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Chapter 16 - Chapter 4: The Missing

A vanished boy leaves questions behind, but in Blackstone, every answer breeds its own absence. Dr. Lee chases echoes through corridors that rewrite themselves nightly, while staff members forget to remember and records change their testimony. Some disappearances can be explained. Daniel's is becoming something else entirely—a hole in reality that keeps expanding, consuming certainty, leaving only salt and shadows and the terrible understanding that Blackstone doesn't lose its patients. It transforms them.

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Dr. Marcus Lee had stopped sleeping on the third day after Daniel's disappearance.

Not stopped trying—he'd lie in his apartment twenty minutes from Blackstone, staring at ceiling cracks that weren't the right cracks, listening to silence that was too empty after the asylum's constant breathing. But sleep itself had become foreign territory, a country whose borders he could no longer cross. Every time his eyes closed, he saw: Daniel standing in that corridor, mouth moving, speaking to something off-camera. The darkness passing across the lens. The empty space where a boy had been.

So he stalked Blackstone's halls instead, a man chasing his own echo, Daniel's name spilling from his lips in a dozen pitches—patient at first, then angry, then pleading, then something beyond pleading that had no name yet but tasted like desperation and copper.

"Daniel Chen, if you can hear me—"

"Daniel, this isn't funny, you need to come out—"

"Daniel, please—"

But the building only returned hollow sounds: his voice bouncing off high ceilings, absorbed by old wood, fragmented by corners that seemed to multiply when he wasn't looking directly at them. Dust motes hung suspended in thin morning light, unmoving, as if time itself had grown tired of progressing.

The nurses grew silent around him. Not the comfortable silence of colleagues who'd worked together long enough to communicate without words, but the heavy silence of people who knew something they couldn't or wouldn't share. They refused eye contact, found urgent tasks that required their immediate attention whenever Lee approached, and their routines—the careful choreography of medication rounds and meal services and hourly checks—began to fray at the edges like fabric pulled thread by thread.

Med carts sat abandoned in corridors, half the pills distributed, half still waiting in their little paper cups. Patient charts remained half-filled, notes trailing off mid-sentence as if the writer had forgotten what came next, or realized that what came next couldn't be written in medical terminology. Staff meetings—Lee called three in four days—spun in circles, everyone talking about Daniel but never toward him, discussions orbiting the absent boy like planets around a collapsed star.

"We need to contact the authorities," Lee said at the second meeting, his voice raw from calling Daniel's name through empty corridors. "File a missing person report. Search the grounds, the woods, the—"

"Already done," Nurse Reeves said, not looking up from her clipboard. "Called it in six hours after the lockdown ended. Police came, took statements, checked the premises."

Lee stared at her. "I don't remember that. I don't remember police being here."

Reeves finally met his eyes, and something in her expression made Lee's chest constrict. "They were here, Dr. Lee. You spoke with them. Gave them Daniel's file, showed them the security footage, walked them through his last known location."

"I didn't—" But had he? Memory felt suddenly elastic, unreliable. He remembered watching the footage, over and over, alone in his office. But had there been others? Men in uniforms, asking questions, taking notes? The harder he tried to grasp the memory, the more it slipped away, leaving only the ghost of certainty where facts should have been.

"What did they say?" His voice came out smaller than intended. "The police. What did they conclude?"

"That Daniel Chen was never admitted to Blackstone Asylum." Reeves's words were flat, clinical, the tone medical professionals used when delivering terminal diagnoses. "According to their records, and ours, there is no patient by that name. Never has been."

The meeting room seemed to contract, walls leaning inward. Lee gripped the edge of the table hard enough that his knuckles went white. "That's impossible. I admitted him myself. September 2nd. Parents deceased, social services referral, intake assessment completed—"

"September 2nd was eight weeks ago," Reeves interrupted. "Our current census shows sixteen patients. Has shown sixteen patients for the past three months."

"Seventeen," Lee said, but even as the word left his mouth, doubt crept in. How many beds had he counted during morning rounds? How many names on the patient board? "We have seventeen patients. Daniel makes—made—"

But Reeves was already shaking her head, and the other nurses were looking away, and Lee realized with creeping horror that they were humoring him, treating him the way they treated patients in the early stages of psychotic breaks, using that careful gentle tone that meant: We know you believe it, but it isn't real.

Daniel's last shadow seemed to hang near every closed door Lee passed. Not a literal shadow—though in Blackstone, literal and metaphorical bled together until the distinction lost meaning—but a presence, an absence that had weight, that pressed against the edges of perception like someone standing just outside your field of vision, forever in peripheral space.

The boy's room—Lee still thought of it as Daniel's room, would keep thinking of it that way even as the building tried to convince him otherwise—remained locked. Not officially, not by administrative order, but the door simply wouldn't open. The key turned in the lock, the mechanism engaged, but when Lee pushed, the door held firm, as if someone on the other side were pushing back with equal and opposite force.

Through the narrow window in the door, Lee could see: the bed, neatly made. The desk, empty. The wardrobe, closed. Everything arranged with institutional precision, as if the room had been cleaned and prepared for a new resident, as if no one had ever lived there at all.

Except for the shoes.

They sat at the foot of the bed, exactly where he'd found them that morning—canvas, worn, soles trailing salt in patterns that looked almost like words, like warnings, like the last desperate message of someone being erased.

Lee had photographed them. Bagged them as evidence, labeled the bag with date and time and patient name in his careful handwriting. But when he returned to his office to file the evidence properly, the bag was gone. Or had never existed. Or both.

Elijah waited in Lee's office on the fourth day, sitting in the leather chair usually reserved for patients during therapy sessions. His shoes—too large, donated, the laces frayed—swung freely, not quite reaching the floor. He was staring at the wall behind Lee's desk with the focused intensity of someone reading text that wasn't visible to anyone else.

"Did Daniel tell you anything before he went?" Lee's voice cracked on the past tense, on the finality it implied. "Did he say goodbye? Give any indication of where he might—"

"Daniel didn't leave." Elijah's voice was flat, patient, the tone of someone explaining simple mathematics to a child struggling with multiplication. "He just stepped sideways. The hospital forgot how to look at him."

Lee wanted to grab the boy by his thin shoulders, shake him until real answers fell out, until the cryptic pronouncements resolved into actionable information, into something he could use. But he'd learned in his years of training that violence against truth only made truth retreat further, burrow deeper, communicate in increasingly obscure symbols.

"What does that mean, Elijah? 'Stepped sideways'? Is that—is it a metaphor? Is Daniel hiding? Did someone take him? Did you—"

"When people vanish here," Elijah interrupted, still staring at the wall, at the crack in the paint that had appeared overnight, spreading in branching patterns like neural pathways or root systems, "it's because Blackstone needed their story more than we did. Daniel knew things. About the doors that aren't doors, about the names written in the walls, about what happens when you count too high or remember too much. The building couldn't let him leave with all that knowing."

Lee bristled—wanted accusation, wanted denial, wanted some clear culprit he could blame, some person or system or failure of protocol. But Elijah only repeated, in that same patient tone: "The hospital doesn't erase people, Dr. Lee. It rewrites them. Changes their tense from present to past to conditional. Daniel was here. Daniel is here. Daniel will have been here. All true, depending on when you're standing."

After Elijah left—escorted back to his room by a nurse whose name Lee kept forgetting, whose face seemed slightly different each time he saw her—Lee sat alone in his office, surrounded by files and notes and the accumulated documentation of his professional life.

The patient register lay open on his desk. Sixteen names in his handwriting. He counted them. Counted again. Sixteen. Always sixteen. But he could have sworn—

His old notes mocked him from the filing cabinet. He pulled Daniel's file—except it wasn't Daniel's file anymore. The name on the tab read Derek Chin, admitted three months ago, transferred to state facility two weeks ago, case closed, signed by Dr. Marcus Lee in his own careful script.

Lee opened the file. Inside: familiar information rearranged. Same age, same approximate history of trauma, but details shifted, mutated. Parents died in a car accident, not a fire. Social worker named Ms. Brennan—wait, that was right, that was the social worker who'd brought Daniel, he remembered her white knuckles on the steering wheel, her refusal to look at the building.

He kept reading. Session notes in his handwriting describing a patient he didn't remember treating. Medication logs showing prescriptions he didn't remember writing. Progress reports documenting improvement, stabilization, eventual transfer to a less restrictive environment.

Dated and signed. All of it. In his hand.

Lee turned the page, and his vision blurred. The text seemed to shift, letters rearranging themselves even as he watched. New sentences appeared between lines he'd already read, in ink that was somehow both old and fresh:

Doors remember names even when people forget.

He dropped the file, pages scattering across his desk. When he bent to retrieve them, the sentence was gone. Or had never been there. Or would be there tomorrow but wasn't today because time was old here and got mad when you noticed.

On the inside cover of his own notebook—the one he used for personal observations, the thoughts too raw or uncertain for official records—Elijah's geometric doodles had appeared. The spirals and runes and impossible patterns that hurt to look at directly. Lee hadn't let Elijah near this notebook, kept it locked in his desk drawer, had the only key.

But the patterns were there nonetheless, covering the endpapers, bleeding through to mark subsequent pages. And underneath them, in Elijah's child-like printing:

The building keeps what it needs. Daniel was needed.

Elsewhere in Blackstone—because the asylum had an elsewhere, had many elsewheres, spaces that existed in the gaps between official floor plans and architectural surveys—Alex Winters was documenting everything.

His journalist's instinct, finely tuned by years of sniffing out stories others missed, told him something significant was happening here. The disappearance of a patient would normally merit a footnote, a brief mention in the local section: Troubled teen runs from treatment facility, search ongoing. But the staff's reactions—the way they deflected, denied, grew uncomfortable when pressed—suggested something more complex.

He'd interviewed seven nurses so far. Each told variations of the same non-story: Daniel Chen wasn't missing because Daniel Chen had never been admitted. The police had investigated and found no evidence of foul play because there was no victim. The matter was closed, the file sealed, and would Mr. Winters please stop asking questions that disturbed the other patients?

But janitors told different stories. They swore about strange stains that reappeared nightly despite aggressive cleaning—shapes resembling footprints, sometimes handprints, pressed into dust near what had been Daniel's room. Maintenance staff reported doors that locked themselves, corridors that ran longer than their measured dimensions, cold spots that registered on thermometers but couldn't be explained by ventilation or weather.

And Alex had found something else: Daniel wasn't the first.

In the university library, working backward through local newspaper archives, Alex had discovered a pattern. Every few years, dating back to Blackstone's opening in 1891, a patient would disappear. Not escape—disappear. Present one day, absent the next, and within weeks the records would change, would show they'd never been admitted at all, or had been transferred elsewhere, or had completed treatment successfully and returned home.

But families remembered. Occasionally a parent or sibling would raise questions, demand investigations, insist their loved one had been at Blackstone and now was gone. These inquiries always dead-ended, lost in bureaucracy or explained away by administrative error or gently redirected toward grief counseling and closure.

Alex had documented nineteen such cases. Or twenty-three. The number kept shifting depending on how he defined "disappearance," what counted as evidence versus rumor versus the fevered imagination of traumatized families.

Late that fourth night, Lee lingered in the staff lounge, unable to face his empty apartment, unable to pretend that sleep was a country he could still visit. He reread his old notes, trying to find the moment when reality had begun to fracture, the exact point where the world had split into what he knew and what the records claimed.

The pages he recognized as his own—patient assessments, treatment plans, observations about Blackstone's particular challenges—began rearranging themselves. Not dramatically, not obviously. Just small shifts: a word changed here, a date adjusted there, footnotes appearing that he didn't remember writing.

One caught his eye, margin note in his handwriting but phrasing too strange, too poetic for his usual clinical documentation:

Doors remember names even when people forget. Walls hold stories longer than skin. Some patients don't leave—they dissolve, become part of the architecture, breathe with the pipes and whisper through the radiators. Blackstone doesn't have patients. It has ingredients.

Lee stared at the words until they blurred, until he couldn't tell if they were real or hallucinated, if he was reading them or writing them, if they'd always been there or were appearing as he watched, ink spreading like blood across the page.

He closed the file, pushed it away. Reached instead for his notebook, intending to document his own deteriorating mental state—Patient: Dr. Marcus Lee. Symptoms: insomnia, intrusive thoughts, possible dissociative episodes—but stopped.

On the cover, where there should have been only his name and the date range, Elijah's geometric doodles had multiplied. They covered every available space, spiraling inward, creating depth where there should only be surface, and at their center, in letters that might have been written or might have been burned:

THE BUILDING FOUND A NEW WAY TO KEEP ITS GUESTS

Lee dropped the notebook. It landed on the floor with a sound too soft, too muffled, as if the linoleum itself had grown flesh, had learned to absorb impact. When he bent to retrieve it, the cover was blank except for his name and dates, pristine and unmarked.

But on his hands, pressed into his skin like temporary tattoos or permanent scars: Elijah's patterns, transferred by contact, written in ink that was already fading but somehow still visible, somehow still there.

Blackstone had found a new way to keep its guests.

And Dr. Marcus Lee was beginning to understand: he wasn't investigating Daniel's disappearance.

He was documenting his own.

[END OF CHAPTER]

Coming Up:

The east wing has been sealed for "structural repairs," but Alex's curiosity has always outweighed caution. In Chapter 5, he discovers Blackstone's forbidden archives—files dating back to 1891, experiments that should never have been attempted, and the first documented appearance of the Mourner. Some histories are locked away for good reason. Others are locked away because they're still happening, still writing themselves in blood and salt and the spaces between heartbeats. What Alex finds will change everything. What finds Alex will change him.

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