"FOR SO LONG"
I've been all over the place, looking for a piece of what I thought was home but all I've been going around are the same circles, I can feel my heart fuming with anger, resentment and disappointment. I can't wrap my mind around the things that have happened in the last 18 months, you could swear that I lost the biggest part of me.
Why are all of my efforts falling in vain, why can't I make a change? I'm doing all I can, I'm trying my best to start on a new page but everything in this universe leads me back to the point and place that used to bring me peace, love & light.
For some reason, my heart yearns for a conversation with her after a long day, my mind craves for her voice when I feel like my head is spinning around and it just makes me mad that she's still the place where my existence collects its peace.
I wanna run high with my head up, I wanna exceed in everything that'll lead me to the life that I never had, I wanna free my spirit from the sorrows that I've been dealing with for the last 18 months.
There's somebody in the back of my mind constantly, I've involved so many girls just so I could get a step further from everything that has her name in it but this heart in my chest continuously drives me off the right path and I don't know how to get back to the light.
I see pretty faces everywhere I go and maybe I should just free my mind, be a young man and pay my attention to the girls that give me pretty looks but, sometimes I fall victim to my own thoughts, I overthink everything and I allow doubt to cloud my self esteem, damn look what heartbreak has done to me.
I've been all over the place, searching for a way out of misery, heartbreak and loneliness.
"ANYTHING FOR LOVE"
For you, I would create a bed of roses, I would climb the mountain to the ninth cloud and tell the entire world about the way I'm foolishly in love with you, I would travel through the ocean just to get a moment with you and I would give the creator hundred more reasons why I would love to live the rest of my life with you.
Our story would put a troubled child to sweet dreams, our story can create a better opportunity for another 19 year old out there to keep his first love and our history can begin the book of the best love that never stayed. For you girl I would swim to the bottom of the sea if it means I'll come back with an opportunity of having a lifetime love with you.
I would..
"JUST LOVIN"
Imagine us doing this thing again, just on another level, no more demons, no more involving other girls and no more playing crazy little games with your mind.
Imagine us standing somewhere, with our eyes closed and our lips kissing so nicely, imagine me calling you "Baby" and you calling me "My Love", imagine us saving each other from the streets, imagine that and tell me if you wouldn't wanna experience that.
I'm sitting here, thinking about your eyes, smile, lips and the way you talk, there's something about you that makes me feel like I can stay with you for hours and hours, it's like you are a safe space and I don't wanna lose that.
I just wanna show you my other side, I'm ready to love and protect you, I'm ready to be yours, I just want you to grab my hand and we can continue our story.
Imagine me kissing your forehead before I leave, imagine us having a good time like yesterday again, imagine us sharing a warm hug before you go home, imagine doing this thing again on another level.