The afternoon I spent by the swiming pool was blissfully quiet . It was as if the arrival of my father had just been nothing but a nightmare.
I still could not talk for a while although it was soothing to hear Liam talk about his work nowadays. He nagged how his recent choreographer wanted him to do some dangerous routines on the stage but his back hurt , he also talked about his album that he was excited about and some fans he had met recently.
It was such a mundane thing to hear about what he loved and what he hated these days , but that worked like a medicine for me . I had craved for his presence like this for so long .
To put my head on his shoulder, to be just in the tiny bubbles of his conversation - why could we not do it before
At this point , I did not even care that he had another woman . It did not matter if he was going to leave me for someone else. I could sell my soul to have his attention like this just for few days .
A part of me wondered if I could even count my time with father as a blessing since it bought me to my husband's attention.
That part of me loved that we were acting like a married couple .
I knew how unhealthy my obsession with Liam was becoming. It would have been better if he had not given me any attention at all . But not that he had ,I craved more and more of him ,until I could swallow him whole .
My greed was overwhelming for him . It even urged me to act more pitiful, maybe that way he would drop all his work and be with me for all day long .
All his love and hate would be all about me . I would be the only thing inside his brain .
I squeezed my eyes shut and shook my head , trying to shrug off the funny ideas that I was having .
" Julia , are you alright ?," Liam asked ," Do you want to go inside the house ?"
Startled I noded . He picked me up in his arms . It had become a casual routine among us . And I loved it .
It was awkward at first but now I knew where to put my arms , where to put my head so I could watch his face more clearly .
That reminded me how he used to threaten to carry me if I had refused to go somewhere he had wanted me to . Now I thought that it would not be so bad , would it ?
I buried my nose at his neck , inhaling the smell of his shampoo and sweat . The way it calmed down my nerves , made me feel like I was home .
" Julia ," his voice trembled," Are you sniffing me right now ?"
" Mmhm ," I clung closer to him . He had no idea how comforting his scent was.
" Julia !," he gasped ," Stop it ."
I looked up at him wondering if I had annoyed him too much .
" Don't do this now ," his neck and ears were red ," We are going down the stairs ."
What was I doing ?
It took me a second to understand what he was implying at . Heat flushed my skin . I looked away .
Why were we acting like some stupid teenagers in love ?
At times like this I wished that I could walk . Even though most of my selfish desire loved being carried around the house by him , I still wanted to stop acting like a child .
I was not exactly doing good by putting this childish act before him .
I stared at my own legs on whom I had started to gain some trust for last few days . Maybe if I could just -
" Liam , put me down ," I asked him .
" What , now ?," he seemed surprised.
" I can try to walk ," I explained to him.
" But you got some exercise in the garden earlier ," he said , deliberately not mentioning my father's visit ," We can't have your body stress out too much ."
" I am not stressed out ," I told him , I knew that I could start to take small steps around the house other than doing scheduled exercises.
He stopped at the end of the stairs," Is it because I told you to stop ?"
" What ? No !," I was more insulted to realise that he thought that I was sulking because he did not let me sniff his neck .
" Are you sure about that ?," his eyes were serious but I could see the mischief playing among them.
"Mr. Anderson, do you think that I am a child or what ?"
He shrugged ," Fine ," and set me down straight on the floor .
The cold marbel made my toes curl from the sudden exposure. Liam supported me by holding me at the waist ," Well , try to walk ."
I turned to look at him , suspiciously . What was he playing at now ?
He smiled at me with innocence that looked like a scam . But I could not exactly point out where he was wrong .
Well , he had messed with my head before like this anyway . I decided to ignore him and concentrate on my feet instead .
As soon as I took the first step , there was this ticklish feeling on my neck . I could feel Liam's breath on my skin .
" What -," before I could turn to look at what he was doing , he whispered," Look ahead , Julia ."
How ?
I wanted to ask him how could I concentrate when he was acting like that ?I was now more conscious of his body pressed against my back , his fingers playing with the hem of my shirt .
I shivered as he pressed his nose against my neck . My knees buckled if not for him , I would have melted down on the floor .
" Liam ?," I took in a short breath , trying to hide my nervousness ," Don't do that ."
" Mmhm ?," he was feigning ignorance ," Do what?"
This stupid guy , I was midly annoyed but more nervous. It was not like I could ' run ' from him now .
He dipped his head until his face was buried in at the junction of my neck and collarbone and sighed .
Warm bubbles erupted at the pit of my stomach . I was having trouble to concentrate on breath .
" Liam , please , stop ," a part of me wanted him to do more than that ,and that thought was making my face red . I could not let him control me like this .
He looked at me from under his eyelashes , the weight of his deep blue eyes made me sink faster than Titanic ," If you tell me to stop , I will sulk ."