I lied on the bed as one of the nurses placed an IV drip at my side .
Liam was anxiously walking around my room behind the doctor as he explained to him that I was to not stress myself in anyway possible.
" Was the workout today became too much ?,"the doctor finally asked me ," For how long did you exercise?"
" I think it was thirty minutes ," Liam answered for me .
" This should not have happened then ," the doctor scowled ," Mrs. Anderson you must not strain yourself outside the suggested working schedule. Any kind of exercise outside what has been given to you would be bad ."
I turned my head to other side so the medical team would not be able to see me blush .
In my defense , I was in arms of my husband all the time . Maybe it was the wall I was pressed against. Yes , it might be the wall's fault .
" I was trying to walk by myself," I cleared my throat .
" That should not be done in excess ," the doctor said and paused for a moment and then said again ," Also , it would be wise of you to be gentle in performing marital affairs ."
Liam coughed ," That - we have been very careful about ."
" Yes , it would be wise to avoid it as much as possible for this month ," the doctor said nonchalantly," Mrs. Anderson will be on pain relief medication for the night. In the morning, we will check how she is doing and proceed as required."
Liam thanked the doctor as the team went out .
When we were alone again , he came to sit on the bed , by my side ," I am sorry , it was careless of me to handle you like that ."
" You didn't know that it will turn to this ," I looked back at him " That is not your fault ."
We were in silence for a while , he broke it first by saying ," Let's get you back on feet first ."
" Yeah , lying down like this sucks ," I agreed with him.
He chuckled," Although I am going to be very impatient about waiting ."
" Don't hold your breath though," I said ," You will die ."
" You are upset again ," he noticed .
" I am not ."
" Yes , you are ."
" You just heard the doctor, I need rest ," if not for the IV drip , I would have turned my back at him.
" Julia , if we don't talk about it , it will never get solved ," he urged .
I did not want to though. Cause if I admitted it on face , it would feel like a reality now .
" Is there any reason I should know ?," he index finger brushed my hair from my face ," Atleast give me a hint ."
I tried to collect my thoughts to put up my case. It was hard since I was drowsy for the meds .
" You are driving me nuts ," he sighed .
" Give me a second ," I told him to be patient.
" Alright ," he sounded like he was holding his breath .
I knew the storm that would hit us as soon as I mentioned it . But I could not let it go .
" From next time , keep your distance from me ," I said ," We should not be like this in anyway ."
" What are you - oh ," his eyes were cold as he watched me ," Why ? Do you hate me now ?"
" Yes ," I noded . It was true , I despised him to some extent .
He smirked ," You did not think about it before we started to -"
" It must be because I am crazy to some extent ," I considered that it was my fault ," I am sorry about that , everything is not just your fault ."
" But you did not seen like you hated me doing anything to you today ," he raised an eyebrow.
"That's the problem!," I snapped .
I could have lied saying how I was disgusted and hated his touch. But he would see right through me . Liam had known me for too long to not notice such a big lie coming out of my mouth .
" I don't understand," he whispered," What is the problem ?"
" The problem is you , don't you see it ?," I could not say it to his face .
" Julia -"
" You will eventually leave me for that other woman ."
The room fell into silence. I was upset how I could not keep resisting him even when I was pretty sure that he was playing with me . He was taking advantage of my misery and my feelings .
" I am sorry ," he dropped his head ," I can not give you any explanation now . It is for your own good ."
" Yeah ," I bit my lips so I would not cry , the pain kept the tears in check ," I would not need an explanation."
" That's not -"
" I understand now why I could never come to you when my brother found me . I could never tell you about my family. Cause eventually you will leave. I knew that ," I muttered , processing the word inside me .
" Julia - I am not going to leave you !," he reached for me again ," This is not what you think it is !"
I looked away . Well , that was what every cheater would say .
" There are things that I would need time to tell you properly," he said , getting up from the bed ," Things , I wish that you would never know about me ."
Even when I was mad at him , I could not ignore the fear in his voice . I looked at him .
For a moment, it looked like there was a child before me , not a grown adult . Just a vulnerable kid that made me throw my arms around him .
But I could not forgive him so easily .
" I will give you time ," I decided .
He looked up at me , hopefully.
" But you can not keep backing out ," I pointed out ,"And after that we will decide what to do with us ."
" What do you mean ?," he was confused .
" Well , if you keep seeing other women , there is no point of me staying with you , is it ?," I sighed .
" No ! I said that it is not what you think it is !," he looked frustrated," Julia , in my life there had never been a woman other than you in my heart !"
"What about on your body ?,"
I knew that it would be foul play to ask that .
Instead I went back to our deal ," Liam , I can not wait forever for this , I can give you just a week ."
" It is not enough ," he stopped , he pulled on the shirt at his neck , as if he felt suffocated," Fine ! Fine ! I will come clean but give me another month ."
I shook my head . If my heart was going to break , it should be sooner than later . I did not want to fall more in love with him , if he was going to leave .
" Two weeks at best ," I proposed," Or I am going back to the dorm or with my brother ."
" With your health like this ?," he panicked," Are you blackmailing me ?"
" You deserve it ," I said .
If his affection was fake , he would not be panicking like this . Either way he gotta come clean .
" Alright ," he noded ," I will send the nurses upstairs but call me if you need anything."
Even when we were fighting like this , he was still there for me .
I pretended that it did not bother me at all . But inside , his kindness was slowly killing me