Yes, that's true. Why rush things when all I have to do is kiss Alex a few times and nothing more for an entire year? Hmm, that's going to be very easy.
All the fear I had felt until now completely vanished. There was no longer any question of being a coward.
"Actually, Soan, why don't you wonder how I know you're my brother lover ? Don't you find that rather strange?"
"Sorry, my little Angi, but it doesn't surprise me at all. You make your brother believe you're an angel, when in reality you're just a wolf in sheep's clothing."
"Oh really? Why would you say that? I have nothing against you, you know. You're the one who doesn't want peace."
"Peace, you say? I saw you in front of the bar. And to be honest, I kissed Soren on purpose. I knew it would make you angry, and it worked. You're too easy to read."
"I knew you were behind Soren's change in behavior. Aren't you ashamed to be jealous of your lover's brother?"
"Jealous? Tell me, does Soren know that you followed him everywhere at school and spied on us?"
How could he know that? It's true that back in high school, I already knew he was with Sohan, but I didn't know his name or his last name. I watched Soren all the time at school because I was worried and didn't want to leave him alone. I found out he was in a relationship during a dinner one evening. Soren was on a call, and I overheard what he was saying. That's how I discovered he had been in a relationship all along. I knew it from the beginning, but I refused to accept it.
"Anyway, there's no point in telling Soren about it, because I'm sure Soren wants me to know about his relationship. So it's probably for the best."
"You're nothing but a stale piece of bread with no flavor. I don't care about you anyway. As long as I'm with Soren, I won't hold back from killing you."
"Ah! I knew you had no heart, Sohan. What could I have possibly done to you in this life for you to be so cruel to me?"
I didn't know why, but it hurt me to see Sohan being so cruel to me when I had done nothing to him. I just wanted a peaceful life with my big brother. I didn't want trouble with anyone. If I thought once again about everything that had happened to me, I would burst into tears right now. How could he say something like that—threatening to kill me?
I thought I was strong, but I wasn't. Even though I had returned to the past, one thing had changed: the love between Soren and me. We managed to stay together until now, but there are always tragic elements in our lives. I wanted to leave behind my egocentric and combative side, but I suppose I'll have to adopt truly radical methods in order to survive.