hands cupped my face ,"'You just had some bad dreams ."
" But why am I wearing a dress ?," my voice turned to whisper," Why am I wearing heels ?"
" It is because you thought that your dream was your reality," the answer came from across the table .
I looked back at the girl who was sitting infront of me .
It was Jewel Anderson. The terror she had show atfirst was now long gone . The typical arrogance expression she always had was back again.
" Jewel ," there was a warning in Liam's voice .
" Oh please , don't make a big deal out of it ," she waved her hand at him ," When I was small , I also used to sleepwalk like this ."
" I was sleepwalking ?," it did not make sense since it felt so real.
"Yeah , I guess you are back doing that again ," Jewel blabbered ," That was why I told you brother to drop an quack doctor and enlist her in Pilates classes ."
" Jewel , please , for God's sake -"
" Again ? What do you mean ?," I grabbed my husband's arm for answers ," What does she mean? She doesn't mean -"
" Wait , why are you acting like this ? You yourself don't know that you sleepwalk? Is your brain for display or what ?"
" Everyone please !," Liam's voice rose ," Stop interrupting each other ," Julia , your hand needs to be treated , and Jewel for one second , keep your mouth shut please ."
I was shivering . I looked around . It was midday . We were in the dining room . There were two servants watching me .
" Liam , my feet hurt , I don't think that I can get up ," I told him.
" Yeah , I can help you with that ."
Soon he was carrying me back to my room. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to forget the shadows and faces from my dream .