"210124"
Lately I've been feeling like we might have to try something else, I was fooling myself getting involved with love and I was delusional thinking I'd make a good lover to somebody's daughter. I think that it's time that I let you go, because if I'm not possessive, I get jealous and controlling, I'm too toxic for anybody to bear with and you're a beautiful girl who deserves much better than I can give.
We fight too much over the smallest shit and I hate how upset I get, so I think you better leave before I bruise that beautiful face of yours. I fell in love when I wasn't supposed to, I let you get too close, things shouldn't have got this deep.
It gets too toxic and I'm also possessive, we fight too much and I get heated easily, so I think it's best if we go our separate ways. The love we used to have is long gone and the respect we used to share is so messed up now, sometimes my anger gets the best of me and then I cuss you out, I don't wanna keep you where you don't belong.
We don't even show each other love anymore, all we spend our time on is fighting about shit that shouldn't even matter, tell me why we're turning my birthday into a fighting match?
"FOREVER ISN'T PROMISED"
I know that sometimes I might get on her last nerves, I might press her buttons and make her mad but for her to waste time giving me silent treatment ain't the way to go, we're wasting time instead of talking this out.
Forever isn't promised, I don't like going to sleep with her mad at me, this could've been fixed with a simple conversation, we could've been on the call, telling each other the best of things and wishing each other sweet dreams, but here she is punishing me with silence treatment.
I rather she yells at me, cuss me out or cry to get it off her chest because we don't have all the time in the world, life is too short for us to treat each other as if we don't call each other sweet names in good times.
I have my own ego too, I can say to hell with this shit and fuck it but that'll just fuck things up even more, we love each other and we're best friends, I may have gotten on her last nerves but it wasn't my intention.
I love my baby and I don't wanna go to sleep without talking to her.
"A PART OF ME"
This love has gotten rid of my childhood scars, this love has showed me a better side of life and this love has been a home to my soul. Every damn time she leaves, she takes a piece of me with her, everything that she's done for me, to me and with me has become a part of me.
I haven't seen her in months but I still pray for her, she still visits me in my dreams almost every night, I don't know any other connection like this, it's like she's a part of me.
This love has been a Godsend to me, this love's absence has ended my peace and put me in the darkest parts of life and I really hate the feeling because a love like this should remain as one, but we're separated.
Every night I sleep without her feels like another night in hell, I try to keep my head right but God knows as much as I do that her love is a part of me.
This love..