He knew , he damn knew what he was doing to my heart . Nervous excitement fluttered inside my ribcage as he teased my skin with teeth - almost a bite but never a real one . The way his lips rubbed on my neck , they sent electricity down my body .
I was losing my mind here , I could no longer concentrate on my feet . I started slipping down but he picked me up and turned me towards him , setting me against the wall .
With him at the front , I had nowhere to run . He knew that he had more freedom this way , he bent down to bite my neck , this time it did hurt a bit .
" Liam ," my voice came out strange . I was begging him , but I did not know for what , for him to stop or to continue to do what he was doing .
All I knew that I wanted to eat those pretty lips of his like a desert .
I picked up his face with my hands to guide it to my mouth .
" Can I kiss you now ? ," he was the one to ask .
I realised that he was trying to keep his promise to me .
" Jerk ," I muttered ," You are supposed to ask for permission in everything."
He laughed in a breathless voice ," But the first one was revenge ."
What kind of revenge leave you red and sensitive and wanting for more like this ?
" Julia ?"
" Yeah , next time ask for consent in even in revenge," I pouted ," Consent is healthy in a relationship."
" You sure ?," he looked like a devil making a deal with me ," It will go both way though ."
As if I would go crazy over making out with him .
As his mouth reached my neck again , his breath tickled my skin , he asked ," Can I ?"
" Yes ," I had given up long ago ," But can we go into my room first ?"
I was anxious about the servants - I did not like the idea of someone watching our private moments in anyway .
He picked me up so swiftly that our lips almost touched . I had my arms around his neck and my legs wrapped around his waist . We were face to face . I could feel his heartbeat in my chest as he walked inside my room and closed the door .
It was like I was holding breath for a long time , and then we clashed .
His hands run up my legs under my long skirt. The heat of his fingers brushing my skin made the hair on my skin stand .
I ran my hand around his back, feeling the muscles on his arms as his palms squeezed on my thighs.
I was feeling strange . I wanted to give in all to him , but there was also fear . Nobody has been this close to me like this ,like ever.
He was my first .
I traced his face with my fingers. There was so many things that felt still unfamiliar and mysterious about him even after all these years .
" Liam ," calling his name calmed me down . It felt familiar.
I pressed my thumb on his lips ,"We can kiss now ."
He smiled like a devil ," Not yet ," and licked my finger .
I shuddered at the wet touch of his tongue, before I could pull out my finger , he caught it with his teeth . It did not hurt but he was not letting go of my hand .
His eyes told me , I was the one who offered him my hand .
His tongue wrapped around my finger as his hand brushed up my thighs .
I wanted to point out , I had not given consent to any of that . But I could not think straight at all .
My whole body tingled under his touch . I could see myself at the reflection in his eyes . He was drinking the sight of me . I felt exposed and vulnerable under his touch .
But there was nowhere in the world ,I would be than be with him. I wanted him all to myself. I wanted to swallow his whole .
I cupped my other hand on his face , so I could get a grip on him.
He shook his head , finally letting go of my thumb ," You did not ask for my permission."
" But -," my head was empty as I tried to form a sentence," You also did not -"
" No I asked you , you told me I can do it after we get into the room ," he whispered in my ear and started to nibble on my earlobe .
I could not remember it . Even if he was lying , I could not be sure . My chain of thoughts was long lost in his arms .
A pressure was building inside my gut . My breathing got heavier and heavier. Each time he moved , he sent sparks down my nerves .
I put the back of my hand on my mouth so that I would not accidentally moan out loud.
I was embarrassed. The thought of having Liam holding me like this was enough to drive me crazy . I did not know what to do or how to do about anything in a situation like this. That was why I was getting more and more nervous.
For instance I did not know just by touching my skin on my thigh , Liam could make me feel like this .
" Liam ?," I called his name again , my throat felt dry , I wanted to kiss him so bad ,"'Please ?"
This time he gave up , pulling his lips to my mouth . It felt different than the first time . His tongue filled up inside my mouth, twisting around my tongue .
I dug my nails deeper into his shoulder . I could not breath but I did not want to let him go now . As if there was an empty space inside me , and only he can fill it up .
He groaned, pressing me more against the wall .
Suddenly a sharp stabbing pain erupted on my spine . I yelped , biting on Liam's lips .
He flinched .
" It hurts ! It hurts !."
Blood was running down his mouth but my husband was oblivious to it ," Julia ? Are you alright?"
" It hurts ," I could feel the tears in my eyes now ," Why does it hurt ?"
He carried me to bed ," Wait a second , I will call the doctor."
It felt like a divine intervention to not let us go further