"Ek galat rehti"
gakatfehmi haste khelte rishte ko barbad kar sakti hai, do dilo ko tod sakti hai ise jitni jaldi thik kiya jaaye utna sahi hota hai lekin kayi baar hum kuch galat fehmiyo ko door nahi kar paate aur isi wajah se hum kuch logo se bohot door ho jaate hain. wo doori hum chahate nahi hain lekin kuch situation hi aisi ban jaati hai ki hame na chahte hue yeh sab karna pad jata hai jo hum karne ke liye kabhi soch bhi nahi sakte.
hum dono ne kabhi socha nahi tha itni jaldi aisa kuch hone wala hai par kaash ki socha hota to hum aaj alag na hote. bohot pyaar kiya tha ek dusre se lekin shayad vishwas pakka nahi tha agar hota to tootna itna aasan nahi hota jitni aasani se sab toot gaya.
wajah kya thi hum dono hi nahi sake aur shayad ab to kabhi samjha bhi nahi payenge ya yeh kahu ki hamne samajhne ki koshish hi nahi ki kabhi. par koshish zaroor karni chahihe. kehte hain na agar rishta zaroori hai to galtiyan bhool jani chahiye lekin yeh hum shayad kar nahi paate kuch ego kuch gussa ya aur bhi bohot kuch aa jata hai bich mein hame rok leta hai.magar us wajah kayi pyare rishte barbad ho jate hain.
wo dono ek dusre se bohot pyaar karte the ya shayad aaj bhi karte hain, magar ab wo sath nahi kyunki woh us galatfehmi ko door nahi sake aur unhone karna chaha bhi nahi, ek ko lagta raha samne wale ko qadar hi nahi meri to dusra uske intezaar mein baitha raha ki wo hi laut aaye, koshish dono kar sakte the magar dono ne kiya sirf intezaar aur usi bich ek galat fehmi aa gayi ki use to qadar hi nahi meri jiske liye mai din raat mar raha hoon, jab use pyar hi nahi mujhse to mai kyu hi baat karu ab usse.
hamari life mein kayi baar aisi hi situation aa jaati hai aur meri life mein bhi sudden kuch aisi hi situation hai, mai use kuch kehna bhi chahu par keh hi nahi paati aur shayad uske dil mein bhi kuch aisa hi ho ya mai yeh maan koon ki ab use zarurat nahi meri....?
kabhi jiske liye hum sab kuch hua karte the aaj hum uske liye kuch bhi nahi mahaz ek ajnabee hain jiski use koi zarurat nahi, bas use yeh gakatfehmi hai ki mai uske bina khush bohot hoon lekin ek sachchaayi yeh bhi hai ki yeh sabse bada jhooth hai, meri zindagi ka koi lamha nahi jab maine use yaad na kiya aur aisa bhi koi pal nahi jab maine yeh na chaha ho ki kaash wo wapas laut aaye lekin ab wo din kabhi aayega nahi shayad wo meri zindagi mein ab wapas nahi aa sakta. mai nahi janti wajah kya thi hum dono ke alag hi jaane ki bass hum alag ho gaye kuch pata nahi chala kyu...
bass wo aakhiri baat "ab mai sath nahi rehna chahata" lekin uski wajah kya yeh mai aaj tak nahi saki aur yeh bhi nahi janti ki wo wajah kabhi mujhe pata chalegi ya nahi, har din isi ummeed mein nikalta hai ki shayad aaj uska message aayega, shayad aaj usse mulaqat ho jaaye lekin ummeed har roz ummeed banke hi reh jaati hai.
shayad ab kuch bacha hi nahi aur shayad ab kabhi kuch thik bhi nahi ho sakta. Lekin yeh jo ummeed hai yeh mujhe chain se jeene nahi deti mujhe lagta ki wo laut aayega aur use lagta hai ki mai use bhool chuki hoon yehi galatfehmi hum dono ko hai, magar sach yeh hai ki pyaar mujhe bhi usse hai aur use bhi mujhse hi hai.
dil tod diya usne phir bhi intezaar bas usi ka hai. wo na chahe mujhe phir pyaar bass usi se hai. koi kabhi jaan nahi sakta meri dil ki tadap ko. usse juda hone ke baad bhi mera har ek pal bass usi ka hai.
Jab hum mile the to mujhe pyar nahi tha usse, usne pyaar karna sikhaya, usne pyaar ka matlab sikhaya, usne mujhe vishwas karna sikhaya,usne mujhe khud se pyaar karwaya aur khud pe vishwas karwaya. us waqt pata nahi tha mujhe ki kabhi mujhe usse itni mohabbat hogi ki uske bina jeene se behtar mai marna samjhungi.sab kuch sahi chalta raha jab tak mujhe usse mohabbat nahi thi, jab tak mujhe uska intezaar nahi tha, jab tak mujhe usse baat karne ki tadap nahi thi, aur jab tak mujhe uski aadat nahi lagi thi. jaise hi uski aadat lagi to aisi lagi ki kuch aur dikhta hi nahi aur ab usse yeh doori hona kya kahu mai kisi se ab hum sath nahi pehle to baatein bohot badi badi thi ab kya ho gaya saare waale toot gaye saari kasmein jo usne meri khaayi thi kis muh se kahu ki wo un sab kasam ko tod ke chala gaya...
uske dil mein mere liye ab pyaar nahi lekin mere dik se itna sa bhi kam nahi hua usko kisi aur ho gaya yeh mai kaise maan loon uski aankhein dekhi hain maine mera naam sunte hi nam ho jaati hain aaj bhi to kaise mai un sab logo ki baat maan loon jo kehte hain ki use mohabbat nahi mujhse, kaise maan loon mai ki wo bhool gaya mujhe jab uski ek ek baat mujhe har ek pal yaad aati hai, uski wo khushboo jo mai aaj tak bhool nahi saki uski wo aawaaz jo aaj bhi mere kaano mein har ek pal goonjti rehti hai.
kya wo sach mein waisa hai jaisa sab kehte hain ya mai sahi hoon aur wo bas majboor hai kisi wajah se....
Nahi janti mai kya sach hai aur kha jhooth hai mujhe bass itna pata hai ki mujhe usse pyaar hai aur bohot hai aur hamesha hi rahega mai kabhi use bhool nahi sakti sab kehte hain bohot kehte hain bhool jaa use move on kar le lekin kehna unke kiye jitna aasaan hai mere liye kar paana utna aasaan nahi. zindagi ke jo pal maine uske sath bitaye unka ehsaas bas mai janti hoon wo log nahi jo use bura batate hain.
haan mana ki wo chhod ke chala gaya mujhe akela tadapte hue par tadpa to wo bhi hoga, mujhe uski wo tadap mehsoos hoti hai, mai raaton mein so nahi paati kuch palo ki neend to uski bhi kharab hui hogi, royi agar mai thi to aankhein to uski nam hui hongi, aur intezaar agar maine kiya uska to shayad palat ke to usne bhi ek baar zaroor dekha hoga.
mai nahi maan sakti ki wo ab kisi aur ke sath hai dekha hai usko maine jhuth bolte hue ki wo khush hai yeh jhuth kehte hue wo aankhein nahi mila paa raha tha mujhse, chehre pe udaasi thi uske, aankhein to mujhse dekhne hi nahi di kahi wo kamzor na pad jaaye,jaanti hoon usne dekha nahi meri taraf lekin sirf meri nazar hatne tak, uske chehre ki jhuthi hasi batati hai ki wo bhi khush nahi mere bina, kehna usko mushkil lagta hoga magar sehna mere kiye bhi aasan nahi hai wo wajah to batata mujhe kamse kam shayad mai samajh jaati use aur uska sath de paati lekin usne sab kuch akele hi kehna aasan samjha. kabhi mere baare mein socha hu nahi kyunki usko lagta hoga itne kam time mein mai kya hi attach hui hongi usse par sach yeh hai ki mujhe uske buna jeena bohot mushkil lag raha hai.
mai chahati hoon wo wapas aaye aur aake kuch na kahe bass seene se laga le aur kahe bass " ab bohot hui doori ab kabhi chhod ke nahi jaaunga door" Mai usse kuch nahi puchungi bass use hamesha apne paas sambhaal ke rakhungi.