"ON MY SIDE"
I've been stressed out, haven't been my best self in so long, there's a lot that's taken place in the year and a half, I lost so much of myself in my attempts to move on with my life but I didn't know any better, not that there's much change now.
I've met a lot of girls in a small space of time, some I've hurt and some I've used for my distractions, feels like everything just fell out of hands the moment I started living my life without you again.
All the things I had known before I met you was erased after the relationship, it's like you taught me new tricks and gave me a whole new perspective on my own life.
I've spent the last 18 months, trying to detach myself from the history that we have and lately I've been throwing myself into work just to stay away from doing the same old thing: texting you about getting back together.
Guess just about that much sums up how things have been on my side.
"NO MORE REACHING"
The dreams of you stopped, the reminiscence of you still happens every now and then, the move-on still haven't happened for me, I'm still out here trying to erase all the memories and lately the girls ain't been getting my attention, I guess I'm getting used to this pain because I don't even reach out to you anymore.
Had to find light in the dark path that I've been on, had to find peace with things that I can't change and even though I barely give you any fucks anymore, I still love you and my care for you ain't changed one bit, I just gotta let you be the person that you discovered after breaking up with me.
The dreams of you I miss, a moment with you from my third eye would make a difference and just because I don't reach out anymore doesn't mean I don't care about you, I just found a better way to live with my own misery.